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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 26/09/2026

vic 20's were rough, i actually picked one up at a venue i played that was a music venue/record store/thrift shop/studio back in 2008 that was still mint w/ box and all for $20. dude who ran the spot is awesome, an old noise hippie who collabs w/ David Barton a lot

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

you can get 50-packs of single-layer discs (just over 1TB total) for $55

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

could get a blu-ray burner to archive stuff since bd-r discs haven't gone up in price

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

fwiw, this ER trip had the funniest/randomest cause so far: i tilted my head a few degrees & my neck cracked in a way that strained a few muscles pretty bad. had to make sure the arteries didn't get damaged too

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

nope, was in the ER for ~10 hrs instead. thankfully ok, just a bad muscle strain but they needed to do imaging to make sure it wasn't something significantly worse

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

i haven't had low enough pain in the right combination of places to play video games for more than ~2 hrs total in the last 3 months. i'd cross my fingers for tomorrow, but i do need my fingers to work if i want to try playing anything. i'd try now but my left knee is awful

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

i already ate more, couldn't help it. i've eaten 18oz of tomato Parmesan bisque, 2 english muffins, 3 tiny donuts, & a delicious munster/mayo/bacon/sourdough sandwich in the last 8 hrs. still hungry. lol pretty sure popsicles or ice cream is next (hopefully I'll wait at least a few hrs this time)

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

chronic pain fucks w/ my appetite a lot, it's pretty funny how hungry i get any time my shoulders, upper back, & ribs are mostly aligned. sucks that i have a sore throat though, i want to keep eating all day but i need to resist the urge or i'll make it worse

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

i've felt like crap all week after some medication issues that seem to be fine now, but the good news is that it meant i spent almost the entire week flat on my back resting. started feeling more like i usually do (still shitty) today and managed to pop one shoulder back into place for now

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

be careful, he's weak to grass

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

every once in a while, i remember the stupidest text i've ever gotten. in response to a text informing a former roommate what her share of bills was that month, she texted "What did you do with the money i gave you for bills last month?". this was, somehow, a 30yo woman who didn't understand bills

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

found out that hummingbirds squeak, it's pretty cute. also, i think i may have befriended a hummingbird since it's now flown right up to me two days in a row & squeaked at me?

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

if you use the butter to make fudge, you should be able to get a pretty accurate dose if you weigh out each piece of fudge. plus, you'll have homemade fudge

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

i spend way more time with my heating pad than with other people these days. my hips are in so much pain, pretty sure the right hip keeps dislocating. at least my doctor confirmed my suspicion that it's probably never worth going to urgent care for a dislocation

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

it's a real shame. she did a lot of solid work (& sometimes still does), but the last year or two has been full of weird bad takes

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 31/08/2026

yeah, something's felt off about Lorenz for a while now so this doesn't surprise me

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 30/08/2026

wish i had some right now, a coconut polar would be great

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 30/08/2026

at my old job back in ~2009, i spent 1wk creating a group of photoshop actions that were pretty much identical to what Snapchat did with filters a few years later. the photo lab decided not to go with the idea b/c my boss hated me, get the feeling they regretted that later lol

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 26/08/2026

the other good use: cute animal photos/videos

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

stepped outside for a minute & my rabbit friend Herbie was waiting for me lol. had to run back inside to grab some almonds for him to snack on

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

to be fair, we only got the self-driving cars first because they decided it was fine if the cars ran over a few people here & there or just stops abruptly in the middle of traffic for no reason

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

since LLMs are non-deterministic anyway, it feels like a shame that they don't lean into their potential for RNG. though i suppose they'd have to admit that that's not worth a few trillion dollars so they're just going to pretend it's a superintelligence capable of literally everything

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 18/08/2026

i wish i was better at verbalising what i'm feeling physically & emotionally, but if i were i'd probably have made way less art & music before my pain got in the way. it's a big part of why my disability is so isolating, music & art were how i communicated with the world

