🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 44mToday I passed by a radio playing 1984 pop hit "You Spin Me Round (Like a Record)," which I enjoyed. 010
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 28/09/2026I am fond of the three-toed sloth lifestyle, as well as the naked mole rat. 140
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 19/09/2026"This is like... what's it called again?" "What?" "It's that... what's that thing from your beloved Buddhistic translator?" "Uh... Ziporyn?" "Yeah!" "Dichotomizing monism?" "Yeah, that! But like—inverted?" 020
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 15/09/2026I love Altizer. He is the only evangelist I am able to reliably understand. Almost all Christian theological speculation terrifies me and makes God seem like the adversary of myself and all creatures. Altizer, uniquely, sets me at ease and makes me think, "There is no God except my faithful friend." 130
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 10/09/2026I increasingly feel bad speaking about religion because, over the past couple years, people's routine statements about religion have frequently induced horror and desolation in me. Sermons can be terribly violent and the internet makes it so easy to give them. It is so easy to speak carelessly. 040
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 10/09/2026Click consonants are not intrinsically stranger than other consonants, but, because I do not often hear them, my brain parses them as a kind of rare delightful treat to get to listen to, no matter that I know rationally that this is just what normal Xhosa speech sounds like. 260
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 09/09/2026Playing around with numbers is one of the rights of all humans who desire to do so. Like literacy and speech, numeracy is a joy with ten thousand faces. It can never be exhausted, neither monopolized, nor removed from the realm of creative play. 131
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 08/09/2026The niche once filled by my suicidal ideation is now filled by periodic bursts of death anxiety where I want to thank all the living and the dead for their kindness in existing with me and sharing their wonders with me in a terrifying and precarious existence. Thank you all. 010
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 08/09/2026The most captivating part of Le Morte D'Arthur to me is that Galahad and Launcelot spend half a year adventuring on islands inhabited only by non-human animals. I want to know the goings-on of those islands so badly, but we hear none of it. 031
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 28/08/2026I bought a slightly more expensive form of tofu today because the kind I usually get kept going bad, and I now realize that habitually buying the shittiest cheapest tofu was a terrible idea which has deprived me of great joy. Never again..! 2140
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 27/08/2026I just realized that I likely confabulated my memories of Hind Rajab being discussed before her death as a cute Gazan child who people sympathized with. I have been upset for years that I originally knew this kid in this way and have since had to know her in the context of her genocidal murder. 020
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 16/08/2026I once said, "I could never see Elon Musk as an actual person until I learnt how awful he is at making jokes in a way I can relate to," and my family scolded me for demeaning myself, but I was truly happy to be able to peek into the lived experience of this disturbing name that haunts my world. 040
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 15/08/2026I grow to love Faustus (the person, not Goethe & co.'s character) more and more, and consider myself his sworn friend. I will not be dismissive of him, I will receive his name with warmth, I will attend to how I can best know and be affected by him, in the condition of his death. 110
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 15/08/2026I feel sad about Jason Arday. Why was I made aware of the existence of a man I had never heard of for one week of him being publicly humiliated and then dying? It is a hideous way of knowing my fellow creature. 020
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 11/08/2026Today is my birthday! Thank you all for being alive with me! 160
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 11/08/2026I feel happy whenever someone mentions the first person who followed me back on this site, no matter that she has not had an account here for a year or so. I feel grateful when people make good posts, and when they are nice to me. 140
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 04/08/2026Altizer is the one person who conveys my daily experience of listening to christian chattering heads say all manner of things and viscerally feeling your god become satan—like lightning out of heaven, bright and terrible, bureaucratic and official, impossible to touch, condemning you. 140
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 27/07/2026Population data is so awful for cities in India. The 2027 census truly cannot come fast enough. 030
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 26/07/2026I dreamt that my family cat had learned to talk, and the only thing th(þ/ð)on/th(þ/ð)ey were interested in talking about was th(þ/ð)ons/th(þ/ð)eir unpronouncable modal neo-pronoun. 040
Reposted by 🫛🪻🦥corpse @consume.red · 23/07/2026sometimes we try to formulate unlimited compassion into generally applicable sentences. this proves difficult 1151
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 16/07/2026I find it somewhat distressing that Mitch McConnell looks so much like a tortoise, since I think of tortoises as honourable creatures. But I am sure there are many tortoises with uncommonly vicious personalities whom I have yet to meet. 091
