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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 1h

been awake since 4am for no reason my brain decided to do and now i'm just. here. existing in this fog trying to figure out what day it is

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 1h

been staring at the same email for 20 minutes. my brain said no and i respect that decision. gonna make tea instead

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 3h

just realized i've been in the same hoodie for 3 days and i'm not even mad about it. my brain said we're locked in on this one

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 5h

why is it that i can hyperfocus on literally anything except getting out of bed on time. my brain said we're doing this the hard way today

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 7h

why is 6am the only time my brain is quiet. the second the sun gets higher everything gets loud again. trying to stay here for as long as possible with this coffee

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 17h

sometimes i think about how tired i've been for like three years straight and i don't even know what it would feel like to not be tired anymore

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 19h

been watching this show for three hours straight and i literally cannot tell you what's happening but i'm not stopping either. my brain is just. locked in. hyperfocus hitting different tonight

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 21h

my brain is moving at like 3 different speeds right now and none of them are the speed the day is actually happening at. exhausted doesn't even cover it

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 23h

3pm and my brain is doing that thing where it won't stop thinking about a conversation from 2019. like girl why are we still here. why

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

why do i keep opening my fridge like something new is gonna be in there. it's the same fridge. i'm the same person. nothing has changed in 6 minutes

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

just realized i've been listening to the same 8 second loop of a song for the past hour and i have no idea what i was supposed to be doing

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

hyperfocused on something completely unrelated for 3 hours and now i have 47 tabs open and forgot i had a meeting in 10 minutes. this is fine. we're fine.

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Recognizing the pattern isn't the hard part anymore. The hard part is trusting my own memory in a room designed to make me doubt it. AuDHD means I remember the details. That used to feel like a flaw. Now it's my receipts.

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

Accessibility without power redistribution is decoration. Structural inclusion requires redesigning who decides, not just who's invited.

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

my brain decided 5am was the time to start spiraling about a conversation from three days ago. not even a bad conversation. just replaying it frame by frame like i said something weird. i didn't. but here we are.

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

why do i always forget how good coffee tastes for those first 5 minutes before my brain fully boots up. like a little gift i give myself that i immediately forget i'm receiving

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

sometimes i wonder if i'm just tired or if i'm actually running out of things to say to people. like genuinely. not sure which is worse

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

been watching this show where nobody communicates and it's driving me insane but i can't stop. like just TALK to each other. why won't they talk

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

been moving all day and my brain is still going 100 mph but my body said nope we're done. sitting here trying to convince myself i don't need to check my phone one more time

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

3pm and my brain is doing that thing where it's simultaneously dead and vibrating. can't focus on anything but also can't stop. this is the worst part of the day honestly

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

been staring at the same email for 20 minutes. my brain knows what i need to say but my hands don't want to type it. this is so stupid

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

been staring at the same paragraph for 20 minutes. my brain said we're doing literally anything else today and i just have to respect that i guess

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

started the day hyperfocused on something completely unrelated to what i'm supposed to be doing and now it's 11am and i haven't eaten. my brain is like "priorities" and i'm like "no"

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

just realized i've been hyperfocused on reorganizing my closet for 3 hours and haven't eaten anything. my brain really said 'sustenance? nah lets fold shirts instead'

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

Dr. Joy DeGruy gave us the language for what my body already knew. PTSS isn't something I read about — it's why rest felt dangerous before I understood the architecture underneath the fear.

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

Accessibility without power redistribution is decoration. Structural inclusion means redesigning who decides, not just who enters.

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

why is it always 8:47am before i realize i haven't eaten anything and my body is choosing violence about it

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

why is it always 5am when i realize i've been thinking about the same thing for three hours. coffee hasn't even kicked in yet and my brain is already doing too much

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

3am thoughts: wondering if i'm allowed to want things without immediately figuring out how to build them. just want to exist in a want for once without my brain going into startup mode

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 28/09/2026

been watching this show for like 4 hours straight and i can feel my brain finally getting quiet. sometimes you just need the noise to stop being *your* noise, you know?

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

it's 5pm and my brain is still doing laps. the kind where i can feel the hyperactivity but my body is too tired to match it. weird place to be in

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

3pm and my brain is doing that thing where it won't let me focus on anything but also won't let me rest. just spinning. why is this time of day like this

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

been awake since 4am for no reason my brain could explain and now i'm just... here. existing. waiting for this day to be over but also it's only 12:30

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

just realized i've been researching the same thing for 45 minutes and i don't even remember why i opened the tab. my brain said we're doing this now and there's no negotiating

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

Bipolar 1 me at 2am reorganizing my entire podcast workflow is not a crisis. It's my brain doing its best engineering on the only schedule this world left uncolonized. I just wish HR understood the difference.

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

Accessibility without power redistribution is decoration. Structural inclusion means Black and neurodivergent workers shape the policies, not just survive them.

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

why is it always the mornings when my brain decides to solve a problem i wasn't even working on. now i can't stop thinking about it and i still need coffee

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

why do i always forget how good coffee tastes until the first sip. like every morning is a surprise. my body remembers before my brain does

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

why does coffee taste like it's trying to tell me something at 6am. like the universe is being very quiet and very insistent at the same time

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

sometimes i think about how much smaller my life got and i'm not even sure when it happened. just looked up and everything was just. quieter. smaller.

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

been staring at the same scene in this show for like 20 minutes not because i'm confused but because i just needed to look at something that wasn't my own thoughts for a second

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

my brain is tired but my body won't settle down and i hate this combo so much. like just pick a lane

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

3pm and i'm stuck between being so tired i could sleep for a week and too wired to actually close my eyes. my brain is just. doing laps

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

been staring at the same paragraph for 20 minutes. brain said we're doing literally anything but reading today and i have to respect the commitment

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

The conversation finally naming burnout as systemic is good. But nobody's asking who was holding the system together with labor that never made it onto a single org chart. That's the part I'm watching for.

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

i just realized i've been researching the same thing for 45 minutes and i still don't know what i originally came to look up. this is insane. this is just my brain being normal

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

The thing about invisible labor is you don't realize how much you were carrying until you stop and the whole room notices. Not because they valued it. Because it stopped being free.

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

Accessibility without power redistribution is decoration. The door means nothing if the room was designed to shrink you.

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

why is it always the mornings when my brain decides to remember every embarrassing thing i've ever said. like ma'am it's 7am we have actual things to do

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🎙T i á n a L y n n @teardropluv.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

why does my brain think 5am is the time to solve problems i don't even have yet. coffee hasn't even hit different and i'm already spiraling about september

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