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Nny🔪 @homicidalkgs.bsky.social · 24/07/2026

We're at $100/$300 raised! Thank you so much please keep sharing!

⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 23/07/2026

hi dropping in to say life is so difficult right now lol. had my first therapy session in a few years yesterday though! hoping it helps. still hoping to lose weight. i'm back in the triple digits but i'm also 3 lbs from getting back to 98. a lot of emotional eating worst year of my life for sure!

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 26/04/2026

does anyone have some pretty good knowledge about 4strology and could help me understand/read my ch4rt for me? i'm also generally curious if friday's full moon in scorp is a sign that i'll need to pursue recovery soon (i'm a scorp rising) 🥲

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 23/04/2026

i miss being triggered and motivated, i need to lock in again 😭 i have like no discipline lol

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 21/04/2026

guess who's back up to 98 LMAO what a fucking joke

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

increased protein has been doing me good, but i'm still losing my breath while i speak. but i hit my next gw yesterday and am 4.3lbs from my ugw! ik i just said i promised myself that i'd start recovery once i hit it, but i think i might need to go lower to feel comfortable gaining muscle weight

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 31/03/2026

i'm eating, kind of a lot. made a big protein shake. having toast. gonna have a protein bar and some hummus + veggie chips later. big thing of vegetables and sweet potato in the evening. i don't want to die. but i will get to 90lbs. i will build muscle. i will recover, just on my own terms.

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 31/03/2026

i've been thinking about recovery lately because i am so physically weak and feel so genuinely stupid. but the biggest issue i've had is that--and this is just real fucking cruel and oh so funny--i think my legs look too skinny lol. they don't look good. but i carry my weight everywhere else.

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 31/03/2026

can't tell if i'm just anxious or this tight feeling in my chest + shortness of breath for the past few days is because i've been slowly killing myself for years

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 01/03/2026

one month without my baby. got him fresh flowers today. 🤍 everything hurts and i miss him with my whole heart. still don't understand why things had to go the way they did. still wondering if we made the right decision. still the love of my life.

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 21/02/2026

My boss gave me an $8 raise today and I almost burst into tears 😭 I didn't even get a chance to ask for the $3 I was initially going to, he just said I was such an asset and going above and beyond even though I'm going through a terrible time rn (but he also told me to pls take a mental health day)

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 18/02/2026

all this grief has me eating so much and moving so little. i wish i was an emotional starver

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 14/02/2026

had to write a love letter to dogs for a v-day project for a client and tomorrow, valentine's day, marks two weeks since i lost my baby. was too mentally exhausted to make it perfect, even though i wanted it to be. i don't want to write something heartfelt just to sell shit at the end anyway

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 13/02/2026

impulsively got pierced today and made cookies at like 10pm

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 12/02/2026

i just wanna lay down and sleep forever, i'm so tired. i'm so so so tired. everything in my life is so overwhelming right now and i'm reaching a breaking point. i miss my baby boy every day. i'm sad i'll never see my aunt again. i'm scared thinking about who's next. i feel weak and tired

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 12/02/2026

almost had a panic attack today over the sheer amount of fucking stress and paranoia and depression and fear and misery running through my body that i'm unconsciously repressing every second i can. i just started fucking breaking down and shaking. i've never had that happen before

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 10/02/2026

cried myself to sleep the night he left us and wished to hold him again. my wish was granted today. you're smaller than you've ever been, but the space you take up in my heart has never been bigger. my sweet and beautiful baby boy. 🤍 you are so loved. we all miss you so, so much. we're still crying.

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 06/02/2026

so tired. thank you to everyone who reached out and left sweet comments about my baby. tomorrow is one week, and i'm still not prepared for a life without him. i have my moments where i'm okay. i have my moments where i cry. i still love him in every moment. i still think about him every day.

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 03/02/2026

this is my sweet baby angel by the way 🤍🤍🤍 i'm so glad i get to bring more of him home. i miss him so much. he was a little prince who got everything he wanted and i would give him the world all over again if i had the chance. life will never be the same without him.

