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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 15h

How am I in my mid 30s and still pulling an occasional all-nighter when I procrastinate on my work? This is college brainrot behavior. Why can I not do what I know is better for me??

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 30/09/2026

The degree to which I have my life together is directly proportional to my Wordle streak. My current streak is 2 days.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 30/09/2026

Contradictions can always be made to be "only apparent".

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 30/09/2026

I forgot this was an OG protestant book and was jump-scared by the Pope Cave Monster.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 25/09/2026

I'm only 45 minutes into Pilgrim's Progress, but I gotta say it's a little too on the nose. Like if you told an allegory of baseball with a main character named "Batter" who used a "stick" to hit a "round object".

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 24/09/2026

All I want is for there to be a deeply interested researcher who is neither for or against Christianity. I have such a hard time trusting the conclusions of Christians who have a moral obligation to spread the gospel and atheists who come across as obviously biased against it in their writings.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 24/09/2026

I'm officially committing to a deep dive into historical critical study of "Hell". Here's one of the spreadsheets I've started during the research phase.

a spreadsheet with columns for different translations of "Sheol" across the years. In view are the Masoretic text, LXX, and Vulgate.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 22/09/2026

I ended up getting the entire Oz collection on sale for like $5 and listened to 7 of them. I think my favorite lesser known one was "Dorothy and the Wizard of Oz", which is book 4. The Valley of Voe was very interesting.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 21/09/2026

The key Catholic argument is that there is always some amount of suffering because love always involves "self-giving" or losing some of yourself. But I just don't buy that self-giving is accurately characterized as suffering in *all* cases.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 21/09/2026

Woah, automatic thread numbering is cool. Awesome feature

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 21/09/2026

What if the ascension was placed deliberately in the narrative before Paul had his revelation in order to discredit Paul's authority?

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 21/09/2026

Mulling over whether love can exist without suffering.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 16/09/2026

Luke 17:20-21 is pretty crazy. Saying that no one will be able to point to the kingdom in the sense of observable things.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 16/09/2026

pyromaniac Jesus who feels tied down by baptism.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 15/09/2026

Reading all the gospels again to make a parallel reading of every statement made by Jesus that is plausibly about final judgment and I swear this is the first time I've seen this verse. Crazy depiction of Jesus, without parallel elsewhere.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 11/09/2026

I'm in Ireland and a 22 year old bartender has just told me that Donald Trump is "deadly" (praise, apparently)

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 11/09/2026

At this point this website is the place I go to for the opinions of trans-people-with-religious-trauma on religion. ...and little more than that.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 02/09/2026

I've had a bunch of Catholics tell me that a grave sin is only when you do something with the full awareness that it is morally wrong. But Socrates says no man desires evil. So either Socrates is wrong, or Catholic Hell is empty.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 01/09/2026

"seek and you shall find" is both boosting and extremely damaging to the Christian case.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 28/08/2026

Anyone says they use bayesian analysis but won't publish their spreadsheet of priors and calculations is just doing seemings. Don't be fooled.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 28/08/2026

Chaos and it's unfair consequences are the price paid by existence for the ability for multiple souls to exist with the capacity to love each other. That is pandeism. We endure because love is so great, both to receive and more importantly to give.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 28/08/2026

Perfect justice should make one feel joy, not despair. If you feel despair at people being annihilated or going to Hell, it's because it doesn't seem like perfect justice.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 27/08/2026

"it's a structural fact about arguments that they involve claims made without argument" So true. Every worldview has to ultimately depend upon some assumption, brute fact, intuition, or other instinctual conclusion at some layer.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 26/08/2026

The agnostic turned online Catholic provocateur has me really tempted to go back on X and say things, but I will resist for now.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 25/08/2026

Remember when pope Francis made those corrupt bishops sell their extravagent mansions? How crazy would it be if he had followed in the steps of the first pope instead and had them killed by the Holy Spirit on the steps of the Vatican?

