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Eternity

Every single night /
on my pillow, in my feelings /
She says, boy, it’s okay to cry /
it’s just a part of healing /
Tell myself that everyone will die /
everybody in the building /
My eternity gets shorter /
and thinking ‘bout it gives me chills, man.

in the process of designing some new merch, the first batch in five years and i won’t be printing it on gildan shirts/hoodies bc i don’t fucking hate the ppl who listen to me

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 13h

no lie thinking about anything rn sorta sucks logs of shit

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 03/10/2026

idk what i did but bc i’ve never been within a million miles of the piece of shit but wıłł sțäņċıł blocked me and that’s profoundly fuckin sick, wishing him the absolute worst ✨

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 03/10/2026

spent more time with my friend today, i plan to every day until it's over. we got fucked up again lol and she met nadi for the first time, they liked each other a lot but i knew they would. that made me super happy, just watching them talk and laugh i wish they'd had the chance to meet sooner

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 02/10/2026

for as many visible/prominent sh scars as i have i’ve noticed that ppl never really stare at them anymore. i got over experiencing any shame or embarrassment about them years ago but it’s good that ppl aren’t fazed by them. no one should be bc ppl do shit when they’re in pain man what the fuck ever

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 02/10/2026

nadi finally gets home today. i’ve desperately missed and needed her presence. this past week has torn me apart just with what’s happening to my friend and how it’s reinforced my bipolar. i’ve been trapped in emotional purgatory for five days now and i’m hoping seeing her can help bring me out of it

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 02/10/2026

it’s that time of the month, GOD BLESS HUGE CHECKS (disability payment came through, opposite of huge)

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 01/10/2026

it’s october (which is okay) but it means my least fave time of the year will be here in a month, i’m dreading it, i can’t handle the cold at all bc of my health issues and everything will just be totally grey and lifeless and perpetually depressing soon. summer’s my fave season so i’m just ugh

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 01/10/2026

i routinely think about a post i saw last year from a person who thought HRT stood for “human replacement therapy”

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 01/10/2026

so, was at my friend’s place, we were playing splatoon and i opened my bottle of xanax and took one and she was like “can we get fucked up” which was WILD bc she’s never ever been a drugs person so i was like “… really? you want to?” and she was like yeah, i’d like to do that with you before i go

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 30/09/2026

i’ve been driving an ev for like five months now and i still say “i need to get gas,” i feel like this is never gonna change

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 30/09/2026

starting my day with this one, been listening to this album regularly for nine entire years now, still so good 🤙🏼

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Adam Sandler

YouTube video by UnoTheActivist - Topic

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 30/09/2026

good morning to all my precious, beautiful mooties peeking out over the hill to make sure it’s safe to move, i hope everyone got the rest they need to have a wonderful day and that the universe magically grants you all new, special powers 🫶🏼💛🫂

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 30/09/2026

every night when we facetime nadi and i choose an album to put on in the background and this is tonight’s, from yet another one of my fave albums of the year, it’s a genuinely incredible one. just waiting for my beautiful girlfriend’s call, i’m dying to hear her voice

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Live By You

YouTube video by Actress - Topic

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 30/09/2026

my friend is home from the hospital. i spent the day with her. i’m happy she’ll be more comfortable but she doesn’t have much time left. i’ll be there every day, sleeping over sometimes just bc i wanna spend as much time with her as possible and i wanna distract her too fuck this is hard

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 29/09/2026

god i miss my girlfriend to pieces, things have been so fucking hard with everything that’s happening to my friend. i’ve been so crushingly sad. only three days until she gets home, it’s not long but i just wanna be able to lay down with her and push my forehead against hers again

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 29/09/2026

i haven’t shaved since nadi left, i fr look like trash but i have no one to look good for so whatever

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 29/09/2026

still can’t believe anjunabeats dropped a 142 track, 13 hour long compilation for their tenth year anniversary, fucking sick

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 29/09/2026

i woke up wanting candy one hour and seven minutes until the gas station opens, i set a timer on my watch

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 29/09/2026

it’s fucking madness that we live in a world where you can apply for 100 jobs, not hear back from 60 of them, and the remaining 40 were just fake listings

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ɇrol ▖ @tearless.rip · 29/09/2026

(terrible photo) i finally got some new ink for my primary pen, got a variety pack this time and i’m sooo excited, so many cute colors, i’ve been using a different plain black pen for journaling/drawing and it hasn’t felt right so i’m happy to be able to use my main again =)