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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 03/06/2026

Why is it that all the Canadian conservative party is capable of doing, is mudslinging?

Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 06/05/2026

I was on vacation for ten days. Came back to work and immediately am depressed. I need to get out of the wage cage or I'm legitimately going to end up killing myself.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 17/02/2026

The other day, I threw a ton of hot sauce and dried cayenne peppers on my food and the first reason in my head was: 'so I can feel alive'. Only succeeded in giving myself a mild upset stomach the next day. Hmmmmm.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 27/01/2026

I have loved ones I can tell everything... But I feel like I can't tell them -everything-. And it's painful.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 27/01/2026

The dissonance I feel while going about my daily life gets really heavy to bear at times. Sometimes it just feels like it'd be so much easier to go 'fuck it' and just disappear.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 22/01/2026

let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 22/01/2026

Today, it is indeed too much to ask of me to be a functioning adult. I have answered the call to exist for yet another day, and my very being protests and struggles against this. My outside body hurts, my insides writhe in anger, my mind screeches at the sheer indignity of consciousness.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 06/01/2026

I've said this before but I've been through so much bullshit, professionally and personally, that I feel quite mentally and physically exhausted every day. So, a boring-ass 9-5 job as a real estate accountant is just so much peace for me.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 03/01/2026

I like the concept of publicly shaming adults when they're being dickholes.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 30/12/2025

I refuse to believe that anyone ever has shits so perfect that it takes only one pass to wipe their ass clean.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 28/12/2025

Introduced my partner to the concept of plurality. Was too chicken to tell him how it relates to myself. Will do it later I guess. Definitely been noticing the headies out and about freely interacting with him for varying contexts. I'm sure he'll accept it once I be direct about it.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 18/12/2025

Oh when I say 'years' I mean like. Decades. But thank you <3

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 18/12/2025

I've been quietly suicidal for years now, just floating along without feeling genuine anticipation for the future. Might be a ADHD thing.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 12/12/2025

I need a way to block reposts by someone I'm following. Main account. Love this person, don't gaf about their reposts.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 12/12/2025

By now I've had several dreams of myself being mean to the fucker that got me fired last year, so I guess I'm starting to heal from it. Certainly helps that I just got super validated at my new job and got high praise and a high raise.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 17/11/2025

For the curious: there's three of me. I'm mainly just a single composite person with one main pilot and the others working in the background.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 17/11/2025

Well. I guess being an endogenic plural system is part of why I had no problem ghosting 99% of my local acquaintances years ago. The other part is that I have a deep-rooted online life. Good or bad? I'm a functioning adult to an extent, and I haven't killed myself, so I'm gonna say good.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 12/11/2025

I was at about a 7.5/10 on Monday. Now I'm back to 6/10. But then I was probably cruisin' high on cough medicine on Monday...

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 10/11/2025

It tastes ok today. Either I'm about to die or my sense of taste has finally buckled

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 10/11/2025

Have an unfamiliar feeling today. Headspace feels tilted 15°. Realised that I might be... In... A good mood?

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 21/10/2025

Kirkland coffee tastes like ass and I'm convinced that ppl like it only because it's cheap and/or they grew with shitty bitter coffee.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 20/10/2025

Feeling particularly unwell today. Emotionally. If one of my alters could take over the driving that'd be nice, but I don't blame them for not wanting to deal with it either.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 20/10/2025

Forgot I even posted this LMFAO. For the record yes that's frozen mice, no I didn't eat them, yes they were for my pet snake.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 28/08/2025

Scrolled so far that I got a random post of someone's haiku and it's the wrong fucking syllable count That's enough social media for today

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 12/08/2025

4:35 am and I'm lying awake thinking about how much I fucking hate the sack of shit that got me unjustly fired last year.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 29/07/2025

Is it just me, or is it kind of craycray how much effort/work neurotypical/abled people are willing to put into doing things?

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 29/07/2025

Hey @telussupport.bsky.social ? Stop using third party telemarketers that bought my info off a list you released years ago. You're literally the only service provider that constantly calls me when I've said no repeatedly.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 26/07/2025

Low key stressed the fuck out by current events, so Imma go seek out some catharsis by getting some new ear piercings. Got a rook piercing back in November.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 24/07/2025

Every day I wake up and am sorely disappointed. To be waking up.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 15/07/2025

What the fuck, Pierre. This is why it's good you didn't win.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 09/07/2025

If I were a blogger my clickbait title for today's article would be "My Parents Gave Me a Privileged Life and Also a Condo. Here's Why I Can't Wait For Them To Die"

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 19/06/2025

Was having a decent day then brain decided to get into a spiral ust because I saw old coworkers at yoga.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 13/06/2025

I'd love to see some guillotines set up by the white house. As a treat. Doesn't even need to have blades.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 11/06/2025

Hm. Well when the time comes i guess you could possibly sell the whole property at least, and let the buy deal with replacing the house.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 10/06/2025

I'm about to become a home owner which is every millenial's pipe dream. But I'm not really stoked about it, because this is being thrust upon me when I'm barely making a living thanks to stupid end stage capitalism. :/ truly a dystopian world we live in.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 31/05/2025

If you're abled and leave a mess in the public washroom, I hope you shit yourself for every single time you leave it in a disgusting state without cleaning up properly.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 16/05/2025

Oop. Sorry work, Mr. Scalzi told me to leave town. Can't go to work next week!

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 15/05/2025

Is this depression or is this legitimate boredom? The ADHD dilemma

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 09/05/2025

Please do it I beg of you Also from now on I identify as a treasured miscellanea

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 09/05/2025

:') can we either just collectively die or ascend to proper progress already, I'm tired of circling the drain as a species

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