nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 19/01/2026being scared of the adult psyche ward makes me risk my life i am scared of and for myself 041
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 19/01/2026"i'm tired of hearing it all the time" imagine living with it i can't take it anymore 010
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 12/01/2026how do yall purge i litterally cant get myself to throw up my food 031
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 12/01/2026i need to quit letting myself like people i go crazy 020
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 11/12/2025year ago today fell into my dresser getting into the bathroom 0207
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 22/11/2025i hate how ugly and disgusting my skin is but i can't help but want to make it worse 030
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 22/11/2025anyways here's that update i disappear because i feel fine for like a week or two after then i spiral again an AWESOME cycle right 😀 071
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 22/11/2025it's funny how i just disappear for weeks at a time every time im still going crazy dw 130
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 28/10/2025i'm so sick why does cutting instantly make me feel like everything's okay but that only lasts a week then i'm back to suffering 051
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 08/10/2025but god that shower made me feel sick cause of the pain 040
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 08/10/2025next day and after shower the infected hair follicles is not it but i was not dealing with the blood all night so it was trapped under a tight gauze wrap 072
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 07/10/2025i'm bleeding through everything another roll of gauze and self stick shit 061
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 07/10/2025like please what did i do to you to be punished like this 071
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 07/10/2025i'm just trying not to kms why do i have to be punished 052
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 07/10/2025i want to cut more but that spot is too sensitive and i don't like doing it in more then one spot 062
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 07/10/2025now imagine if i did it on my arm like i originally planned 040
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 07/10/2025at least we know cutting is definitely a good distraction cause what the actual fuck why did they never work this good when i wanted em to 040
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 07/10/2025they'll definitely work for tomorrow tho i used to use these all the time tho 050
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 07/10/2025i have blood everywhere wtf when i had these last time they never one swiped like this there is blood on my bedsheet 030
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 07/10/2025fuck i'm not used to my favorite blades i wanted to die tomorrow not tonight wtf it's on swipe fuck fuck fuck 052
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 07/10/2025went to walmart alone and got my favorite blades again 030
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 04/10/2025i just need to go to walmart alone so i can get my good blades instead of stuff i can get away with buying anyways 062
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 03/10/2025damn who knew texting 988 would actually keep me distracted long enough to be too tired to hurt myself. but paying too much attention to what i said sucked cause i don't wanna be sent away 030
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 03/10/2025my heart is beating so hard i can see it in my stomach and limbs 030
nika shedtwt @surfacehell.bsky.social · 03/10/2025how do i get out i dont wanna die i just need out of my head and this place 030
