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Is it so great a sin to want to not be laying here alone while the sun sets over humanity? Is it so much to ask?

I am not even sure anymore who reads these musings. But I record them, because I must. I have to talk to someone even if that someone is a empty room. I am watching things unfold that mean terrible things for the future. I'm watching things unfold that mean the end.

This is not a judgment or a projection. It is sadly an easily verified fact. There are some needs that I have that are impossibilities for both my body and my budget. There is some things that I need to show and be for no one's sake, but my own. Concealing them has more than once driven me mad.

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Indeed, blaming someone else for my emotional state, my emotional needs, or anything else of that matter is something I avoid. I simply feel alone. The person I want to spend the rest of my life with is someone seemingly incapable of planning anything that doesn't involve certain specific things.

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Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

There are many things that I wrestle with, when I try to go to sleep. The solitude and silence of where I live is certainly one of them. There are things that I don't think I'm ever going to have again in my life, and I don't know how to feel about that. It is not my place to blame anyone else.

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My country considers my existence a blasphemy, an act of terrorism. And what must I do? I cannot even wear my own face and my own name, even in the most liberal city in this country. I can only continue wearing the armor of years. No one comes to me, but with their own wants. I am no one.

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Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

As I sit here, late late in the middle of a weekend that my work will not be affected by - I wonder. I wonder about being alone. Bills, work, transit, food, chores. No visitors, no peers, no callers. Not even a shared cup of tea. Is this all there is? A stone lives more than I.

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Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

All that I meet hear tell of my fighter, the dragon from the snowy northeast. Every day, I talk to her, I love her and plan to be by her side. She carries the Argument Stopper and my heart with her, always.

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Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

Well, crap. Dolly Parton has departed our shores.

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Canadian History Ehx @cdnhistoryehx.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

Before Europeans arrived, these were some of the names for The Great Lakes: Superior: gichi-gami (great sea) Erie: erielhonan (long tail) Michigan: michigami (long body of water) Ontario: Ontarí'io\kanadario (great lake\beautiful water) Huron: karegnondi (fresh water sea)

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Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

Well this is fun. A medication that I need is currently on back order. Because the manufacturer isn't picking up the phone and likely import prices have made their life very difficult. This horseshit, there's one reason among millions to despise my present situation and Tronald Dump in particular.

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Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 06/07/2026

Working on writing every day now, when I can

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Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 13/06/2026

Rest assured.There are always people I care about and continue to care about to this day. Old friends, new friends. People I haven't spoken to in years, but genuinely miss. Old classmates people are used to see at bus stops. My memory contains many of these people. And there are those that I love.

Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 08/06/2026

At the end of Furality, I went to each world and said goodnight to them. I could barely see through the tears, but I had to, since I know they will be taken down again soon. There was so much more I could have done. I doubt if a whole week would have been enough.

Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

There's as close as I ever got to be free of this place. Just a glimpse.

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Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

This was to be the week that I moved to Pennsylvania. That entire plan is now up in the air with no clear solution. While I sit here home and sick and my fiance continues to plow forward and avoid healing at all costs. I had a glimpse of somewhere beautiful somewhere new, some more wonderful.

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Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

If this job goes kaputsky, that's it, that's all. I have no confidence in finding another job. Homelessness, starvation, or a return to the sea are all there is after that.

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Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 06/05/2026

Hate is always foolish and love is always wise.

Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 05/05/2026

Yeah. 4 hours of work and three hours of unpaid travel time. No benefits. Not even a damn lunchroom or a vending machine. No.

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Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 05/05/2026

My hope and joy are waning.

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Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 29/03/2026

So, more promised contact, no phone calls and no contact. Nobody's returning my calls. I do not know what I did to become a blight, but it's exhausting. Have I become an Untouchable? Have I sinned so great that I am shunned by all? It's news to me.

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Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 29/03/2026

Can't sleep. Partner is sick. Can I just return the unused portions of 2026 for a goddamn refund?

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Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 24/03/2026

I can't help it. When she's sick, I have flashbacks to someone else I loved, that quietly died, all alone, because she grew too weak to talk to me and I never saw her again - her own damn family left her all alone, despite her illness and found her after she was gone. No one deserves that.

Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 20/03/2026

I don't know how much longer this can continue.

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Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 18/03/2026

None of them. Not one of the hundreds of applications, the phone calls, the interviews. None of them have turned into a job. I feel like I am drowning.

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Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 01/03/2026

Home exhausted. Unpacked. Going to try not to crymysekf to sleep tonight. Miss the snow. Miss my travelling companion with all my heart. California feels so much smaller now.

Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 28/02/2026

Just sittin in an airport, waiting. Missing someone. Someone I can't live without.

Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 28/02/2026

Nuts. Last night here. Feeling sad. Not looking forward to more all alone in the empry house. Will miss my someone special like a piece of my heart.

Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 27/02/2026

So, former friend unblocked me for a moment, but then blocked me again. Bleh.

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Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 23/02/2026

I already miss this place, my partner most of all. I want to be here, with what little I own, working, living, loving. Who cares about the cold?

Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 22/02/2026

I'm never making pasta again.

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Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 21/02/2026

Let that elongated muskrat go there, take all the ketamine and drugs he needs and his grease-stain billionaire puke friends with him.

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Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 21/02/2026

I find myself wanting to be at her side, for keeps. Gather my things, tools and equipment and come here to be at her side. Wearing her ring. Keeping her warm. California can tend to itself.

Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 19/02/2026

For the winter lived in that place, upon that river, winding around every tree, unsullied and beautiful. Could her voice be caught on the breeze, the very kiss of frost from the mountaintop? Perhaps it always could.

Lumanator (Commissions Open!) @lumanator.bsky.social · 18/02/2026

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With Epic Games acquiring a new GenAI company to speed up their cosmetic developments, the best time to boycott Fortnite is ALSO now.

Post from Fortnite Underground:
"We can exclusively reveal that Epic Games is in the process of integrating Generative AI tools into the development of new #Fortnite cosmetics."

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"Fortnite Underground can reveal that Epic Games is in the process of integrating generative AI tools into the development of new cosmetics, a move which has upset some - if not most - of the games' developers. The extent of the integration is unknown. It is said that this will enable Epic to deliver more Outfits and collaborations to thw players than we've seen in previous years - an excuse that is unlikely to satisfy the growing crowd of players who feel the game is already adding too many.

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Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 17/02/2026

A visit to snowy places

DCS 🔞 @darkchibishadow.bsky.social · 16/02/2026

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Teri @teriwyn.bsky.social · 15/02/2026

Got rickrolled by a mall bathroom after a day of delayed plans. Laughed while on the can. Sometimes it is all you can do.