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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 10/08/2025

Tooth agony continues but I found some old writing here you go I will not claim it's good but it is certainly something and it definitely exists do with that what you will

Moving on from this important announcement, yea, even to another, different important announcement:

Who among us has not walked with shit in our pants and a GRIN on our face? Who among us has not eaten food three days past it’s use by date? Who among us has not become fascinated by someone else’s

WEIRD SEX LIFE

and been sent to prison?

Those who say “nay, not I!” will be dealt with efficiently and brutally and with a minimum of collateral damage. (The High Inquisitrix takes no responsibility for those purged from reality by mistake. Ye did something, or we wouldn’t have done something to ye. It’s thy fault.) Please await thy disposal calmly so that ye do not disturb the box full of dogs, lest we need to replace the damned things again.

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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 08/05/2025

Also just to be clear, I am actually unable to get anything at all without help, it just will not happen

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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 20/02/2025

I wrote something. It is unpleasant. Genuinely consider before you read it. It is a warning.

Picture the twisted bony hands of suicides reaching out of the mouths of the men writing checks to themselves, the vacant huddled husks of homes slouching sideways into the sinkholes of speculation, the dull filmy eye of a crow stamped under business shoes.

They'll tell you you need to learn, to be made to understand, you're the wrong kind of smart, the kind that doesn't know anything, this is for the best.

These networks run on teeth and skin and hair, they gamble your blood for winnings of slick bones and mass graves on the poker table of the end, they killed themselves for a taste of your death and they'll kill someone else for another lick, they'll sell your dreams back to you with their names on the by line and watch your children call you disloyal faithless and better off dead, they applaud chains and cheer for bruised ribs, twisted knees, blood flowing from the mouth, they will dance in TV studios while your tomb molders with unpaid bills they'll collect from your friends and family, they are the smiling masks of the great abyss and the parasitic growths in your culture, eating your gifts and turning them into Moloch's paper, sacrificing your ancestors and descendants alike on the altar of their will.

They will scoff at every villain you write and invent a new one that could never be put to paper, an adversary so bleak that it can only be real.

They are the demon-kings of the future and they will make a shining city on a hill with the pyre of your childhood home to light it when the sun goes black under the veil of their petty hate.

You will shit in the mud in which you sleep and be beaten for not cleaning up nice enough and you'll thank them for the kindness.

They will shoot your siblings and parents and grandparents in the street and use their bodies for art.

They are the serial killers of bloodlines.

They are the beating heart of Order At Any Price.

What resistance is even enough? The angels are screaming. The bare minimum is everything. It's what they want, it's what they'll take. Is there a line you won't cross? They'll cross every line just to get one over on you. For the satisfaction of laughing at you. For the opportunity to say 'no'. To see you a little frustrated. No price is too great.

What resistance can possibly go too far?

How is it possible to avoid any act that will stop this?

What is the shape of the thing that will survive these circumstances?

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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 21/01/2025

Finally edited these up, original is from some days ago, I don't remember how long

One of three edits of a sky photo. It appears to be a sunset under storm clouds hanging low over a mountain, but isn't. It has been given a heavy layer of aggressive edits that make it appear to be digitally painted. Determining what is cloud, what is sky, what is land, and what is noise from edits is almost impossible.

One of three edits of a sky photo. It appears to be a sunset, but isn't. It's very low contrast except for the bottom left corner, which is blown-out, overexposed sunset colors. The rest is a haze of purple-grey with heavily light-sculpted clouds softened to indistinct formlessness along the right side. They may be part of the left, as well.

One of three edits of a sky photo. It appears to be a sunset, but isn't. The sky is dark and clean, with a strong gradient from off-white to orange-salmon to pink to desaturated violet to deep indigo-black. The clouds along the right side are heavily sculpted by the light. At the top right, an indistinct green-grey haze, perhaps a light leak, intrudes on the frame.

The original sky photo. A grey gradient sky is obscured on the right by foreground clouds. Everything is indistinct, greyish. A light leak intrudes at top right.

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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 02/12/2024

This photo of a Chicago hailstorm became the cover of Known Demise - Sick & Cold & Blue, I wrote Collaboration Will Fucking Kill You that's made the rounds here and Twitter before, and I did lyrics synths and vox for Memorrhage - Anyo (featured as Nulldusk Heavy Industries).

$A murky, blurry cityscape in blood red haze is beneath a cyan glowing sky filled with falling hail. A heavily sharpened power line cuts across the dividing line like a fracture in glass, touching the top of a water tower in the distance.$

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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 20/10/2024

Here's some other favorite photoedits since I'm doing that now

An aurora over trees eaten by glitch-mold in the shape of camera sensors failing in low light.

