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'Sorry, sorry, sorry.' You act as if you have to beat everyone else to the punch. As if the punching bag is you. If you hate yourself first, if you hate yourself loudest, then nobody will hurt you.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 8h

i feel ruined by my trauma. i wish i was good.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 9h

“I thought you wanted this.” he said. And I did. And then I didn't.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 9h

I just can't understand... I can't understand! I can't understand... why are you being... so nice to me?

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 10h

you hurt. it's okay. i hurt too. hold my hand.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 10h

As time repeated, people proved themselves predictable. What would this person say if I gave them this? What would they do if I said this to them? Once you know the answer, that's it. That's all they are.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 11h

i was so willing to give up my dreams for you. how stupid of me.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 11h

it doesn't get better and it doesn't get easier. i can't keep lying to myself saying that i'm gonna change. i'm poison. i come from poison.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 12h

and the universe said I love you because you are love.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 12h

i loved you like a dog. i would have followed you to my own grave and still have been unsuspecting when i saw my name on the headstone.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 13h

Shall we look at the moon, my little loon? Why do you cry?

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 13h

And I cannot escape the darkness. Some have tried to lift me up, but I only dragged them down with me.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 14h

when you are alone and do not want to be, you lie in bed with your own shoulder wrapped around and beneath yourself so that the surges of pain keep you company. this is hurtful but it is so much better than no nerves firing at all.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 14h

but when i die， i want it to hurt. i want to get beaten up. i want to hold on until i'm thrown off and everything ends. until that happens， i want to hope again. and i want it to hurt. because that means it meant something.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 15h

never, never tell them. try and remember that. never tell anyone anything ever. never tell anyone anything again.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 15h

you only see the dark side of my love.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 16h

why am i inferior to you? i was extremely particular about my life， my grades， my public image， all so someone would want me around.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 17h

but i can't change that and i can't change your mood.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 17h

the moon is a bridge between lovers

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 18h

mommy just likes to take a lot of naps!

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 18h

if you are intolerable, let me be the one to tolerate you

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 19h

You kick a puppy enough times, eventually it learns to bite every time it sees feet.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 19h

i want someone to be violently obsessed with me. i want my existence to mean the world to someone

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 20h

i go to bed. i am consumed by overwhelming loneliness. i stare at the ceiling. i long for something i can’t name. i question if i’m real. i see a funny little meme on my phone and laugh hysterically for several minutes. i get too invested in an unrealistic fantasy

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 20h

i don't like that anyone would die to feel your touch, everybody wants you, everybody wonders what it would be like to love you,

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 21h

and I was so young when I behaved twenty five yet now I find i've grown into a tall child

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 21h

Better lock it in your pocket Taking this one to the grave

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 22h

i want to tell you this story without having to confess anything

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 22h

you are killing me， and you are keeping me from dying. that is love.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 23h

i confuse people. i have a happy personality and a sad soul. i'm bold but shy. i love deeply but sometimes i feel heartless. i'm healing and hurting at the same time. i'm dedicated to growth, but i self sabotage

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 23h

Sometimes I wonder if my suicide attempt actually worked and this is just hell i'm living in now. Like I’m just another part of the statistic.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

to the home that is out there waiting for me: i am on my way

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

I want him to be gone, but at the same time, I just really just... I want him to be there for me again…

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