vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 20/07/2025Better late than never - there is a lot in there not acted on yet and people just now finding and responding to posts can find strength and resolve the more they follow the threads 110
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 12/07/2025the mechanics of being "ashamed" are becoming very important to understand these days. very different from "shame". Being "ashamed" invokes grieving, anger, hurt, sadness, loneliness, as well as a sense of justice, strength and bravery. it requires rituals and practices of grounding #witchsky 030
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 07/07/2025 stabilize the whole. We have discussed the risk, but emphasize that this just a delay for me. It is such an odd decision, but it is the superior decision. Now, I just have to build the life around it -- and f cking dread calling my neurosurgeon today as they are not holistically inclined 010
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 07/07/2025Here I am - her support. Such as it is. No one is really expecting me to live more than 5 more years anyway. The recovery from this procedure will be hugely demanding and fuck it, I'm a DNR. Right now, the risk to take is to help the person who everyone depends on rebuild her foundations ... 110
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 07/07/2025My spouse is just ... coming apart at the seams from stress - job, life, her health, my health, trying to deal with our adult son who has autism/learning disabilities, her mom & dad - who live with us have health and dementia showing up, our daughter who is struggling with things and (cont) 120
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 07/07/2025Here is the thing -- I should be 4 weeks out from the procedure but I had to put a stop to it all. That was a hard thing, but neccessary and okay - but I am struggling to find my footing (pun) and a way to get through the next year or so until the time is better for me to have it done (contd) 110
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 07/07/2025...8 to 12 mini strokes, plus 8 to 10 hours under general anesthesia which will cause significant cognitive issues. It will, hopefully, remove the catastrophic risk, but won't remove any symptoms I may have been acquiring. My world is a little silent - it's hard to talk, to do etc. But (cont) 110
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 07/07/2025... a 40% chance of catastrophic bleed on my brainstem. The procedure they used caused about 8 to 12 mini strokes just to find that out. My aphasia, balance, etc is pretty bad. The proposed procedure to possibly fix it will come at the price of another (cont'd) 110
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 07/07/2025And a health update - so I found out in addition to my cerebral aneurysm I have spontaneously developed a dAVF anterior to my brainstem. It's a rare location, they think it is related to my combat experiences (which boy, has that retriggered my PTSD in all new ways) and currently has a (cont'd) 210
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 07/07/2025As I venture into solo rpg, it appears that everything around my altar is joining me. It occurred to me that a narrative rpg can function much like a soul map - now I am exploring this as a tool. Also, the 2 crow fledglings call and ruffle when dog and I come out because it's snack time. #witchsky 010
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 05/07/2025It's wonderful. I am a Clockwork Carrion Crow who is so young and dumb I can't find my way out of a paper bag. 110
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 05/07/2025Difficult, So much is going on, but most important of all - the crow fledglings are here. They get dropped off in the yard every morning at 8. Strangely enough I have begun to play a solo RPG called "Be Like A Crow" and all my everything has come to play with me. #witchesunited #rpg #belikeacrow 180
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 29/04/2025Oh, I lost street cred... turns out the whole neighborhood has been in silent awe of my "homing" pigeons only for me to get into this awkward, over-the-fence conversation and say "no, they're not mine, they just like me and get excited when I come out" #witchsky #augury 060
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 27/04/2025So, in my garden are uneven rock/cement pile and wood steps to practice your taichi on. Hard as steel you stand, flowing as water you must move to make it between the stones or you disturb the koi who line up to watch you. And the crows, the crows who laugh at you #WitchesUnited 010
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 27/04/2025I caught on early with the help of my maternal grandparents who all but hated my mother for her burgeoning beliefs. It was, "kittens in burlap bags" as Nana put in. "Dried shit sold as coal" as grandpa said. Grandpa picked up cars off the ground for a lark when he was drunk but Nana had a pistol. 100
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 27/04/2025I have the odd vantage point of self-hatred history. I was raised by people who were ignorant of history's main lesson that if you start as "other" you cannot educate, buy, or buy-in to something enough to make yourself acceptable 100
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 27/04/2025So...here is an ugly cocktail - I am the parent of someone with autism, a child (no longer speaking terms) of an old school eugenecist and I support my right wing in-laws who live with me (who I don't have the luxury of X-ing out of my life). Plus - my own disabling condition is hitting warp drive. 100
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 23/04/2025There is magic in un-gardening. I am making a quiet space as I am in a very still and suspended time right now. So I un-garden by digging up the lawn and letting local plants return. The crows come and talk and laugh about it all day. #Witchsky 181
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 16/04/2025I saw this last night plus the article listing the latest in numbers fleeing IRS and thought "oh boy" 010
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 16/04/2025"Touch earth" sometimes literally, we have a practice of moving a stack of rocks in a garden for no other purpose than when you have become lost you go move your rocks until you have found yourself again 010
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 16/04/2025Breathing. Checking in. In between all the rain I wound up stepping outside and into an encounter with a little juncko wren that stunned itself on the glass escaping the hawk. So I held it, whistled the yard song and it went to sleep for an hour before waking up in a flurry and bounce. #Witchsky 020
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 08/04/2025Singing is a core part of my practice. There are just endless forms from very ritualistic and formulaic chants, mantras, supplications, to more free form whistling that are unique to the practitioner 000
