Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 5mabout damn time i made a thumbnail for this. video will go out on the 26th since there's plenty other stuff in the pipeline already 000
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 4hserver im in has been blubposting the past week so heres a sketch i did in under a minute 110
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 9hgot another drawing idea i probably won't be able to post without pissing some people off 000
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 07/10/2026that's 6 out of 14 rips uploaded so far; our schedule is set for now and the next open slot is the 26th. still need to get more ideas picked out, but at least we can rest if we need to until then. things are looking up 000
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 06/10/2026insomnia, stress headache, 8hr work shift later today's probably gonna be gloomy, really not feeling good mentally this morning 000
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 05/10/2026on a similar note we've been wanting to make more music/arrangements for fake games, aside from having the backlog of AUs to catch up on... maybe the Evzi video can have a couple custom tracks under its own metadata also brainstorming MIDI inst songs, really wanna do something themed on old Windows 000
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 05/10/2026we want to explore this in a future video since it could help us vent, but also be a nice non-rip thing to produce. we still wanna do more artful vids in the face of being a siiva fan-channel first 'n foremost; taking breaks from the norm is healthy practice 000
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 05/10/2026"switching faster than the channels on TV" = don't know who i am/want to be "my enemy's invisible" = no one but me & my thoughts "don't know how to fight" = struggle to find a 'magic solution' "trembling fear is more than i can take" = self-explanatory "against the echo in the mirror" = me vs myself 100
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 05/10/2026that said, recently I've been thinking about Evzi, building from me liking ECHO so much. While Nightscar is *active* aggression, Evzi is *passive*: forbidding full potential; halting progress; being your own roadblock; Evzi represents me getting in my own way and walling myself off. 100
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 05/10/2026translating that to a lore character gives him a strong, hateful attitude; the kind of villain who will run over anyone in his way and never stop coming back. he's rarely if ever, merciful/lenient to others, including his subordinates or business partners. he can kill, and has killed, in cold blood. 100
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 05/10/2026in making Nightscar he was meant to represent a lot of self-hate and unhandled frustration. something to kinda personify the stress/trauma from the past few years up 'til then, and since, he's only meant that more 'n more. lack of value, belief, control, happiness etc. of myself at the time. 100
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 05/10/2026headmate shenanigans once we hit that part of the song 010
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 05/10/2026new soundcloud upload, "MEGALOCALIBER", for an AU concept i've worked on the past couple months. soundcloud.com/user-1440959...soundcloud.comMEGALOCALIBER - HELP-TALE* a parasite that came from the surface. * aside from asgore, i'm the only one left standing in its way. * i can't let the underground fall to this... THING. * i've only got one shot. let's make this 100
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 04/10/2026got an idea for a booster track i could compose, might help me get back onto the idea train for it and work on more au songs. i really wanna start using boosters on non-funland aus but i'm already so planned-ahead with the songs that it might have to wait until post-winterfes. who knows. 000
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 03/10/2026art challenge draw with the windows settings palette 010
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 03/10/2026i've been debating whether i should cameo Draco & Spire on my main channel, i think it'd be cool to have them cross paths with Kade & Cloud but im not sure how the story elements would go... another 2027 goal i guess, but damn it's fun to think about 000
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 03/10/2026i should've started writing these things sooner, this is way too fun and relieving. feels like i'm making scripts again, but in a much healthier way. it's easy for me to forget writing standalone stories exists when i'm so buried in drawing, composing, editing, and video scripting. 010
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 01/10/2026i think i'm going to be okay but my mind has so many conflicting feelings at the moment it feels like i'm experiencing all 5 grief stages at once amidst some twisted sense of euphoria and relief i hate it i hate it so much i don't want these emotions please stop hurting me 000
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 01/10/2026god i dont think i can transition to the next takeover in this state, i might need to take an even longer break than i want mom's taking me on vacation with her mid-october and i dont wanna leave the whole month without uploads but after today idk if i have the energy to make anything else 000
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 01/10/2026i always hated how we couldn't connect, but i don't want my anger to continue past your grave. you were still good to us, and i wish i could've been better to you. i'm sorry for the stress i gave you; i still love you rest in peace; i hope you live a good afterlife www.youtube.com/watch?v=dAXN...youtube.comNightmarish (OST Version) - FNF: SonicKade ScrambleYouTube video by SonicKade2048 100