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 18/08/2026

Congrats! i hope you get a nice machete to celebrate

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 18/08/2026

idk, but you can definitely send them to me. i need more new stuff to listen to

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 10/08/2026

a "fun" thing i've been experiencing a lot over the past decade: my adams apple dislocates. it takes a long time to figure out that it's happened too, so it'll stay that way for weeks or months. good news is that i can manually pop it back in place after i know but it doesn't feel right at all

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 09/08/2026

W sure as fuck helped lower the bar there, those education cuts were brutal. i'm glad that wasn't the attitude when i was in HS: half my teachers thought i was an idiot & i was reading Vonnegut, Bukowski, Trumbo, Steinbeck, & random text books for fun

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 06/08/2026

for context: i'm deciding if i should re-release some of the albums on CD (think last time i made them available was maybe 2016?) for the 25th anniversary of the first e.s.c. album. if any of you have any requests, lmk. probably doing traces/last chance/e.s.c. is dead/scorched earth

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 06/08/2026

sometimes it really helps to go back and listen to your own music, most of us have a habit of forgetting about our past accomplishments when things are rough. i really miss being able to make art & music regularly but it's good to remind myself that i was extremely productive from 1999-2014

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 03/08/2026

fuck. actually that APC vinyl is missing. guess it's Sunz Of Man & El-P instead

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 03/08/2026

haven't listened to my records in forever so of course i had to grab Stagediver, kid606, Sub Dub, Techno Animal, & Anti-Pop Consortium first

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 29/07/2026

maybe they were hoping he'd go full method & remove his face for the role

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 29/07/2026

that's the scene that holds up the best. never gets old watching Leto get wrecked. that set must've been a nightmare between him, Pitt, & Norton

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 25/07/2026

tbf, i only got internet at home in 1998. which makes it extra funny that we were in the test market for cable internet so we had dial-up for only ~2yrs before we had cable internet. benefits of living less than 2 miles from Motorola HQ at the time

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 23/07/2026

i once registered yourube .com as joke and never did anything with it. it's still a typo that makes me laugh

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 22/07/2026

what's wild about watching so many video essays is how often one of them will casually drop a sentence that reminds me that i'm the same age as their parents

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

i get shown a lot of weird ads on youtube, but the one for some sort of passport bro dating service last night was among the grossest

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 18/07/2026

the wildfire smoke is finally taking a break in my area, unfortunately it's 76 degrees with 89% humidity at midnight so i still can't get any fresh air tonight

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

does taking my prescribed pain meds for 12 years straight qualify me? i'm taking opioids daily, is that good enough or do i need withdrawal symptoms if i miss a dose for it to count?

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

in my experience, their sandwich options are often better too

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 06/07/2026

don't forget his amazing fight against his own hand in Evil Dead 2. i saw that at way too young an age & it warped my sense of humor (in a good way)

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 04/07/2026

or i could also re-release some of the old DVDs, i put out 10 or so ~15-20yrs ago

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 04/07/2026

did think about a DVD & Blu Ray release, haven't put out any of my video stuff on physical media in a long time & would need one for e.s.c. stuff & one for the stuff under my name. i've got so many live sets edited already so the e.s.c. one would be easy besides the 2 final shows. i need an intern 🙃

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 04/07/2026

at least since i've done all the art & everything years ago, it wouldn't take much actual work but my hands don't work well for long so it'd still be rough. i've barely even been able to play 2hrs of video games this past month 🙁

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 04/07/2026

if i made some environmental sound collapse albums available on CD again (with bonus tracks) for the 25th anniversary of the project, would anyone want them? if USB flash drives hadn't gotten so expensive, i wanted to do a limited USB flash release with a bunch of music & video but AI... ugh 🙁

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 04/07/2026

Biden's admin was so fucking terrible at getting word out when they got something good accomplished

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 01/07/2026

yep, i see fewer than 15 people

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e.s.c. @soundcollapse.bsky.social · 01/07/2026

i had bigger parties in my apartment in Pilsen during college and i have social anxiety disorder

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