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@starryxashes.bsky.social
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Hi I'm Ashes! 25 - venting - she/they, plural a lot TW: in recovery but talk about Ed, sh, trauma, and su!c!dal urges/thoughts. Also state violence frequently rn. Manic restrictive dream girl ✌️🌙 Minors dni

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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 11h
Diet culture is so weird. Some lady was being talkative and told me how she lost 70 lbs in the last year and how it was a whole third of her body weight and I was just standing there like 😐 if I did anything close to that they'd put me in a psych ward
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 01/10/2026
The curse of knowing too much
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 30/09/2026
Tired
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 29/09/2026
I gotta stop calling everyone hoes in my head when they annoy me at some point I'm going to say it and that'll be bad
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 28/09/2026
How soul crushing to be helpless as the few celebrate and jeer as they burn our mother alive
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 27/09/2026
Uncalled for opinion but I do not understand or respect people who consume true crime media. Why are we finding entertainment in people's suffering? What is so interesting about horrible things happening to people, frequently women or poc??? If you want media that's creepy/scary read a horror book!!
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 24/09/2026
So sick of my workplace it's so frustrating. Do you want a change or not. Do you want feedback or not. Why don't we write anything down. Why does no one say if something is different in reality vs written. How are we functioning I don't get it
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 24/09/2026
Ai feels like a fever dream. We truly are trying to replace human emotions and meaning with machine bastardizations. Let the humans do the mundane tasks and outsource creativity and the human experience to machines. Art is revolutionary. It's much easier to make sure a machine says the right thing
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 24/09/2026
We want the humans to grind We want the engines to sing We want machines to be human We want humans to be machines
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 22/09/2026
I love no mans sky but every time I play I get such existential dread afterwards. My brain is like 'exploration! Cataloguing new creatures, plants, rocks, and environments! This is what we're supposed to do :)' then I remember I can't do that and get sad
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 21/09/2026
Existential dread
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 21/09/2026
Mfw I find out my workplace just doesn't make production schedules? We're just surviving off vibes?
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Salem the Cat Surprised (Sabrina the Teenage Witch)
Alt: Salem the Cat shocked (Sabrina the Teenage Witch)
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 21/09/2026
Wake up and face the horrors of late stage capitalism
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 20/09/2026
I wish I could do something to stop my partner's fibro. Fae're in so much pain and i want to help so bad but i feel helpless because i can't
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 19/09/2026
Cons of gaining weight: ED freaks out sometimes Pros of gaining weight: I'm super strong now. I feel strong and don't feel like I'm decaying. I have a butt. Food tastes good.
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 17/09/2026
Choosing to listen to MCR my brain is so funky rn
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 15/09/2026
Local girlfailure
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 15/09/2026
Girl who is losing her mind
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 14/09/2026
Falling apart fall
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 12/09/2026
Shaved today and had like 5 more bruises from aerial than I thought I did lol
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 11/09/2026
Nicotine urges have nothing on intense exercise 🤙
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 10/09/2026
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Sad Cat Lounging
ALT: Sad Cat Lounging
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 10/09/2026
Sneaking a quick cig ❌ Sneaking a quick cry ✅
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 10/09/2026
Ate food even though I so didn't want to everyone say good job ashes
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 09/09/2026
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Explosion Cat
ALT: Explosion Cat
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 09/09/2026
Stupid stupid stupid fatass whore thinks she can eat food and not get fat when the only time she's been a normal weight is when heavy resing stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid bitch
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 09/09/2026
Live feed
A plump grey bunny on a scale, the scale reading just says 'FAT'
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 07/09/2026
Partner is playing Skyrim and I'm watching and fae got ambushed by a SPIDER and I literally screamed and almost started crying and curled up so fast my wrist is sore bc it got caught in my leg
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 07/09/2026
They fucking switched registers to go to the one I was waiting by just to say 'I feel like I know you' no you fucking don't take a hint
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 07/09/2026
My favorite part of being trans is
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 07/09/2026
I'm so weird ab my hair. It doesn't matter how fucked up it is the idea of getting dead ends cut is terrifying to me. What if they just chop of all my hair. What if I cut my hair and look in the mirror and it's just 'man'
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 06/09/2026
Heheh my aerial friends know me as the girl with cool boots. A couple people saw my platforms on the shoe rack and were like 'those are yours right'
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 06/09/2026
Other girls - aerial based on memory, vibes Me - aerial spreadsheet, detailed notes, notebook outlining my open gym plan
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 06/09/2026
Have not worn my giant platforms all summer so I'm wearing them to the gym because
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 05/09/2026
Friend told me that she has slept four hours a night for days in a row, has been doing stuff constantly, ate basically nothing except drinking caffeine, and says she's doing great and I'm like 🤨 I know this story
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 04/09/2026
On hour two of a three hour workout 😅 your girl is SWEATY
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 03/09/2026
Looking through my playlist for a song to add to a group playlist w my friends and gods I didn't realize how many songs I louden to that are about domming
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 02/09/2026
Join the bipolar union - local 5150
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 02/09/2026
I know I'm supposed to work but has the the economy considered that I am very sleepy
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 01/09/2026
Opposite action babyyyyy life has meaning again
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 31/08/2026
Brain fog is so bad today
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 31/08/2026
My phq9 score 📈📈📈
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 31/08/2026
Bipolar girlie vs impulse control
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 31/08/2026
Bla bla bla bla bla
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 31/08/2026
Relapse urge :(
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 31/08/2026
Idk yall it feels like my brain has been trying to put me in a depressive episode for weeks. Unsuccessfully but it I just keep getting sad for no reason
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 30/08/2026
Pretty charming helpful thin gentle still patient pink
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 26/08/2026
Cissies really can't stand the concept of a confident and content trans person. You have to be the right amount of self hating to make them feel good about being an 'ally' but also have zero expectations of respect so they don't need to actually treat you right.
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Ashessss @starryxashes.bsky.social · 26/08/2026
sad bitch season
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