iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

it’s funny how posting lyrics never stops having this weirdly juvenile quality/feeling to it despite that not being true at all. get over it and be thankful you don’t have to see my raps about slaying my opps like stalin

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 8h

i-should-probably-stop-using-so-many-drugs-raps

Eternity

Every single night /
on my pillow, in my feelings /
She says, boy, it’s okay to cry /
it’s just a part of healing /
Tell myself that everyone will die /
everybody in the building /
My eternity gets shorter /
and thinking ‘bout it gives me chills, man.

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 20h

in the process of designing some new merch, the first batch in five years and i won’t be printing it on gildan shirts/hoodies bc i don’t fucking hate the ppl who listen to me

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 20h

no lie thinking about anything rn sorta sucks logs of shit

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 03/10/2026

like these motherfuckers make actual careers out of hating and oppressing/wishing death upon trans ppl and they do it recreationally too. i will never, ever feel guilty about shooting back, there’s no “love thy enemy” mentality that can possibly be cultivated in me, just go die lmao

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 03/10/2026

oh no no don’t worry, i called him a piece of shit, he is fr amongst the absolute worst ppl/libs on this site, you especially would despise him lmfaoo

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 03/10/2026

i’ve seen a few ppl here say things to the effect of “we can’t be like them, we have to be better or else we’re no different than them” and like yes i am different than them, i’m worse

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 03/10/2026

idk what i did but bc i’ve never been within a million miles of the piece of shit but wıłł sțäņċıł blocked me and that’s profoundly fuckin sick, wishing him the absolute worst ✨

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 03/10/2026

spent more time with my friend today, i plan to every day until it's over. we got fucked up again lol and she met nadi for the first time, they liked each other a lot but i knew they would. that made me super happy, just watching them talk and laugh i wish they'd had the chance to meet sooner

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 02/10/2026

for as many visible/prominent sh scars as i have i’ve noticed that ppl never really stare at them anymore. i got over experiencing any shame or embarrassment about them years ago but it’s good that ppl aren’t fazed by them. no one should be bc ppl do shit when they’re in pain man what the fuck ever

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 02/10/2026

nadi finally gets home today. i’ve desperately missed and needed her presence. this past week has torn me apart just with what’s happening to my friend and how it’s reinforced my bipolar. i’ve been trapped in emotional purgatory for five days now and i’m hoping seeing her can help bring me out of it

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 02/10/2026

i’m so, so sorry sylvie =( just remember that you did everything you could and that you were willing to take care of them when no one else was. i kno it’s impossible to be rn but you should be proud of yourself for having a heart big enough to want to 🫂

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 02/10/2026

it’s that time of the month, GOD BLESS HUGE CHECKS (disability payment came through, opposite of huge)

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 01/10/2026

it’s october (which is okay) but it means my least fave time of the year will be here in a month, i’m dreading it, i can’t handle the cold at all bc of my health issues and everything will just be totally grey and lifeless and perpetually depressing soon. summer’s my fave season so i’m just ugh

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 01/10/2026

he’s one of my fave artists of all time partially bc of how masterful his mixing/mastering work is, just impeccable sound design, i’m happy you liked it bc he’s a big influence =)

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 01/10/2026

thank you deeply for listening rhys, you always listen to my art, this song is closer to my heart than most and so i’m especially grateful you’d choose to listen to this one. i wanted it to cover a spectrum of emotions and i’m happy you could hear and feel that spectrum. again, thank you so much 🫂💐

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 01/10/2026

i routinely think about a post i saw last year from a person who thought HRT stood for “human replacement therapy”

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 01/10/2026

i was so worried she wouldn’t feel good just bc she’s so fragile rn but she felt great and it almost brought tears to my eyes more than a few times just seeing her enjoy herself, just seeing her laugh and be goofy. again, it was an honor to do that with her at least once with the time she has left

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 01/10/2026

we had a fuckin awesome time lmaoooo, was too funny seeing her high, i’d never seen it so like i said it was crazy and i’m so happy her mom let her daughter have that experience at least once before it’s all over. it was an honor to be the one she chose to do it with, sincerely, genuinely

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 01/10/2026

so i was like well, what about your mom? she was just like “she has to let me have this” so she called her mom in and was just straight up like “mom we’re getting high” and her mom was just like okay be safe lmfaoo which was just as wild just bc she’s always been prudish in that way but she let us

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 01/10/2026

so, was at my friend’s place, we were playing splatoon and i opened my bottle of xanax and took one and she was like “can we get fucked up” which was WILD bc she’s never ever been a drugs person so i was like “… really? you want to?” and she was like yeah, i’d like to do that with you before i go

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 30/09/2026

i’ve been driving an ev for like five months now and i still say “i need to get gas,” i feel like this is never gonna change

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 30/09/2026

starting my day with this one, been listening to this album regularly for nine entire years now, still so good 🤙🏼

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Adam Sandler

YouTube video by UnoTheActivist - Topic

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 30/09/2026

good morning to all my precious, beautiful mooties peeking out over the hill to make sure it’s safe to move, i hope everyone got the rest they need to have a wonderful day and that the universe magically grants you all new, special powers 🫶🏼💛🫂

