RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 01/10/2026worst meltdown of the year and all i have to show for it is a torn shirt and a hole in the tile 120
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 19/09/2026genuinely i might be the dumbest mf bc for 2 hours i legit just thought ppl deleted ALL messages talking abt me on a server i was in and it soured my mood throughout the walk w my mom i was js sulking and panicked. turns out the search bar jst never checked one of the age restricted channels. fuck 110
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 10/09/2026u express ur genuine apologies to someone and then get treated like actual living trash for no reason haha On everything , Fuck you and eat shit i'm never humiliating myself for you ever again 010
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 06/09/2026ppl cant harass me anymore so they go after friends. ppl so confidently peddle legitimate misinformation as a method of embarrassing & harassing them and im tired. genuinely stop this shit. confront me if you have a personal gripe or something you want to talk to me about. i welcome it 010
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 29/08/2026brain PLEASE for the love of everything holy, STOP giving me dreams where i ruined others lives and broke their trust forever only to jolt me back into the real world 010
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 28/08/2026i think people are growing really sick of me and i don't know what to do about it 010
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 26/08/2026by this point i do understand that it shouldn't be this huge of a deal for me but holy christ i don't mean to demean or dismiss anyone else's experiences especially those dealing with more tangible, legitimately distressing matters. but fuck it really hasn't felt easy at any point i was just coping 010
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 26/08/2026this is without a doubt one of the lowest points i've dipped this month. like i've never felt such insane dread rain down on me before in such a short amount of time i'm breaking records as we speak 010
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 26/08/2026i feel like everyone who is even in remote proximity to me just straight up dies into a slow, painful death, because my aura is so abysmal, my energy is just so awful and poisonous it slowly eats at you 010
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 14/08/2026i only post less because i've started journaling more this month 010
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 02/08/2026i rrally hate thinking about why my peers want to be around me so much bc every answer feels like some version of pity 000
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 01/08/2026i'm feeling unusually hostile and aggressive. i've never been more frustrated about anything in quite a while 000
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 01/08/2026my god how exhausting it is to live this way on a day to day basis and i dont mean to say im constantly screwed over and over its actually far from that, my circumstances actually treat me really, really well its just that my mind cant just accept that and always has to pull off some bs ALL the time 110
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 31/07/2026here goes! my life sucks. my school sucks. my art sucks mad dick. my friends are great and i love and cherish their presence but i suck at keeping them close. i dont like myself. im no longer able to masturbate without feeling terrible about the relationships i ultimately neglected and fumbled 100
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 31/07/2026theres no way i posted this much already in the first time in a while and it's at the end / start of a month. let's go ??? if i spend my efforts in getting everything out by tonight i may actually win the game of life here 010
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 31/07/2026what's more cruel to me is how this became such an ubiquitous act to do to people that it's become such a recognizable trope in many forms that i've seen it enough to reference it. like i can list at least ... 3 shows that this. can you believe people were shamed this way 100
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 31/07/2026i DONT like putting these spiritual buzzwords out there like omen or energy or juju or spirits but i literally know no other words that best describe this turmoil thats been churning inside of me since tonight like it genuinly feels like im being targeted at my most vulnerable by some external fofce 100
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 31/07/2026way to end july on a bad note. bummer. im not the most spiritual person but stuff like this is legitimately a bad omen i should probably be taking more seriously. gotta do the right productive rituals to protect my peace of mind and push this unwelcome energy away lest it festers further and grows 100
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 31/07/2026how do you stop taking someone's words personally especially if said someone is your own mother. i can't believe im still shaken and triggered by what she has to say about me given how hard i've structured my life to distance myself from her emotionally 100
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 21/07/2026i've never felt more separate from a happy experience in my whole entire life. i should be having fun right now 000
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 21/07/2026good things happen to me but my life still just fucking sucks. why's that? 000
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 13/07/2026the worst part about everything is im legitimately starting to feel dumber. like iq points are being shaved off as we speak. lose my train of thought so regularly and my articulation and comprehension overall is at rock bottom. my progress in art is entering a decline. idk what to do 000
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 13/07/2026i feel so Vaguely Ill all the time. theres never a point in my day or week where id say im 100% healthy both in body and mind and its like im always fatigued, exhausted, or pained, in some degree constantly its a pervasive feeling that i learned to block out 100
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 12/07/2026how carelessly i alienated myself from practically everyone in my life in just 3 months is an insane feat 000
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 12/07/2026if ppl are truly praying for my downfall that much they genuinely should just punch me in the face 000
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 12/07/2026if things never work out for me can i just be generic background chopped unc in your life Pleaaaaaaaaase 000
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 12/07/2026there's an indescribable weight on my chest like i know this isn't really possible due to anatomy and such but sometimes i really feel my Heart caged and bounded as it pulses like it's being squeezed against something and regardless is just continuing to throb and pump as always 100
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 12/07/2026im expriencing pains at my joints and extremities more often and i dont know what to make of it 000
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 10/07/2026my tailbone is hurting like the pain is really pulsing, i think this is a sign of my tail growing in. is my furry tf journey starting ?!?!?!??!?! 000
RiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 06/07/2026being logical and rational, doing your best to make sense of everything you've been doing, is simply just not enough to save you from screwing friendships over and treating people badly no matter which way you put it you would still be selfish at your core. ruled over by inaction 110
Reposted by RiXyRiXy @ymi50fkd.bsky.social · 27/05/2026we r put in a position where we r always cornered threatened and killed .. the only practical "escape" from this is to constantly humiliate and minimise ourselves, even then we r still considered undeserving of the most basic respect n courtesy everyone else receives. nightmare world 001
