iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

At the obgyn my weight is 127 god bless

051

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

For the first time i admitted out loud i have dealt with an eating disorder via a joke at work... chat im cooked

050

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

Dont wanna dox my job but im trying to get a malicious targeted review down and im hoping its gone in a few days cause its CREEPY and we've had a real sus ass person working here whos getting kicked out at the end of the week

040

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

My anxiety has been fucking insane the past few days i hate it

010

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

God my fucking body dysmorphia is hitting me like a truck again and knowing all my cutest clothes i bought when i was at my heaviest and now im left with mostly huge clothes makes me so sick

020

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

Most of my friends are faraway. I dont even know if my partner really likes me everyday anymore. Somedays like today its like im the worst. I cant tell. I just wanna stop by work and hang out there tomorrow on my day off cause it feels safe but i shouldnt do that either. Evil cycle

040

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

Think ive tied my value to my work a bit too much but also its been my happy place. Which feels sad to even say. But where else can I have people i see daily that (i hope) give a shit about me and let me kind of run loose? I dont have anything else where i live......

140

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

Yknow im glad i locked in as hard as i did in 2024 and dropped 1/3 of my body weight but i want more off so bad and ive been mostly in a plateau for awhile now. Blessing and a curse

030

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

TW body check . . . . Am feeling a type of way. I love it but also hate it. Whoops. Cant help but take photos (i am in constant physical pain too)

030

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 26/08/2026

Keep feelin like a fatass yet i can see my entire ribcage as of late🫩 can my brain pick a struggle i stg

060

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 17/08/2026

The urge to do drugs grows constantly

040

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 03/08/2026

I want to be strong and toned but im also mortified how beefy my arms look. I love it but also deeply hate it

030

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 02/08/2026

Lost a good bulk of my weight by $t@rv1ng in 2024 but yknow i was still very very fat for most of that year and its just horrifying and i was so violently uncomfortable and had BED before

020

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 02/08/2026

Trying to clean out my phone and organize picture albums and im so horrified everytime i see a photo or video of me pre 2025 when i was still almost 200lbs. Horrifying

130

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

Later half of the petal video im loving but man that black dress.......... girl....... :(

020

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

Ik this might be ironic coming from me but man. I really hope ari has proper support behind the scenes and can recover in some way.

120

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

Stupid part timer that likes to act sick and begs for their mommy to get them everytime we actually give them stuff to do. Other managers got interviews set up cause we all fed up

000

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 01/08/2026

Being a fucking manager is tiring sometimes when you have the most infuriating part timers in the world Cant wait to hire some new people😭😭😭 jesus fucking christ

130

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 10/07/2026

Genuinely feel like ive lost myself and its scary

030

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 07/07/2026

I get it i was only a +1 and the person hosting has sponsors and the sponsors needed to be ok with everything and apparently one of them isnt ok with it

020

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 07/07/2026

Have to awkwardly take off my pto at work tomorrow cause theres a bunch of people angry that my partner wanted to take me to a trip that the person hosting said was generally ok... we agreed if 1 person wasnt ok id pull out and turns out its fucking 4 of them. Ive been crying on and off

120

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 06/07/2026

I can handle myself but fuck i nearly destroyed everything i worked for in my adult life. My partner doesnt know it cause ive told no one in my life about my ed but he basically woke me up to the reality of what my illness has been doing

020

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 06/07/2026

This time im really on my own. I had so much support from my friends as a teen and a decent fucking health insurance under my parents even if they disagreed with therapy and when i got hospitalized for being a literal danger to myself. I had help. Now my insurance is shit and everyones busy

120

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 06/07/2026

Theres other mental illness that constantly attacks my life but my ed has been a different kind of demon with depression, anxiety, ptsd and hell im pretty sure i have ocd but i havent been diagonsed with that one. 11 years ago i almost lost my life due to depression, now ive come close w my ed

110

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 06/07/2026

Im so scared and in constant physical pain in parts of my body. I still dont wanna gain weight, my dysmorphia isnt that bad compared to my heaviest but im scared to even reach half that again. But i think my body fat is too low and its hurting me

110

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 06/07/2026

Attempting to properly recover... my ed has taken so much from me and i know myself, but i also dont. I feel so lost. The past 2 years starving i barely even remember. Before that i binged so much i blocked it out. And all this time even before my 20s ive had food issues. Im so tired.

240

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 30/06/2026

The people I want to befriend and truly spend time with are fellow coworkers and we're all too busy and far apart. So its really just work I have any company and i kinda hate that

010

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 30/06/2026

I miss my friends so much. I want new friends too. But being an adult its impossible when you move away from your existing friends and everyones too busy

110

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 30/06/2026

I truly feel like I am not worthy of being loved deeply and doomed to live in solitude. It breaks my fucking heart

110

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 26/06/2026

FINALLY had this bad boy yesterday and my god it was so good. Not very energizing for me but it was so yummy idec

040

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 22/06/2026

I FUCKING DIDN'T REALIZE IT'S LITHA OMG

020

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 22/06/2026

Personally havent watched it myself but im sooooo disinterested it, hasnt looked appealing in the slightest. The main character alone annoys me idek what it is just looking at her pmo

120

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 22/06/2026

Happy with my life currently but my body is still👎🏻👎🏻👎🏻👎🏻👎🏻

030

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 15/06/2026

I keep hearing good things tbh i should listen to it while im at the gym

110

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 15/06/2026

Trying to avoid falling into any despair and bad feelings but i feel like moving stores was the best thing to happen to my old location cause theres no way the entire management staff isnt extremely happy for me to be gone

010

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 14/06/2026

"Suggested for you" is crazy asf on instagram sometimes

030

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 14/06/2026

YALLLLLL nsfw warning (sort of) i was scrolling instagram and i found a managers latex f3tish account AND IT WAS PUBLIC 🫪 my bad for clicking i guess

150

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 13/06/2026

My partners job potentially lied to him in the shittiest way possible and i hope those people get swift kicked in the groin

020

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

Sitting on the balcony while it storms and trying to not eat

020

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

Keep telling myself this then i go to aldi and buy more🫩

110

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 09/06/2026

Ik this is an ed acc and i vent about that and yknow its IN MY PHOTOS but i do worry about ariana quite a bit esp with the tour

030

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 09/06/2026

Having a sick brain is so stupid cause on one hand im insanely jealous of ari's bod but on the other i am worried about her and idk if shes really safe touring :(

140

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 09/06/2026

Thank you💕 im currently cozy on my couch and i stretched my legs

110

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 09/06/2026

Was on a 7.0 incline for 45 min on the treadmill Genuinely my legs started cramping and ive been getting 10-15k+ steps DAILY for years esp the past 2... jesus fuck i struggled walking back to my apartment

220

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 05/06/2026

Being at a place with a pool and 24hr gym is truly what i needed

010

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 02/06/2026

WHYYYYY isnt this a sweater💔💔💔💔💔 fuck me

010

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

😔 Not even a whole year and we've had 2 beloved pets die on us. Both from seizures

030

🌸Petal Candy🌸 @stripedcandy.bsky.social · 29/05/2026

popping in to say. New ari single so goddamn good. Queen never disappoints

030