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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 03/06/2026

Why is it that all the Canadian conservative party is capable of doing, is mudslinging?

Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 06/05/2026

I was on vacation for ten days. Came back to work and immediately am depressed. I need to get out of the wage cage or I'm legitimately going to end up killing myself.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 17/02/2026

The other day, I threw a ton of hot sauce and dried cayenne peppers on my food and the first reason in my head was: 'so I can feel alive'. Only succeeded in giving myself a mild upset stomach the next day. Hmmmmm.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 27/01/2026

I have loved ones I can tell everything... But I feel like I can't tell them -everything-. And it's painful.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 27/01/2026

The dissonance I feel while going about my daily life gets really heavy to bear at times. Sometimes it just feels like it'd be so much easier to go 'fuck it' and just disappear.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 22/01/2026

let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out let us out

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 22/01/2026

Today, it is indeed too much to ask of me to be a functioning adult. I have answered the call to exist for yet another day, and my very being protests and struggles against this. My outside body hurts, my insides writhe in anger, my mind screeches at the sheer indignity of consciousness.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 06/01/2026

I've said this before but I've been through so much bullshit, professionally and personally, that I feel quite mentally and physically exhausted every day. So, a boring-ass 9-5 job as a real estate accountant is just so much peace for me.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 30/12/2025

I refuse to believe that anyone ever has shits so perfect that it takes only one pass to wipe their ass clean.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 28/12/2025

Introduced my partner to the concept of plurality. Was too chicken to tell him how it relates to myself. Will do it later I guess. Definitely been noticing the headies out and about freely interacting with him for varying contexts. I'm sure he'll accept it once I be direct about it.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 12/12/2025

I need a way to block reposts by someone I'm following. Main account. Love this person, don't gaf about their reposts.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 12/12/2025

By now I've had several dreams of myself being mean to the fucker that got me fired last year, so I guess I'm starting to heal from it. Certainly helps that I just got super validated at my new job and got high praise and a high raise.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 17/11/2025

Well. I guess being an endogenic plural system is part of why I had no problem ghosting 99% of my local acquaintances years ago. The other part is that I have a deep-rooted online life. Good or bad? I'm a functioning adult to an extent, and I haven't killed myself, so I'm gonna say good.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 12/11/2025

I was at about a 7.5/10 on Monday. Now I'm back to 6/10. But then I was probably cruisin' high on cough medicine on Monday...

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 10/11/2025

It tastes ok today. Either I'm about to die or my sense of taste has finally buckled

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 10/11/2025

Have an unfamiliar feeling today. Headspace feels tilted 15°. Realised that I might be... In... A good mood?

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 21/10/2025

Kirkland coffee tastes like ass and I'm convinced that ppl like it only because it's cheap and/or they grew with shitty bitter coffee.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 20/10/2025

Feeling particularly unwell today. Emotionally. If one of my alters could take over the driving that'd be nice, but I don't blame them for not wanting to deal with it either.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 28/08/2025

Scrolled so far that I got a random post of someone's haiku and it's the wrong fucking syllable count That's enough social media for today

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 12/08/2025

4:35 am and I'm lying awake thinking about how much I fucking hate the sack of shit that got me unjustly fired last year.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 29/07/2025

Is it just me, or is it kind of craycray how much effort/work neurotypical/abled people are willing to put into doing things?

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 29/07/2025

Hey @telussupport.bsky.social ? Stop using third party telemarketers that bought my info off a list you released years ago. You're literally the only service provider that constantly calls me when I've said no repeatedly.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 26/07/2025

Low key stressed the fuck out by current events, so Imma go seek out some catharsis by getting some new ear piercings. Got a rook piercing back in November.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 24/07/2025

Every day I wake up and am sorely disappointed. To be waking up.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 15/07/2025

What the fuck, Pierre. This is why it's good you didn't win.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 09/07/2025

If I were a blogger my clickbait title for today's article would be "My Parents Gave Me a Privileged Life and Also a Condo. Here's Why I Can't Wait For Them To Die"

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 19/06/2025

Was having a decent day then brain decided to get into a spiral ust because I saw old coworkers at yoga.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 13/06/2025

I'd love to see some guillotines set up by the white house. As a treat. Doesn't even need to have blades.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 10/06/2025

I'm about to become a home owner which is every millenial's pipe dream. But I'm not really stoked about it, because this is being thrust upon me when I'm barely making a living thanks to stupid end stage capitalism. :/ truly a dystopian world we live in.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 31/05/2025

If you're abled and leave a mess in the public washroom, I hope you shit yourself for every single time you leave it in a disgusting state without cleaning up properly.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 15/05/2025

Is this depression or is this legitimate boredom? The ADHD dilemma

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 09/05/2025

:') can we either just collectively die or ascend to proper progress already, I'm tired of circling the drain as a species

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 06/05/2025

Hey what can I do if I'm followed by an account that only posts AI generated photos? :)

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 05/05/2025

Hi new follower, welcome to the pizza party. We got cold pizza but it's tasty and has both meat and veggies and the microwave's over there.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 05/05/2025

Woke up tired with a crick in my head and emotionally sore from being upset at people in my dreams and yelling at them. Come to work with no earbuds and no work to do cuz I've been ahead for weeks running. Taking a looooonnng siiiiiiiiiiip of coffee that tastes nasty but I bought it so I drink it.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 23/04/2025

Imagine owning a home and being mad at someone (paid barely at living wage and definitely not a home owner) for the penalty charges you incurred for not having your fucking financials in order so that your bank isn't overdrawn when it's time to pay fees.

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 07/04/2025

P sure I took my brain meds yesterday but the brainmeats is trying to lie to me and say I didn't :D I opened bluesky four times to make this post and got distracted every time and forgot before I even made it to the Make Post button. Hurray!

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 04/04/2025

- open excel file - hit f12 - select an existing excel file with the name I want to use - change file save type to pdf - excel: "tHiS xls file exists dO yOu WanT to RepLACE it?" WHO THE FUCK PROGRAMMED THIS

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 04/04/2025

I don't consider myself a definition of "highly educated", but even I know some basic economic concepts. So it is today that I realised, a large majority of the population downstairs actually does not, and the implications it raises now horrifies me...

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 04/04/2025

Lmao? I glanced up at the break room tv and saw "frustrated with current political climate, US doctors eyeing Canada for new careers"

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 02/04/2025

I've been listening to radio news all day waiting for the 1pm tariff announcements but now that they're streaming his voice I can't fucking listen anymore it's just nonstop bullshit

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Depressed Cactus @theabyssdoesnotsee.bsky.social · 02/04/2025

Could the news outlets stop calling it "liberation day"? You're just feeding his fucking ego because it's making him think he's created another Independence Day.

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