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 30/09/2026

she’s just bothered that it’s all anyone ever talks about so i’m trying to give her a break from that by doing fun things with her, things we’ve always done together. we’re making the most of our time, don’t worry. it’s what she wants, we’ve talked about it

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 30/09/2026

every night when we facetime nadi and i choose an album to put on in the background and this is tonight’s, from yet another one of my fave albums of the year, it’s a genuinely incredible one. just waiting for my beautiful girlfriend’s call, i’m dying to hear her voice

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Live By You

YouTube video by Actress - Topic

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 30/09/2026

thank you bud, that actually does mean a lot, we’re both more than accepting of them

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 30/09/2026

well, how you could possibly distract someone from their own death is beyond me so that was fucking dumb to say but i guess i just wanna fill what little space is left in her head that isn’t occupied it

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 30/09/2026

my friend is home from the hospital. i spent the day with her. i’m happy she’ll be more comfortable but she doesn’t have much time left. i’ll be there every day, sleeping over sometimes just bc i wanna spend as much time with her as possible and i wanna distract her too fuck this is hard

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 29/09/2026

god i miss my girlfriend to pieces, things have been so fucking hard with everything that’s happening to my friend. i’ve been so crushingly sad. only three days until she gets home, it’s not long but i just wanna be able to lay down with her and push my forehead against hers again

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 29/09/2026

i haven’t shaved since nadi left, i fr look like trash but i have no one to look good for so whatever

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 29/09/2026

still can’t believe anjunabeats dropped a 142 track, 13 hour long compilation for their tenth year anniversary, fucking sick

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 29/09/2026

i woke up wanting candy one hour and seven minutes until the gas station opens, i set a timer on my watch

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 29/09/2026

it’s fucking madness that we live in a world where you can apply for 100 jobs, not hear back from 60 of them, and the remaining 40 were just fake listings

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 29/09/2026

you’re not being rude bud, i understand feeling that way and i also understand that i have no idea what you’re going through, what it is in your life that makes you feel that way, i won’t pretend to, i just want you to kno that it’s true to me

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 29/09/2026

it’s def interesting and unique, it’s my absolute fave pen i’ve ever owned, i took a chance on it despite being worried about its shape just bc i wasn’t sure if it would be comfy to write with but it’s perfect, i adore it

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 29/09/2026

i do too bud, i get it but please don’t, the world would be emptier without you

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 29/09/2026

it isn’t but i do have one of those and i use it for drawing so the ink is for that one too, the pen here is for the unserious doodles i draw inside my journal entries and for writing them so it may not be a clicky pen but it IS a flippy pen

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 29/09/2026

(terrible photo) i finally got some new ink for my primary pen, got a variety pack this time and i’m sooo excited, so many cute colors, i’ve been using a different plain black pen for journaling/drawing and it hasn’t felt right so i’m happy to be able to use my main again =)

to the left: a bottle of 10 0.4mm pilot hi-tec-c coleto ink cartridges in various colors / to the right: a silver cw&t pen type-c

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 29/09/2026

you all worded and expressed it just fine, don’t even worry and thank all of you so, so much for reassuring me, i really am trying to remind myself that i need to just let go and speak how i feel about her whether or not there are tears. again, thank you all, you’re such good friends to me 🫂💛🫂🫶🏼

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 28/09/2026

this is quite literally how it always should be, fuck this world

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 28/09/2026

both your look and dog ARE SO CUTE DAWN!!!! you both have the perfect style 👌🏼👌🏼

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 28/09/2026

good evening to all my wonderful, beautiful mooties, i did too many drugs last night and woke up at 2, we need communism

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 28/09/2026

don’t be sorry bud, at least i have meds that can actually help me, you don’t have anything at all =( and i pray you never have to have another surgery, it’s a fear i have too. i hope you get at least a little break from it all soon somehow 🫂🫂🫂

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 28/09/2026

part of the reason why i bought it is bc i have like no clothes in this color so i’m so excited to finally have something that’s light blue!!

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 28/09/2026

it’s okay rhys, it has to be. i’m trying my best to stay stable but thank you for always caring the way you do, you’re too good a friend to me, seriously. and you were on my mind, i was starting to get worried so i’m happy you’re back 🫂🫶🏼💐

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 28/09/2026

happy bday to my friend @rukira91.bsky.social (ANDY)!!!!!! he’s a wonderful person with a beautiful soul who deserves it all, again, happy bday my friend, i hope you’re having the perfect day 🫶🏼💛🫂🫶🏼

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 28/09/2026

it’s genuinely bizarre, seriously. to me, it feels like it randomly happened within a matter of weeks, ppl just started shitting on them. i adore baggier pants and jeans too and still wear both but i’ll never give up skinnies. thank you for agreeing bud, we’re out here and WE WON’T LEAVE

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 28/09/2026

from one of my fave albums of the year, an impeccably built tech house/ambient track with subtle, low profile emotional projection living inside a wide space. if you wanna chill and sit with your eyes closed, this is the one

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Permutia -- Pt1.2

YouTube video by ballacid

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 28/09/2026

i understand this in at least a small way bud. every single time i wake up after sleeping for more than five hours, i have to sit on my bed or wherever it is i fell asleep for roughly an hour before i feel like i can finally stand in a stable way and start moving. i hate this for you Noah =(

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