Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 03/10/2026Still sort of feeling dazed about this hours later. 050
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 02/10/2026I uh, I have an appointment in the next two weeks now with Endocrinology. So, uh, that's a thing! 130
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 02/10/2026Okay, so, I've answered to "Jad" for like 20 years now since my paladin Jadissa back in BC. I've probably answered to Jad more than my actual name in my life! So, uh, it doesn't seem too crazy to consider having that be part of my new name, right. 060
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 01/10/2026Filled out the gender clinic consult request form today. 170
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 01/10/2026"Thank fuck I finished the end of quarter avalanche of bullshit. Finally, I can - oh. Sure, assign a half dozen new things because now it's the start of a new quarter. Sure. Cool." Exhausted by it all. I spend so much of my job now NOT doing what I think of as my job. 020
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 01/10/2026Everything Gunmetal Olympus lives rent free in my head. It's all so incredibly well written. And gay. Extremely gay. 184
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 01/10/2026Finally fixed (replaced) the dumb sprayer hose on our kitchen sink that's been leaking for most of the past year. I've gotten a lot of fairly important tasks done in the past few months. 050
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 30/09/2026Not for the first time, but I wish I had more trans girl friends, especially ones that have socially transitioned and changed their names. 140
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 30/09/2026Naming TTRPG and game characters is really tough for me, and trying to figure out a new name for myself feels like that but harder. Unfortunately, my brain has decided that I need a name I'm okay with before I can move forward with medical stuff so I've been stalled for weeks now. 140
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 23/09/2026It's bi visibility day and I'm pretty torn on how I feel about it. On the one hand, bi flag colors are really great. On the other hand, I did a lot of thinking about sexuality while I was reconsidering gender, and I really think any attraction to guys is fairly situational these days. 130
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 21/09/2026Told my psychiatrist I'm trans today. He was extremely positive and supportive, and told me up front if I ever needed any letters or anything that he would be very happy to help. Pretty much what I expected from him because he is a great guy, but still nice to have it actually play out like that. 370
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 14/09/2026Uggggh, I thought I did such a good job at planning out everything today and then I found out something wasn't where I thought it was and NOW I AM RUNNING LATE and it is THE WORST. 010
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 13/09/2026Trade show starts tomorrow and I have to look like a guy for all of it and it sucks. 130
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 09/09/2026I have discovered that I greatly dislike silicone skin glue / medical adhesive. It is an absolute nightmare to remove from things. 010
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 04/09/2026This is all sorts of confusing as someone that's only ever lived in northern IL, WI, and MN. My dad was from MD and lived in TX for years so I know I have had some of that bleed into pronunciation/words, but...California, really? I'm pretty sure it's just saying it because I don't say "bubbler". 000
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 04/09/2026So @luthvian.bsky.social got me some thigh highs from Sock Dreams for my birthday and included a little note with the order, and got a response. It is incredibly sweet. 160
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 31/08/2026I deeply do not want to spend my birthday tonight raiding, and I entirely blame Blizzard for dropping the new tier when they did. 360
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 26/08/2026There should be a specific word that describes the pain you feel when you read your horribly written fanfiction 20+ years later. Maybe German has a word like that already. 140
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 12/08/2026I really need to find some communities with trans folks. 140
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 25/07/2026Genuinely fairly happy with the vibe and the aesthetic today. Really still an extremely weird feeling to be happy with how I look in any way. 070
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 20/07/2026Getting a bit better with practice - I got colors from OPI for this attempt. The blue isn't right but the vibes are there. The other hand is a mirror of this one. I think my next attempt is going to be while I actually have brain pills running so maybe I don't get distracted as easily. 030
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 16/07/2026Went to the vet yesterday - first time I've been out in public in a skirt. 060
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 14/07/2026There's days when I really miss the entire concept and community of "after dark Twitter". I have taken more pictures of myself (both sfw and otherwise) in the past 2-3 weeks than I have in probably the past 5 years combined. And like - I don't hate them. I actually like some of them. 130
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 10/07/2026Really disappointed using this polish actually. Going to give it another try but eesh. 110
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 08/07/2026It's still wild to me that people have been out here actually enjoying shopping for clothes their whole lives. 140
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 07/07/2026Decided I'm (currently) okay with any pronouns, told my team at work yesterday. It doesn't feel like that much - our team is three people including myself, @luthvian.bsky.social , and our coworker who is trans - so basically the safest (and already queerest) team possible to tell. 2100
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 05/07/2026Next time I paint my nails I'm just going to use a normal base coat instead of a peel off base coat. I painted these Friday and now they're already banged up. I'm at least getting a bit better with it. I need to unfuck my cuticles though. 040
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 04/07/2026It's a profoundly weird feeling to actually want to take pictures of myself. 020
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 04/07/2026Can't really think of what to say to accompany this picture. 170
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 03/07/2026New lesson from last night - don't rush the top coat. 000
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 30/06/2026Nail polish peeling off does feel bad, I've discovered. 030
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 30/06/2026I started with a peel off base coat just in case this whole thing hit my brain wrong. And it didn't, and then I was a bit sad that the nails would only last a few days at most. Then my brain pointed out that I could try a different color when it came off, and that landed really well mentally. 240
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 29/06/2026I didn't do a great job, but to be fair this is the first time I've ever painted my nails. I expected other skills like gunpla to be a bit more applicable, but it's also just possible it was nerves over anything else. I've made a lot of progress in the last two months around gender, though. 180
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Reposted by VitaemachinaAres || exaltxix @exaltxix.bsky.social · 10/05/2026ANNIHILATION is now available for free on itch. This is an 18 page collection of hand painted illustrations about climate anxiety, abandonment and dread about destructive human nature. Fair warning - it hurts. I'll post a few pages below. ares-xix.itch.io/annihilationares-xix.itch.ioANNIHILATION by Ares || exaltxix 46561
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 30/04/2026If there's one thing I've learned about having a 100% queer team at work it's that decision-making sure is an issue. 040
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 30/04/2026I truly think that a Yubikey might be one of the only tech purchases I've made over the past few years that I'm actually happy about. 110
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 27/04/2026I am so sick of hearing about AI and this is the first day of this conference. 040
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 26/04/2026Film you've watched more than six times with a gif. Hard mode: no Star Trek, Star Wars, LOTR, Marvel, Disney, or Ghibli. 110
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 23/04/2026Getting ready to go to such a long damn tradeshow and I would really rather not. 120
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 22/04/2026Just wrapped up Act 1 of our Lancer #InGoldenFlame campaign after 16 months. The longest game I've ever run, and the most work I've ever put into a creative endeavor. Could not ask for better players. We're taking a bit of a break before we try to tackle Act 2. It feels so weird to be done for now. 040
Reposted by VitaemachinaVƎX Werewolf @vexwerewolf.bsky.social · 14/04/2026I made one of my customary shitposts for the Tagetes #LancerRPG 2334127
Vitaemachina @vitaemachina.bsky.social · 06/04/2026This is such a damn good Gorgon. Love the creepy feet/hands. 110
