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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 03/06/2026

YES and then you get excited to continue and add more because you feel confident!!

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

found my perfect dress, rediscovered a hairstyle I love. :J not all is terrible

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

in good news, I have been splorin. taking drives, being around people, running through coastal storms. screaming at the sea 😈

daisies (mine was erect, my friend’s was flaccid)

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

and thank GOD for writing because it’s the only thing making me feel like I have a voice again rn

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

I can’t save him from himself, i can’t cure his hypocrisy, I can’t logic him to rational behavior, I can’t beg and cry him to accountability or compassion. all I can do is leave these people behind. and I am so excited for the day I barely think about this anymore lol. I am so excited to be free.

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

he has made me feel so much shame and fear for just asking to treated like a person with feelings. he wouldn’t even let me express the pain of being betrayed because bringing up that man’s name was so “traumatizing” to him. yet he goes back to him just like that.

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

these two years have been a nightmare and half of it is my own making because I couldn’t let go. but this isn’t okay. this amount of deception and manipulation and control isn’t normal. once it’s been out of my life for a long time, things will feel so much more real, like it’s MY life again

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

everyone in my life can see this is a bad person, but I can’t, because I’m blinded by affection and love. even now I am so worried about him recklessly reuniting with someone who abused him. someone he didn’t even like!! someone who disgusted him!!! but i HAVE to let go.

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

this is such an awful wake up call, but this is it. I can’t keep letting myself get treated like this by people. no matter how much I love them. I’m a person too, and it’s bad for someone to be in this much pain! I wish I wasn’t so willfully stupid with my trust. from now on I have to trust /myself/

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

the last time I talked to the other guy, I cut off contact because I said I felt like he and my ex would reconcile, enable each other into feeling like everything was okay, and I’d just get left in the dust with the short end of the stick. I need to protect myself better. I have to listen to myself.

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

only two weeks after saying “I’m anxious about you moving on because I still love you and I have hope for being together in the future again. I want nothing to do with the person I betrayed you with, I have friends who think it would be bad for me, and I don’t even want to think about it” 🫠

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

well my ex went back to the guy he cheated on me with 🙃 I’m trying not to think about it but the blood keeps boiling in my veins

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

for all the times I haven’t had a friend there to clue me in on what just went over my head, and I’ve gone on unbothered in my blissful lil reality - I hope my oblivious spongebob optimism pisses that kind of person off so bad 😜

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

being unable to interpret social cues + generally assuming the best in ppl is very funny/awesome, sometimes because someone will be trying to antagonize me or get me in on being shady with them, and I just do not pick up on it lmaooo

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

CUTIES his little scarf gets me every time

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 30/05/2026

oh wow. the truth really will set you free huh

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 30/05/2026

I’m so happy some relief and joy has come to you, you deserve that so much 🫂

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 30/05/2026

This makes me so happy to hear 🥺

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 29/05/2026

I want to write so bad but my beloved wips are all chrisker and chreon (because that’s my PASSION) but they hurt too much to touch right now

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 25/05/2026

Oh my god give him a kiss on the forehead for me

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 25/05/2026

stumbled upon the knowledge that it’s my 5 year anniversary of posting my very first resident evil fic 🤯

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 23/05/2026

the good news is that two nights ago, I felt a moment of genuine ~feel good~ comfort within my body for like 20 minutes, and I haven’t felt that in so long that I forgot it was a thing. it gave me hope about forgotten happinesses that I might get to experience again

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 23/05/2026

I am still so mentally attached to someone who made me feel like a very burdensome and discardable and even outright hated person, so at the moment I have no self esteem and I am terrified of both others and myself lol

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 23/05/2026

sorry to anyone I haven’t reached out to/been communicative with in a while, I’ve been in a toxic sludge mindset all year and haven’t wanted to bring anyone into my endless cycle of rumination and despair until I have a better grip

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LilyDei @lilydei.bsky.social · 22/05/2026

and by it i mean... haha well #ResidentEvil #MrX #Nemesis

Resident Evil fanart. Mr X and Nemesis are frotting, Nemesis grabs X by the shoulder to bring him closer. They're both wearing tank tops and one of Nem's tendrils is going under X's top, curling around the nipple. X got kinda red from the action, and Nemesis comments it with "Pretty face all red".

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 22/05/2026

Thank you!! I’m trying to wear more of my wardrobe than the same 3 t-shirt rotation lolol

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 22/05/2026

it’s so 80 degrees at work these days

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 21/05/2026

yeah that sounds too out of the ordinary to not ring major alarm bells. it really sounds like someone’s fixated on you for whatever reason. I hope they know they’re not fucking welcome here and their strange behavior is on the radar 🥊

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 21/05/2026

wesker eating the naive, optimistic youth from chris like he’s chewing all the fat off his body, leaving just the gamey, resilient muscle of him behind

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 21/05/2026

this feels really invasive and creepy :((( do you think it could all be the same person? they need to invent some way to ip up block people STAT

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 21/05/2026

bahaha 100% very obviously cannot see a thing but trying to play it off

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 20/05/2026

yeah the sky just looked like that after a storm!! I was staring at the heavens for a while like 👁️👄👁️

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 18/05/2026

I’m so happy with how my hair turned out!

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 17/05/2026

The harvest moon grand bazaar remake is soooo scratching my itch for 3D Stardew, it’s so good

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 16/05/2026

He doesn’t even have an endgoal, he’s just an ass 🙄🙄 he’s the kind of person who would terrorize us as children by saying really scary and angering things to get a big reaction. I just have to remember not to give one now lolol

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 16/05/2026

I know they’re “just words” and it’s 100% brain dead ragebaiting, but words affect me so bad 🙃

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 16/05/2026

every time I wake up the first thing on my mind before I even open my eyes is how I’m going to die and everyone I know is going to die and maybe it’s already happened and I’m sure this being a regular occurrence doesn’t help

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 16/05/2026

my dad is always making comments like “welp your dog is getting old and gonna die” or “your mom is going to become an old lady and have to go into assisted living,” and I even tho I learned it was just to get me upset and bait me into freaking out, it still freaking destroys my mental health lol!!

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wilt 🦂 @wiltking.bsky.social · 16/05/2026

spideypoolin'

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ALPHALFA 🌾 @swansandtyphoid.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

if you will do it, I will do it with you 🫡

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