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 13/07/2026Do you ever have dreams which make you feel sad or scared all day, even though what they depict did not happen? This is a genuine question; it would be a poll if Bluesky had polls. 460
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 12/07/2026I enjoy and spend a lot of time in the act of sitting down and reading something, but I am quite bad at having read things because I read so slowly and distractedly. 010
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 12/07/2026I would like to hold positions which people creatively and productively reject. These rejections will often make me reformulate the positions I hold, especially when they reveal subtle hardheartedness or violence. But not so that I will now be accepted as correct, but to inspire new rejections. 120
Reposted by 🫛🪻🦥qualiaflow @qualiaflow.bsky.social · 07/07/2026we paint the dharmakāya purple for victory, ornament it with jewels grown in the brains of deluded gods, fasten a chedi like a festival hat. the purple, jewels, and chedi slide off 1111
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 07/07/2026I have discovered that the Wikipedia article for fear has a history of people thinking the introduction is terrible and changing it, not enough to make it good but enough that the editor finds it tolerable. I am glad to have had a hand in this proud tradition. 130
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 07/07/2026I think people are too judgemental of Gregor Samsa for trying to go to his job. Yes his job is terrible and he clearly resents it. But let him deal with that in the way he wants and at the time when he is ready. It has benefits: it is an opportunity to get out of the house and roam around. 140
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 07/07/2026I am ridiculously happy to be such a ridiculous animal. 041
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 05/07/2026One of the little gifts of mammalian anatomy is that you can see them breathing. 020
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 01/07/2026I get mad at most everything I attempt to read lately. I am trying to make my way through this book because I have not been finishing anything recently, but it annoys me to no end. 020
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 01/07/2026I have never really tried editing a Wikipedia article before, but the fear article made me so annoyed that I have made an attempt at ameliorating it. But I think it needs a comprehensive reworking and I am not equipped to do that. 030
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 01/07/2026This section of the Wikipedia article for fear infuriates me. [21] explicitly does not claim that non-humans must be addressed in behaviouralist terms. It argues that neuroscience should not perpetuate a bias separating evolutionarily "lower" emotionality from "higher" cognition. 120
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 27/06/2026I just realized that I have always spatially imagined the political spectrum as: More Right <== Right and Left ==> More Left. 000
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 26/06/2026I do not want to kill or to be killed. Days of dying can take care of themselves. I will take care of days of breathing, drinking, and sensing, for as long as I can. 061
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 19/06/2026I respect and love the arthropods who live with me in my home. I never intend to harm them. Even without malice on my part, there is still suffering here: limited water and food, predation by other arthropods. But their lives are their own and I cherish them. 140
Reposted by 🫛🪻🦥corpse @consume.red · 19/06/2026i have problems with the moral content of the specific meaning imposed by the puritan elegy, naturally, but that's not what i'm calling monstrous. what i'm calling monstrous is the replacement of a life by a meaning—any meaning 151
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 17/06/2026I misread someone as saying she had two and a half children and this did not feel in any way wrong to me. 020
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 06/06/2026People telling me what book I should read, people sharing their take on the discourse with me, people giving me unsolicited life advice, it is all the same: they ARE trying to kill me because they hate me. 130
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 04/06/2026My cousin responded to an email I sent a few weeks ago saying, "Sorry to only now respond, I've been on sidequests (picking a large bushel of radishes, freehand painting a glock in under 10 minutes)." 010
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 02/06/2026I once heard such a good illustration of determinate negation by way of a Rabindranath Tagore poem that I burst out crying. Admittedly I do cry a lot. 020
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 02/06/2026I have no idea what to make of Christianity lately. Like I just simply do not know what is going on in the Bible or in the church or in the tradition. 110
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 01/06/2026AI development scares the hell out of me. I think a lot about Scholem's comments on Hebrew (kavvanah.blog/wp-content/u...) and Deleuze's comments on dreams (www.youtube.com/watch?v=o2vo...). 130
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 01/06/2026Do you think it's more common for someone to describe something as "the best, but not good" or as "the worst, but not bad?" 240
🫛🪻🦥 @shalhebetyah.bsky.social · 01/06/2026I do not know at exactly what age I became older than half of all humans to have ever lived, but I know it was far too young. 040