A blood red haze over a blurred, dull cityscape is capped by a coldly iridescent hailstorm. A thin, heavily sharpened arc of a power line cuts through the lower third, touching the top of a distant water tower.

Curse, looking dazed, enwreathed by glitch. The lighting throws aggressive shadows across its face from hair and lips. A thin lunule of its neck is lit.

Curse in a nondescript hallway, distorted into a blood-void shape. Some details of its form show through, many do not.

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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 20/10/2024

On account of @sineadthefae.bsky.social being one of the few distractions I have from the pain and inspiring me, I am going to post one my favorite pic of me ever, which is NSFW and has in the past been tagged as sexual, but is definitely artistic nudity. Photoedit also mine

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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 17/10/2024

Last edit tonight. This is very special: I photographed this aurora myself. I was not expecting to do that, but I did. I've been waiting on inspiration to hit me. Getting the glitch and the ugly low light grain to play nicely with the small bits of detail I did catch with this crappy phone... hard

Photo of a green aurora over some trees. Out of focus, grainy, and off-colored in dim parts. The darkness of the trees has grown some sort of electronic glitch-mold in the shapes of camera sensor patches that failed in the low light.

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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 17/10/2024

Here's some extras of various vintages. The first one is from tonight, the moon is so bright I got a photo of things using only moonlight! And it's so low quality it looks like an impressionist painting. 2 and 3 I didn't take the original photos of.

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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 17/10/2024

Another moon picture. With original for reference.

Corrupted abyss watched by abyssopelagic moon

Just the moon over the silhouettes of some trees and a building. The camera quality is awful in the low light.

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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 16/10/2024

Some photos. The alt text is bad because, well, you try and do better. Reminders of UP Michigan.

Poor quality aurora photo, camera artifacts apparent

Grainfucked storm clouds over dull trees

A work light on rancid wood planks, Valley of Defilement inspired

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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 02/09/2024

If I'm ever not homeless again I need to convince you to play a space game with Violet (headmate). She got Stuff for it before everything burned to the ground recently (cool bug photo included because why not)

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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 02/09/2023

Trying to crowdfund, as usual. All the standard shit applies. Not feeling lucky this time. Paypal is dimmekur@gmail.com.

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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 21/08/2023

They get gothier, friend. Witness the Black Beauty.

Seven nearly pitch-black tomatoes, one of which has been cut in half. It looks like a mostly normal tomato past the skin.

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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 12/08/2023

I’ve been out of touch on all my social media. I’m easing my way back to it, but today is a “get food and cigarettes and caffeine” day. That is to say, crowdfunding. As ever, Dimmekur@gmail.com is my PayPal. Tit pic because maybe someone will throw an extra dollar in for it, who the hell knows.

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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 18/07/2023

I need to crowdfund milk, caffeine, and undetermined Breakfast food for today. PayPal is dimmekur@gmail.com. I’ll include a lewd, maybe boobs will get some attention so I can eat, wake up, etc.

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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 15/07/2023

I don’t want to do anything today. Send gluten-free pizza funds. I’m serious. I don’t feel any shame in asking right now, either. If you want to know what’s up, give me private contact info and I’ll explain, just not my place to publicize. Suffice to say, I’m grieving.

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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 12/07/2023

Hooray, it’s attempt to crowdfund my legal addictions time. Caffeine is the big one in this case, but I’m also almost out of cigarettes — caffeine is basic function shit, cigarettes is basically my anti-depressant. (Yes, really.) PayPal is dimmekur@gmail.com. Also in image. Included: boobs.

Abstract alien void in purple, with “PAYPAL: dimmekur@gmail.com” in lower right corner.

Undefined void space. Topless androgynous individual with medium length hair stands half-shadowed.

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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 07/07/2023

So, I'm 90% sure that I have celiac disease at this point. Problem: I'm VERY poor. I don't have ANY gluten free food right now. I need to eat today, I have food here, but I'm pretty sure what I have is killing me. I need to crowdfund different groceries. Paypal is dimmekur@gmail.com.

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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 01/07/2023

I guess since Twitter self-arsoned, new people might be coming here. Hi new people, I’m the local night terror.

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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 25/06/2023

Some more. Special guest: titties. (I genuinely think that’s one of the best photoedits of me, though.)

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Psionic Alienation @ushdubsar.northsky.social · 25/06/2023

Posting a lot for someone with few followers here, but eh. Realized no one here knows what I actually look like. Not fit for human consumption today, but might as well share some classics.

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