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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 02/01/2025

I feel like a broken record of hope, then despair, hope, then despair, so I'm gonna spare the details of my birthday, Christmas, and New years experience. Ultimately, nothing has changed. I'm still really depressed and anxious. I'm still poor and tired with no health insurance. But it's 2025 now

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 16/12/2024

I'm turning 30 on Friday, and it has been something I've been stressing about since I turned 29 last year. It's not necessarily about the number but just how unhappy I am in my life and how unhappy I have been this year. Trying to find a reason to hope and keep going. People keep asking me what-

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

I guess as a more positive note, I really want to see nosferatu on Christmas day! It looks very cool! Also, once I get my big paycheck and the extra income from my job, I want to spend money on things I want again... maybe that will make me feel human, idk. I'm just trying to find joy in the pain

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 09/12/2024

I hate that when I post my feelings they're usually sad but I feel like I'm at a breaking point. I'm supposed to be doing better. I should be excited for my birthday coming up next week but all I feel is a sense of defeat. Questioning if I can go on any longer. I feel sick being this vulnerable

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 04/12/2024

My 10 Favorite Animated Features The Prince of Egypt The Incredibles Spirited Away Howl's Moving Castle Coraline Hunchback of Notre Dame Spiderman Into the Spiderverse Shrek 2 Beauty & the Beast The Princess and the Frog

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 04/12/2024

BUT! I am really making strides to reach out to people and go outside more. I hope to have money in the next couple of weeks that will help me push through so I can spend money on what i want for once! I am trying to be optimistic and look forward to things in the future.. please clap🧍🏾‍♀️

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 04/12/2024

I'm so tired. I hate waking up early. I hate working. I don't want to do anything 😪

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 17/11/2024

Sometimes you just have to say the bad feelings out loud. If for no other reason then to just keep it from festering in your mind. It is okay to feel negative emotions but you shouldn't sit with them. House them and keep them alive. There is a time and place

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 15/11/2024

So I basically found out that for my 1st pay check as a substitute I'm not being paid for all the work I did in between a month period. I'm being paid just for last month but last month I only got paid for 4 days.. I'm really upset. I can't keep living like this. I feel so exhausted

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 15/11/2024

Hey, question! Can we bookmark stuff on here and if not will we ever be able to @bsky.app ? It's one of my favorite features on social media, especially when likes get out of control! Also, sorry if this has already been answered

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 14/11/2024

I am planning to post more on social media and be more strategic with my goals... I know I say that all the time and nothing new happens but I mean it! I feel like this year has been so catastrophic, and my life continues to be in shambles that I have no choice but to focus on the thing I love

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 10/11/2024

I took a bookmaking class my 1st semester of grad school. I hated it at the time but now I'm really interested in making books! Mostly zines but also books. It's been fun prepping paper and thinking up ideas! Also, getting back into writing as a practice has been really cathartic and fulfilling!

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 06/11/2024

I feel this year I have been sleepwalking through life. Hoping one day I will suddenly have the will to live the life I want. I'm coming to realize that maybe that day will never come. That my life isn't meant looking at the past i have regrets for or towards a future I cannot predict.

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 06/11/2024

I have been frustrated with the democratic party and who they decide to lead them since 2016. Time and time again they choose people they want instead of people Americans/ the working clas/ progressives want. They thought people will vote for them no matter what and continue not to do enough to-

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 06/11/2024

I would just like to say and I was going to say this regardless of if kamala won, the democratic party needs to get their fucking act together. They were lucky in 2020 and have learned nothing from 2016. It's time to really work on listening to the people and not big donors. Take this as a lesson

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 30/10/2024

I also know I am such a downer that I can't talk to anyone about this. All I do is complain, I'm never positive and I know people don't want to talk to me cause they know it's gonna be negative and I wish I could stop feeling this way but I can't so I just don't say anything to people-

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 30/10/2024

I started substitute teaching this week and idk if I like it or not... 1st day was terrible the kindergarten kids were fighting and cussing. It was wild! The next day was better idk I just feel awkward as usual but also unqualified like I'm not the teacher but I am and I feel tired all the time

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 25/10/2024

One of the more frustrating things about being the artist or creative in your family is people asking you to do random art stuff for no reason… like for a class project or a random project and it’s just annoying and feels convoluted or inconvenience for their pleasure

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 22/10/2024

Sometimes, I forget that people like me and actually want me around 🥲 It's a nice reminder

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 21/10/2024

I have a really hard time starting things... I can end them at times, but sometimes that's hard too. I say I'm good at the middle, being productive on a project not fully realized with results varying from success to failure. But I'm terrible at starting.. I get too in my head wanting to start-

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 21/10/2024

Sometimes I feel like it's easier for me to lie, to leave out, to minimize accomplishments than to actually say what I'm feeling or what I'm doing. I've grown accustomed to keeping things close to my chest. To holding my breath

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 16/10/2024

One of my favorite hobbies is going on a shopping site and liking a bunch of clothes but never buying them! I can image having a closet full of cool, fun clothes but none of the crippling debt! I mean I already have crippling debt but not from a shopping addiction 👍🏾

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Spooky and Kooky @tydyebee.bsky.social · 16/10/2024

My life is so fucked up right now and I feel like I will never get it together... it's gotten so bad I started writing about my negative feelings just to keep it at bay. I have no money, no career, no prospects but I'm still supposed to get going? What is the point? I don't see one-

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