Reposted by vorbitori vaś e mulerusticgorilla @keeptrack.bsky.social · 08/04/2025The U.S. Energy Department is proposing to shut down its Office of Clean Energy Demonstrations - which is a goal of Project 2025 Project 2025, Page 369: "The DOE Office of Clean Energy Demonstrations (OCED)...should be eliminated" www.axios.com/pro/energy-p...axios.comScoop: DOE proposes shutting down clean energy officeA departmental presentation describes how the agency plans to quickly carry out DOGE cuts in the office. 064
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 08/04/2025After a profound "incident" or soul-challenging encounter, there should be foundational rebuilding rather than confirmational wall construction. If it makes sense, I am making circles on the Earth with my feet while pushing the air with my hands and chanting old things #witchsky #witchesunited 070
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 08/04/2025The EU press, in slamming a parliamentary choice about an AI tool for an info analyzer said "when you want facts, why would you ask a gossiper?" There in lies how I see AI, a tool yes, but a very limited one that makes connections and assumptions that are often invalid 010
Reposted by vorbitori vaś e muleLeChatNoir @meidasog.bsky.social · 06/04/2025#HandsOFF #LosAngeles 0114
Reposted by vorbitori vaś e muleRicky Davila @therickydavila.bsky.social · 06/04/2025What an absolutely incredible sight in New York City today. 182102471805
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 06/04/2025This is so odd, we have our own hateful crescent, but shaped more like a pac man in RI that has been desperately trying to gobble the coast and cities 030
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 04/04/2025I am not familiar with the three mineral theory, do tell - I am always so fascinated by what opposite ends of the compass develop synchronously 210
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 04/04/2025Yes, that is closer. That is a good representation, I am not familiar with the story line enough to know how well it captures the 3 body problem of it all 110
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 04/04/2025Yin and Yang have been done such a great disservice in their presentation to the West in the overemphasis on a graphical image. It creates the idea that there are 2 things there, when there are - at minimum - 3. In the third is where Tao resides, where Dharma speaks where Mantra weaves #witchsky 1100
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 04/04/2025Good, you're an adult when you pause, think it through and then go "hell yeah" 110
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 04/04/2025It depends on whether or not you make it past 3am without doing it and/or how much you obsess over it 120
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 01/04/2025Cannot say enough how right you are, think of it as cooking or stirring a pot, only you are stirring the air. It is a practice done by many 000
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 01/04/2025They are also used for alerting and forewarning. They are good tattletales about the energies of who enters 010
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 01/04/2025Rising and recovering. However I find myself in a unique position in which age, event, awareness, and a moment of physical pain caused by others political choices have caused a "branding" and I am processing that. No one else should go through that. These are not words on a page. 000
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 01/04/2025There is a difference between our historical line of paid services and the modern commidification of the item without the service or the spirit, one needs to def be burnt to the ground 020
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 30/03/2025BTW, the male is progressing with understanding sign. He got that I moved his dinner up and general direction, but then went in opposite (but correct) traverse sign direction to carcass. Progress that he knows to look at me, knows to get up to get better view of me too 000
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 30/03/2025So, this is my bonded female cooper's hawk, she "hides" under that bush by the feeders because she can. The male, who is about twice her size was here yesterday, goofus got his feet tangled up but freed himself. Crows came by. I came home yesterday. They are all looking in the windows #witchsky 110
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 29/03/2025Casting LoShu magic squares tonight and I was reminded of the importance of doing castings that look at everyone as they lived together and fit together, not just the individual -- quicker diagnostic, my family is a sh*tshow this year for a reason #WitchesUnited 020
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 28/03/2025Very good news! My brain vein architecture is as abnormal as my heart! Yes to an aneurysm (watch & wait) but no to DAVF !!!! Celebrate !!! 7 days of recovery to go #WitchesUnited 000
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 27/03/2025Ooof. Recovery for 7 days. For those not in the know, when you're intersex your heart architecture may be "abnormal" and that should be a part of your chart and treatment but it can't right now or they might run into a funding issue so its a surprise on the table #WitchSky #lgbtq+ #resist 000
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 26/03/2025All I can say is sh*t. American healthcare at it's best. On the bright side, the copay for the test was less than expected and we made it. Had to pay it before I go in at 7am but damn. The total test is 18k. I mean, I know its serious, its a 5 hour thing and 3 day recovery, but its sinking in. 030
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 26/03/2025Yesterday - 2 birds so dark they looked like shadows showed up. They are pigeons, called "spread-blue" a rare genetic formation, beautiful and unnerving to see. Here is pic of regular pigeon next to one. My pigeons are important keepers of signs of community #augury #witchsky 080
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 26/03/2025Crows are so friendly and share a great sense of community responsibility. One of my earliest teachers had me start with finches and told me to sit with them daily and watch them, then expand outward if I really wanted to understand how all communities worked 020
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 24/03/2025All of the crows staying today, sitting on top of the house, in the backyard, in the front yard, looking in the window and calling every few hours their call they have for me to come out and show my self and answer. I am grateful for the care they take of me and mine. 130
vorbitori vaś e mule @vorbitori-vasemule.bsky.social · 24/03/2025Come from different corners from the house thinking we were replying to each other...the smell of the altar incense suddenly filling a room long after it had been burnt when emotions got too high #Witchsky 150