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Emily

@suika.bsky.social
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PhD candidate at @unileiden.bsky.social. Editor at @tokyoreview.net. Freelance journalist & translator. Volunteer lexicographer. Photographer. Tanka poet. Human. 研究者。記者。翻訳者。編者。日蘭・蘭日辞書編集者。歌人。写真家。人間。

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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 3h
Whenever people find out my second name is Maple they respond "oh that's so cute!" and such, so maybe I should have made that my first name instead. Then again, I guess that would maybe give off too much nonbinary vibes.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 3h
It's past 12AM and it's starting to look like I'll have to pawn Kim's hubcaps so we can get into the room at the hostel. Oh god oh fuck. Why did I spend so much money on booze and cigarettes and medication? I'm so sorry Kim 😞
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 3h
Partially, I think so. Mostly the thinking maybe.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 7h
Googled and apparently it should be vaguely French. Makes more sense to me.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 7h
My mum listening in on me playing Disco Elysium remarked that she liked the Spanish accent in Kim Kitsuragi's speaking. Kim has an accent, but it's not a Spanish one, is it? I think my mum speak a little bit of Spanish so I'm not sure why she'd get this wrong.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 9h
Oh I have like 10 different ones in my office waiting for me to read them.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 9h
Broadly speaking: learning to think and feel instead of just learning to count, I guess.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 16h
Turned out to be only one hour of lost progress in the end. Annoying but I can live with it.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 18h
He was being annoying as hell and stressing me tf out but I ideologically disagree extremely strongly with punching kids and I'm trying to stick relatively close to my morals on my first playthrough...
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 18h
Oh god, I accidentally punched the kid in Disco Elysium and now I feel real bad. I did not expect the dialogue option to result in me giving this clearly troubled boy an actual punch...
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 19h
Hmm yeah I guess one could say "trans men and trans women."
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 19h
All this reading of academic literature about autobiographies has me quite hyped to finally read an autobiography from start to finish for the first time in my life.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 20h
I'm not nonbinary but that doesn't mean I am binary.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 20h
Ideally, there would be a better word for not-nonbinary trans people, because "binary trans people" is a stupid phrase I don't vibe with.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 20h
人生の中ではメインストーリーよりサイドクエストの方が大事かも
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 20h
I sincerely think we could have prevented our current timeline by forcing at least one year of humanities courses upon everyone doing any sort of STEM degree.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 21h
"Worlds" is wintery, "Nurture" is nothing but spring, and "Smile! :D" is summer vibes, so Porter Robinson's next album will be autumnlike.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 21h
Lowkey, receiving my first smartphone at age 13 (?) might have been the actual starting point of my life. The rest was all prologue.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 21h
Almost 4.5 years ago, I decided to finally go to an event of the International Relations study association but then ran into some Japanese Studies friends and drank with them instead, and one thing led to another, so tonight I went to a nice event where a friend read their poetry.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 09/10/2026
Dear digital diary, today I parked my bike in the ✨staff-only✨ bicycle parking area under the Lipsius building. It felt good.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 09/10/2026
Every now and then I find myself wondering if Madeon's "Heavy With Hoping" and "Love You Back" are connected to each other.
Heavy With Hoping lyrics

How can I explain?
Can you imagine it?
Trying my best
Trying to find happiness
If I belong
If I had a home anywhere
It's in your heartbeat
Let me be there
Heavy with hoping
That you knew it
That you feel the way I do
Show me you're broken
'Cause I'm frozen
'Cause I'm still in love with you
Shut me up
Shoot me down before I
Break and tell the truth
Heavy with hoping
Heavy with hoping you love me too
If I let you go
We end in tragedy
How would you know
How to get back to me?
If I had a clue
If I had a chance to be loved
This is my last one
I'm nothing without you now
Even though I broke your heart
And you're all those miles away
Won't you tell me you forgive me?
Won't you bring me home to stay?
Baby now we could be ready
Maybe this is just a test
Of faith
So I'm hoping
Heavy with hoping
That you knew it
That you feel the way I do
Show me you're broken
'Cause I'm frozen
'Cause I'm still in love with you
Shut me up
Shoot me down before I
Break and tell the truth
Heavy with hoping
Heavy with hoping you love me tooLove You Back lyrics


This could be your year
If you let go of the loneliness you fear
'Cause I know that you've been trying so hard (yeah)
Don't you know it's alright
For just a little while 'cause it made us feel alive
But at the same time, we can't belong together
Though it feels like we were made for one another
Do you realize we're wasted on each other
It's you
If I could love you back I would
This could be your year
'Cause your life could take you somewhere new from here
When you're on your own
You'll look back and see I'm
Just a moment in time
And we give it a try 'cause it made us alive
But at the same time, we can't belong together
Though it feels like we were made for one another
Do you realize we're wasted on each other
It's you
If I could love you back I would
If I could love, mmm
Come on now, mmm
But at the same time, we can't belong together
Though it feels like we were made for one another
Do you realize we're wasted on each other
It's you
If I could love you back I would
Let's belong together (come on now)
Let's belong together (come on)
Let's belong together, what does
Let's belong together, what does
Let's belong together, what does
Let's belong together, what does
Let's
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 08/10/2026
Mario Kart tournament with the Japanese Studies study association (I was among the first 12 players who were eliminated 😞)
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 08/10/2026
"Am I too woke or-", No. You're not too woke. Not at all. As a matter of fact, you're not woke enough. You need to become woker. It's important.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 08/10/2026
Unironically though, I feel like a Disco Elysium kind of game--those mechanics, that kind of humor, writing and art--would work extremely well in the setting of Terry Pratchett's Discworld Series. Obviously, it would be set in Ankh Morpork, to be more precise.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 08/10/2026
I died from a heart attack after kicking a mailbox.....
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 08/10/2026
今まで作ったビアンの友人にもこれから作るビアンの友人にも、いい #国際レズビアンデー を I wish the lesbian friends I have made thus far and the lesbian friends I have yet to make a very nice #InternationalLesbianDay
Lesbian flag
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 07/10/2026
Bought a neat game for my Nintendo Switch. I wonder if the developers have ever considered making a cozy witch game.
Disco Elysium. Text on screen reads:

