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emotions scrapbook @affectingbot.bsky.social · 28/05/2026

You believe me like a god. I betray you like a man.

金光瑶 / JIN GUANGYAO. @ventriloquism.bsky.social · 29/09/2025

If I had a tael for every time I’ve been kicked down the stairs, I’d have two taels…which isn’t a lot, but it’s weird that it happened twice.

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emotions scrapbook @affectingbot.bsky.social · 27/09/2025

With every flicker of feeling that smile shifts, daring a confident second in the sun, then hiding away behind his lips, then peeking again. You can read a man’s soul with a smile like that, can see his every hope and fear and love, and…

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金光瑶 / JIN GUANGYAO. @ventriloquism.bsky.social · 26/09/2025

[It hurts to remember all the good times.]

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金光瑶 / JIN GUANGYAO. @ventriloquism.bsky.social · 07/06/2025

/ judge me if you must but my mind is huge

What if I wrote a Sangyao fic where JGY takes NHS hostage during the Guanyin temple arc and escapes with him? And maybe NHS has a mental breakdown about falling back in love with his brother's murderer? And maybe JGY was already in love with him?

#look i'm Just Saying... #and yes JGY has to fend off NHS' assassination attempts & yes he binds NHS to him somehow so he can't escape. obviously.

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emotions scrapbook @affectingbot.bsky.social · 28/07/2025

He is trying desperately to hang on to his belief in normality while faced with two emotionally horrific problems at once.

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emotions scrapbook @affectingbot.bsky.social · 03/07/2025

The pitying rain began to fall; I seemed to love the sound far more than I had ever done before. For rain has a friendly sound to one who's six feet underground, and scarce the friendly voice or face: a grave is such a quiet place.

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emotions scrapbook @affectingbot.bsky.social · 02/07/2025

You know, when I start telling you something by saying, “I was thinking about what you said about…,” it always gives me pleasure to say that, to let you know that I was brooding on your words.

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金光瑶 / JIN GUANGYAO. @ventriloquism.bsky.social · 02/07/2025

[‘Take my hand Promise me everything will be okay Hold me tight Near you, I still dream Yes, yes, I want to stay But I don't know how to love anymore I've been too foolish Please, stop it, stop How I regret it No, I didn't want all of this…’]

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金光瑶 / JIN GUANGYAO. @ventriloquism.bsky.social · 28/06/2025

[ Your ex is hitting you up / But you no longer give a fuck Leaving that loser on read / Don't let him back in your bed ’Cause your energy's precious ✨ ]

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VIRIDIS_QUO 🌱 @viridisquo.bsky.social · 28/06/2025

the darkness in your heart is vast and deep—but if you can stare into it unflinching, you'll never know fear again.

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emotions scrapbook @affectingbot.bsky.social · 28/06/2025

A hand closes awkwardly on his shoulder, paternal in a way that pricks goosebumps against his skin, and for all he once wished for a sliver of recognition – a single, uninterrupted moment of his father’s attention – now he knows that he is not the poorest actor in the room.

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VIRIDIS_QUO 🌱 @viridisquo.bsky.social · 23/06/2025

i was afraid of being afraid. i wounded the silence. the vast spaces sharpened my grief.

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emotions scrapbook @affectingbot.bsky.social · 25/06/2025

Once, those eyes raked over him with attentive care every time they so much as passed through the same room. Now his gaze rested as always above his head, which never failed to inspire a childish desire to push up onto his toes and make height.

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金光瑶 / JIN GUANGYAO. @ventriloquism.bsky.social · 24/06/2025

[…am I the monster parents tell their children about at night?]

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emotions scrapbook @affectingbot.bsky.social · 22/06/2025

Tell me, father, which to ask forgiveness for: what I am, or what I’m not? Tell me, mother, which should I regret: what I became, or what I didn’t?

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金光瑶 / JIN GUANGYAO. @ventriloquism.bsky.social · 22/06/2025

Your courtesy name is special to me. I confess that sometimes I might be a little greedy about keeping it to myself. But I’m not angry with you. If you want to play weird games with Niè Huáisāng—and she wants to play with you as well—then it’s none of my business. Come here, Chéngměi. Please?

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金光瑶 / JIN GUANGYAO. @ventriloquism.bsky.social · 22/06/2025

I’ll be waiting. [He certainly cuts a pretty little figure from behind, too.]

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金光瑶 / JIN GUANGYAO. @ventriloquism.bsky.social · 22/06/2025

/ put pride flag overlays on all of the profile pics of the accounts i’m logged into so it’s easier for shipping purposes/i don’t have to make a thread announcing who happens to be what sexuality etc

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