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 30/09/2026these are the questions that keep me up at night and make me wonder if i'm really wasting my life or not i am my own roadblock and i have nobody to blame for missed opportunities but myself sometimes a bitch just wanna be involved and stop being so alone all the damn time 000
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 30/09/2026i'd rather not risk my depression going turbo on me just cuz someone/thing i look up to doesn't think i'm fit to join ...but then again, as the saying goes, "You miss 100% of the shots you don't take" so who's the real loser here, my rejected self who tried, or my lonely self who never tried 100
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 30/09/2026the fear of being rejected haunts me the most, especially harming my reputation, risking being labeled as some nitwit trying to get people to like them people *are* meaner these days, but also more judgemental, and will make quicker decisions to shut you up if they even THINK you're annoying them 100
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 30/09/2026maybe it's an excuse, maybe it's factual, but i believe i still "need time to figure myself out" and keep being reclusive so i can "focus on my own art things" Counterintuitively, that reclusiveness shelters me from social interaction; i can't join teams without getting to know the people in them 100
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 30/09/2026i keep telling myself "it'd be nice" and "it's the only way" in hopes of getting some ounce more of appreciation from people around me, but in hindsight i recognize that *i'm* still not appreciating *those around me* as much as i should be, let alone i'm not trying enough to be more sociable. 100
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 30/09/2026despite my insistence on making myself happier, i think one constant i'll have to accept is never getting on any big teams for games/mods/other projects that get popular. jealousy still Sucks but i really do think it's just not in the cards for me no matter how many times i wish for it 100
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 29/09/2026thinking of the next story beats & i'm considering taking a break before getting the channel back on a schedule, i've been crunching a lot lately so i think a week (or longer) break is warranted by now. Normal Uploads could resume between Oct 6th and 10th, just need time to rest & prep content 001
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 28/09/2026hi, name's Kirb. personally don't wanna call myself a content creator since having a big following isn't something i'm comfortable with, but i won't stop you from perusing my profiles if anything interests you. still discovering myself, one step at a time. have a great day 000
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 27/09/2026thinking of subbing something to a/aau but dunno where to start, just wanna throws ome quick fl shit together and not overthink it. need some qucik de-stressors to help myself keep relaxed while workingthrough all this lore 000
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 26/09/2026i swear im finishing this damn comic before September's over. i will not let procrastination get to me. Yes, i need rest, i need breaks, but sometimes it stops being a break and starts being wasted time. i need to be more productive. i WANT to be more productive. i. WILL. be. more. Productive. 000
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 26/09/2026having another moment where i really want to work on something but my body is refusing to co-operate it's so hard to START drawing but so easy TO draw ONCE i get started. I need that flow state ASAP and beginning is the worst part. once im in im locked in but i struggle to actually GET in 100
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 25/09/2026havent played a mod in a Fat Minute i'l probably check out variety vault plus when i get a chance 000
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 23/09/2026craving social interaction like a BITCH right now but its 1am so i'm gonna conk out already nobody else is really awake 000
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 23/09/2026semi-closeted fnf fan i really wanna talk about it more with moots but many of them have outgrown it and i reaaaallly don't wanna get too deep in the public community, i just want small group spaces with people on the same level as me what i get for arriving late ig 100
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 23/09/2026that vibe of the night where im feeling nostalgic for 2010s and early 2020s shit again does anyone remember "EEEAAAOOO but it's Boyfriend" old fnf fancontent hit different and it was fun 120
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 23/09/2026on that note my sweet tooth has been rabid as fuck lately, been craving way too much chocolate and sugar the past weeks 000
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 23/09/2026ugh i hate feeling resentment towards giving myself so much to do but the workaholic mindset is worth it in the end 000
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 23/09/2026i think now that jett's (latest) video is over i wanna pick back up that tiff & viru comic, all the sketches are done i just need to draw & colour it & add dialogue. Though i also got other vid ideas i could (and should) do before the month ends... we'lll see what happens 100
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 22/09/2026deepest slumber and strongest dream imaginable for only 2 and a half hours of sleep WHYYY am i suddenly awake again 000
Kirb (SK2048) @sonickade2048.bsky.social · 22/09/2026i already brushed my teeth but uuuuuggghhhhhhhhhhh im hungry again i hate having a high metabolism i feel like i starve way too often 100