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 03/02/2026

i think i might be able to get more of my baby's fur, i'm so afraid that i'm getting my hopes up but i was called back and they said the crematorium team would be in contact with me about my request and any additional costs, so that sounds to me like it's still possible. i need this so badly

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 02/02/2026

nothing feels real. he was in my arms when they injected him and he was still warm in the end. he didn't feel heavier. he was normal, beautiful, perfect. i don't understand. but i called the company today to see if i could get more fur if he hasn't been cremated already. please god give me more fur

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 02/02/2026

i dont know how the sun could still shine today without my baby boy in this world

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 01/02/2026

we just put my dog down. my baby who i raised since he was a puppy, my whole life, my love, my little baby boy. my heart feels like it's shriveling up and dying. my chest feels like it's going to cave in. this decision never feels right. i'm hysterical. that was my baby. i love you so fucking much

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 18/01/2026

My tía passed early this morning. Sweetest angel who would give you the shirt off her back. C4ncer is so evil, but so are the people who scare others into avoiding treatment. She might still be here with us had she undergone ch3mo. Miss you titi, te quiero mucho.

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 04/01/2026

My favorite aunt is slowly and very painfully dying to c4ncer, my parents might be stuck in PR because flights are canceled in the C4ribbean, I almost hit an iguana and a raccoon today, big spider in my car, and found out my big ass meal today wasn't v-gan lmao today has been so bad it's funny

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 05/12/2025

Hi, I'm still alive lol. Life is busy and I'm exhausted. Been in a daily b1nge-r3strict cycle for the past few months and have just maintained. Saw an old professor yesterday and she said I'd gotten th1n and look good. Happy about that, but I could (should) be th1nner

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 10/11/2025

Every platform I've posted this question on is at 50/50 lmaooooooo

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 09/11/2025

Help me decide pls I can't choose 😭 I need to start drinking water more often so I'm getting myself a water bottle!

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 06/11/2025

Old classmate posted a b0dych3ck video on her story and she is SO tiny and SO petite. Why can't that be me 😭

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 06/11/2025

All I do lately is eat and gain/lose the same 3lbs

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 02/11/2025

Today was W0rld V3gan D4y and instead of using my cals on something good or worth it I just binged on shitty junk food, just like I did last night, to the point of thinking I was going to puke (which was the case last night too) November is off to a great start everyone!!!!!!

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 31/10/2025

Happy Halloween! 🎃 All cals on me, have fun tonight y'all! 🍬🍭 As hard as it is to believe, we all deserve joy and to allow ourselves to indulge without guilt. Try your best to not be too hard on yourselves today. Today is a day of celebration! 🖤

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 28/10/2025

Just got some professional photos back from my best friend's wedding and lmao it doesn't even matter if I'm skinny because being skinny hasn't fixed my face

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 21/10/2025

Desperately trying to hit my next gw before my best friend gets married on Saturday bc I'm a m41d of h0n0r and so scared about getting pics taken and I'm 1.5lbs away PLEASE GOD PLEASE??? PLEASE???

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 05/10/2025

FUN FACT: Did you know that after dropping my abuela off at the airport, kicking off a week of being home alone, I did not st4rve and instead ate the rest of my leftover birthday cake and Indi4n food and this was hours ago and I still feel full up to my throat

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 01/10/2025

The last gift my partner got me for my bday came in and she's beautiful!! 😭 Celebrating by baking one cookie, and hopefully it's good bc I think I bought this dough like..... maybe over a month ago..... maybe two months.....

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 01/10/2025

Happy October! We're locking in again this month and we're all gonna feel great in our costumes and enjoy fall dishes, desserts, and candy with no guilt!! H4lloween is my fave holiday and we WILL have fun and enjoy it this year 🎃🦇🖤

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 30/09/2025

Ate a big meal for breakfast bc today was going to be busy at work, and my partner brought me a snack plate they made for me and were visibly saddened by me kindly rejecting it. When they left the room I noticed they cut the strawberries into hearts. I cried so much. I fucking hate myself

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⋆ • ✶ blu ✶ • ⋆ @sourbluberries.bsky.social · 30/09/2025

Being an emotional eater with an ed is so fucked up bc why am I bingeing to cope with my emotions and numb myself and then wanting to eat more bc I'm stressed and scared about w8 gain and how much I ate

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