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 25/08/2026

Someone needs to draw this bible scene in the style of The Godfather.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 24/08/2026

Reasons I think there actually was an empty tomb: 1. Joseph of Arimathea is one of the very few points of agreement in all 4 gospels. 2. We have archeological evidence of crucifixion victims being buried in tombs (Jehohanan's heel) [continued]

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 24/08/2026

Hold on, does Paul say "I think I have the Holy Spirit"? I appreciate the epistemic humility Paul, but you gotta be assertive with claims like that!

Bible Hub interlinear of 1 Cor 7:40 showing that Paul does indeed say "I think" in the Greek

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 24/08/2026

For example my auditory hallucination happened when I was having a stressful week and trying to fall asleep but thinking about everything I had to do and then I heard a voice as if someone was standing in the room with me telling me to check on the cat.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 24/08/2026

what? They thought the soul was separate from the mind? Oh is this because the "soul" was thought of as the animating force, but the mind the commander of what to animate?

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 24/08/2026

My credence in apparition stories are heavily affected by the fact that I have endured many hallucinations myself and know how "real" they can seem despite strong evidence of them not being real.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 24/08/2026

Paul was in favor of shunning but only for sexual sins. Which is a result of Jesus’s metaphysics of sexual unions. Which is based on Jesus's interpretation of Genesis.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 24/08/2026

"love your enemies" goes so hard with my intuitive understanding of love. But then I remember that super early theologians redefined "love" and the guy that said the original line was super liberal about most things but ultra-conservative about his culture's sexual ethics.

the verses linking love to following commands

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 24/08/2026

Today's obsession: do I ever do things that I do not want to do? I do things that I immediately regret for sure. I get angry at my inability to have done productive things all the time. But I'm not talking about recently after the decision is made. I'm talking in the moment of decision.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 24/08/2026

Remember that when you claim an "intellectual case" for something, or say something is "compelling intellectually", you are implicitly saying that if another person hears this case and disagrees they are intellectually stupid.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 22/08/2026

If God doesn't even think then God is nothing like a mind. If God does think then that means either God had a first thought or an infinite regress of thoughts. Beginnings are weird whether God exists or not. Nothing makes them make sense.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 21/08/2026

At least the Calvinists will admit they believe in predeterminism, not just believe everything that predeterminism means without uttering the word, like Luis de Molina did.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 21/08/2026

I think it was the "embrace Rome" that set me off.

picture of the video description from Majesty of Reason under the video of Joseph Schmid announcing his conversion to Catholicism. The description reads "God exists. Christ is Lord. Embrace Rome."

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 21/08/2026

I once had a Catholic tell me that whether people in Hell regret being there is "an interesting question" The wedding parables are not opaque though. Bridesmaids beg to be let in. Things that offend our basic intuitions about justice are not "interesting" or "curious". Just accept it or don't.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 21/08/2026

See, the thing is, murdering innocent babies is *nothing* compared to Hell. And you going to have a hard time convincing me that the embodiment of perfect goodness murders innocent babies, as it is.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 21/08/2026

Local man feels intellectually compelled to believe that gay men are deliberately choosing eternal punishment, after reflecting on Padre Pio for a while.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 21/08/2026

Haven't been keeping up on things for a while, but I'm surprised that Joseph Schmid converted to Catholicism.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 17/08/2026

Very grateful that I'm a whatever type of drunk this is.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 17/08/2026

D.I.D. is a major challenge to traditional dualists. Does she have multiple souls in her? Is every identity a demon except for one? I'm a dualist but a very unconventional one (I think memories and personality are stored in the brain, not the soul) so I don't think I have any issue.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 16/08/2026

I only interact with like 5 of you on here now. And I just want to say. I love all of you.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 14/08/2026

Still not sure what to think about affirming churches. On the one hand, I wish this is what Christianity entailed. On the other hand, I do not think this is what Christianity entails.

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Baxter Williams @trustbelieveknow.com · 02/08/2026

I have a personal account and a "I need to vent about religion" account on basically every platform. Religious content on my YouTube personal account keeps getting recommended and I have to keep saying "not interested" to keep that algorithm sane. I need at least one sane algo in my life.

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