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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 12h

Q: Does this throat cancer make my breath smell bad? A: Some things are not the cancer’s fault, bro.

Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 12h

Weird thing about cancer is how it can take over rational thought. Everything becomes related to it, everything is suddenly of mortal significance. I’m spending energy today resisting the belief that my sick dog is just depressed because she senses my ticking clock.

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

Expected/unexpected turn. It’s getting gradually more difficult to eat, as foretold, but weirdly not due to my closing throat. One of the neckspiders has gotten hold of my jaw muscle so I can’t really open my mouth all the way. What a weirdo disease. #kriffcancer (that’s Star Wars for #fuckcancer )

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

Ciclops. Yeah, that's the whole joke.

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

I have never once ever got everything done, but some days I just feel like I've done enough.

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

Setback! Failed to thread the needle of the PET scan requirements described to me as “don’t take insulin for 4 hours, blood sugar must be under 200.” Turns out, when a diabetic doesn’t take insulin, the result is a wildly predictable increase in Blood Glucose levels. I tried, I failed. #kriffcancer

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

I wonder if there's a definitive break-point in personal wealth levels where the law stops applying. Who decides? Can I just apply it to myself even if I'm poor?

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

INT RADIOLOGY LAB, CT Scanner is powering up Kaylie the Cat Scan Lady: <starting IV fluid> It'll feel like you're peeing your pants, but I promise you're not. Me: You don't know me. #fuckcancer #kriffcancer

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

Thanks, friends. I can’t tell you how much this tickles me. #sabacc

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

Every single person here in the radiology waiting room, including me, is wearing plaid shirts and jeans

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

I’m at the “completely forgot to watch my show and went to bed” stage

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

Used yesterday to celebrate. Full on party from morning to almost-morning again. 2 birthdays and a funeral landed on the one day, and friend I’ll tell you while I can I’m gonna flood those days with every ray of joy I have. I’m so lucky to have such friends, to have such days. #fuckcancer

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

I’m really looking forward to this storm. I could use a good storm. I have two parties and a funeral Saturday but I’m really looking forward to this storm. I could use a Saturday, too. Bring it.

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

They say you can't simultaneously prepare for both War and Peace but damned if that's not precisely what I'm doing right now #fuckcancer

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Not my best work but I’ve never had cause to try a self-portrait before let’s call it a work in progress #fuckcancer🎗️

Notebook scribble of a vaguely Trevor shaped face with dark glasses and dark spots on neck marked “2cm” and “2x4 cm”

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Reposted by Trevor Bartlett

AAAAHH-lex Plante 🐀👑 @aplante.com · 16/12/2024

an absolute sucker for a cotton candy sky

illustration of power lines and a rooftop silhouetted against a cotton candy sky. a faint crescent moon in the top right corner, one single crow on the lines. snowflakes softly falling but THIS TIME the colours are RIGHT it's higher contrast! pinker! sharper! bolder! but still soft :)

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

Feels like I’m bleeding days right now, but hell who isn’t?

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

TFW your cancer doctor hands you living will documents

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

BTW the eyeball injection treatment I got hurt like really hurt like I don’t know if I can go back to that guy again

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

This is the smiley face that greeted me on the reception desk of my ophthalmologist today for the eyeball-jabbing injection treatment for the macular edema in my retina

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

Spent 3 hours yesterday getting learned up on what I got and where it could go from here. Apparently one of the potential long-term side effects of this cancer is “Double Chin.” Seriously. What a weirdo fucking disease. #fuckcancer

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

This cancer thing in my neck picked the wrong fucking tribe. I am glowing with the white light my friends are putting out for me. Wrong. Fucking. Tribe. #fuckcancer

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

They say “the waiting is the worst part,” but I’m pretty certain that’s not accurate. #fuckcancer

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

Whelp it happened. Decided to go a little easier on myself this morning and instead of reflexively switching on NPR I instead put on a mildly heartstring-tugging playlist and promptly, like immediately, broke down in tears. All it took was the tiniest nudge. Whoof. Felt good. Okay back to it, then.

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

I think my dog is depressed and I really need her to just rally right now.

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

I’d like to think if I was a ghost I’d be the kind that goes around the kitchen and closes all the open cabinets

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

No one asked but… The thing in my throat is Squamous Cell Carcinoma. Left tonsil mostly, as far as we know. I’m likely in for a very rough few months, followed tho by some flavor of acceptable recovery. I expect I will be monstrous for Halloween and will be completely reborn by Easter.

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

I’ve shed so many skins. When I’m done here, please just hang this one up next to the rest. I liked this one but none of them last forever.

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

On a scale from one razor blade to ten razor blades the pain in my throat is currently hovering at a pretty consistent one razor blade. Not so bad as these things go but still ow I got a razor blade in my throat. I’m aware how bad I’ll be missing this soon. #fuckcancer

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

Is “minstrelry” a word? How about “minstrelization?”

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

I remember clearly when Doctor Hackmiller broke the news to me, 35 years ago, that I had Type One Diabetes, he assured me, “Don’t worry, though, this is not a death sentence. You can still get cancer.” Whelp…

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

The character you’ll be playing tonight is “relaxed, healthy, and happy” your main topics of conversation will be “dog, camp, successful artistic endeavors, and potential Halloween costumes,” okay go!

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

The amount of goofy ads I get fed on other platforms for diabetes management products bugs me sure, but I can only imagine what my socials are gonna look like when Meta figures out that I have cancer. This is going to be a fucking rodeo of mythic cures and predatory false hopes. Brace for impact!

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

Dental implants are officially on pause while we sort out all this other stuff. After 2 years of invisalign trays in my head I was just 2 months from having a full set of choppers again. God, & I can't stress this more emphatically, dammit. Just gonna be a jack-o-lantern for the foreseeable I guess.

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

My own personal pit crew currently includes: • Primary Care Physician • Endocrinologist • Nephrologist • Otolaryngologist • Orthodontist • Orthodontist II: Orthodontal Boogaloo • Periodontist • Optometrist • Opthamologist • Oncologist Who’d I miss? I’d add my bartender, but I quit drinking.

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

My dog has no idea the amount of hugs and snugs she’s going to have to provide over the coming months

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

My dentist called it “The C-Word” and yeah, bullseye, doc. No shit.

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

Today’s project is to try to determine how medical/surgical treatments for my macular edema, dental implants, and ongoing diabetic maintenance dovetail with the chemo. Is everything on hold? It would be super helpful moving into these next few months if I could read again and chew food.

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

Whenever I write in my notebook I write the date with a line to give myself the at least barest sense of organization. As I drew the line over the date 260915 I realized that was the line, forever for me now, between “before cancer” and everything that comes after

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

So I am VERY recently diagnosed. No real idea how good or bad (is there a “good” setting for cancer?) this might be… my musings are purely conjectural. Many tests yet to do, but in the mystery, my mind spins tales, often against my will. Searching for a toehold. Bear with me, or, you know, don’t

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

It’s weird to think that I have no idea what I’m going to look like for Halloween

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

Potential of involuntary weight loss (or possibly weight gain) makes it difficult to answer what size sweater I’d like for my birthday next month.

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

I have escalated this project to “Full Notebook” status. Do they still make Trapper Keepers?

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Trevor Bartlett @trevorbartlett.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

I’m moving slowly through some very predictable stages of not knowing WTF to think, feel, do, or say

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