MEASUREHEAD - "YOU EXHIBIT FORWARD PROJECTION OF THE JAW --INDICATIVE OF SCHIZOPHRENIA AND SEXUAL INACCOUNTABILITY. FROM A PURELY AESTHETIC STANDPOINT, THE DIMPLE IN YOUR JAW MAKES YOU LOOK LIKE A BABY. THIS IS NOT CRANIOMETRY, JUST AN OBSERVATION."

1. "What else?"

2. "That's enough.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 07/10/2026
Obviously, it would be morally wrong to circumvent the paywalls of academic publishers who make huge profits while authors barely receive anything. On an unrelated note, the firefox web browser apparently comes with a built-in VPN feature for up to 50GB/month.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 07/10/2026
If the urls or IP addresses of Anna's Archive or Libgen are changed (or people make mirror sites), Dutch ISPs are obligated to update their blocks. But they're notably not obligated to block sites that pretend to be Anna's Archive or Libgen.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 07/10/2026
Hypothetically, if I were the kind of person who uses such sites, the Netherlands' blockade of Anna's Archive and Libgen would actually be really helpful to me, as it would help me discern the real deal from fakes that seek to give me a virus, while being circumventable with a VPN.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 07/10/2026
われの人生の中の最高の決断のトップ3 1.性別移行を行うこと 2.髪の毛を前髪にしていること 3.日本学科という専門を選んだこと
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 07/10/2026
Got they/them'd recently and now I find myself debating whether I should to return to putting she/her in my email signature and Zoom/Teams name for the first time in several years lol.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 06/10/2026
Blue Boy Trial (2025) has won the audience award at the yearly Camera Japan film festival in the Netherlands. camerajapan.nl/2026/10/06/t...
After counting the votes and crunching the numbers, we are pleased to announce that Blue Boy Trial remains at the top of the ratings. Congratulations to director IIZUKA Kasho for winning the 2026 CAMERA JAPAN Audience Award!

Blue Boy Trial is a moving courtroom drama that brings to light a historically groundbreaking case regarding gender-affirming care in 1960s Japan. In light of the current political climate, we are incredibly happy that our audiences were touched by a story that still bears so much importance nowadays. We hope that Blue Boy Trial will raise awareness and increase acceptance of equal rights for the LGBTQ+ community.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 06/10/2026
image credit: x.com/FraincartSar...
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 06/10/2026
Je pense donc je suis de gauche
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 06/10/2026
My entire twitter timeline is footage from the protests in France 🔥🔥🔥
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 06/10/2026
Dear diary, today I watched peak.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 06/10/2026
Hell yeah
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 06/10/2026
"Away supporters of the Israeli club Hapoel Be’er Sheva will not be welcome at the upcoming football match against AZ in Alkmaar. (…) According to Mayor Anja Schouten, the security risks are too great, particularly when it comes to the safety of the fans."
nltimes.nl
Alkmaar reaffirms decision to ban Israeli supporters from attending a match against AZ
Away supporters of the Israeli club Hapoel Be’er Sheva will not be welcome at the upcoming football match against AZ in Alkmaar. That emerged Monday evening during a specially requested emergency deba...
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 06/10/2026
Good news! If I briefly press real hard on my phone sceen with two fingers, it can read data from USB sticks again.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 06/10/2026
For me it seems to be strongest whenever I go from Japan to the Netherlands. Stronger than the other way around, and stronger than travel within Japan. Maybe it's as strong when I come back from other countries, but that bothers me less bc I don't have a "life" in those other countries.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 06/10/2026
I think what bothers me most about getting back to the Netherlands after a period in Japan is how the time spent in Japan so quickly feels like it was almost just a dream, as I immediately end up swept back into the motions of life in Leiden.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 05/10/2026
11 combo without using the Hold Queue 😌
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 05/10/2026
お手洗いランキング 最低:日本式トイレ OK:洋式トイレ 最高:日本式洋式トイレ
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 05/10/2026
Dat homofobie en transfobie met elkaar verbonden zijn, daar ben ik mee bekend. Maar de specifieke transhaat aangewakkerd door de Nederlandse kranten in laatste jaren richtte zich meer op het als gevaarlijk afschilderen van trans vrouwen en transzorg.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 05/10/2026
Ja oké fair dat speelt ook enorm mee inderdaad. Al hebben Telegraaf en Volkskrant voor zover ik weet dan weer niet specifiek tegen homoseksualiteit geageerd?
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 05/10/2026
Het irritantste aan Sander Schimmelpenninck is dat hij soms wèl echt gelijk heeft
Iedereen met verstand weet waarom de homo-acceptatie zo ongelooflijk achteruit is gegaan: de algoritmische haat op onze telefoon en de extreemrechtse dominantie op onze digitale platformen. Platformen die, ik herhaal het nog maar eens, letterlijk in eigendom zijn van geschifte fascisten. Het is daarbij natuurlijk niet alleen de homo-acceptatie die onder druk staat, maar de acceptatie van alles en iedereen die ‘anders’ is, of dat nu een asielzoeker of een trans persoon is.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 04/10/2026
Thanks I'll check it out!
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 04/10/2026
Ah I'm unfortunately not in Japan anymore these days.
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Emily @suika.bsky.social · 04/10/2026
Real Dutch people are capable of eating fries, or other food, while cycling.
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