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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 27/01/2025

this goes into streaming, too. god knows i havent done that in ages either. i just plain dont have the energy or time to do most things, especially things i enjoyed. 🫡

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 27/01/2025

if i do post on whatever remains of my social media accounts, it really won't be much. so, i apologize for that. i hope things get better. i hope some day i can get my spark back.

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 27/01/2025

half hearted stick figure doodles on post it notes are about what im honestly capable of doing. full time job, bills, so little free time anymore, eats up anything i could put into drawing. i hope it gets better, but i am just... burnt out. its a bad burnout. i dont know if its one ill recover from

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 27/01/2025

right. so, this is smth i posted on my now deactivated patreon, and soon to be deleted twitter; im not doing art anymore. i dont have the time, energy, or motivation to. i dont know if, later in life, it'll be smth i pick back up again, but the fact of the matter stands; i dont draw anymore

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 26/01/2025

im sizing my septum ring up again and god its so stupid that my nose is just like "oh pinching? we have a pinch? i must generate as much mucus as physically possible and also sneeze so much" like dude chill out weve done this before. you know me

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 26/01/2025

in the middle of doing clamshell stretches for my back/hips and my left hip, my trouble hip, STARTED GRINDING. dont do that bitch we both know i cant afford whatever tf you got going on

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 28/12/2024

worst time of the fucking year to run out of my adderall bc my shrink is on vacation and cant send my script out. anyway this is what my desk looks like

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 21/12/2024

yeah, and other strength training. i started physical therapy and im just doing stretches and such to get back into it. guess i could go back to weight lifting too

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 21/12/2024

girl. the fucking source of my chronic pain the past 5 months. was cus my glute muscles were too weak. my ass muscles. thats it. 5 months.

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 17/12/2024

im 26 😭😭😭 i got the body of an 80 yr old oh my god

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 17/12/2024

i sprained my neck and tore a muscle putting my hair up this morning

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

i got like 500+ hours on dva an other tanks so she just comes naturally 🫡

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

i paid my dues in overwatch playing healer all the time. ive only played peni parker and i been kickin ASS

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

im not sure how to cope with any of this. i barely go on social media, mostly by choice at this point. all i see is more grief and more terribleness. im just so tired of it all. i just want things to be easy and okay for once. that's it.

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

i keep hoping things'll get better. i keep hoping I'll have the time to do what i want or have a job that doesn't make me want to die all the time. i keep hoping the pain will finally ease off for good. ive been hoping since may. and its only continued to get worse

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

i just feel like all im ever able to do is struggle. i struggle to move around, i struggle to get myself to eat, i struggle to just get up every morning. i work a dead end job that's probably not helping my pain, but I can't get anything else cus no college degree. not that itd make s difference

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

all i do anymore is eat, sleep (if im lucky, that is), work, and chores. sometimes i have the energy to do noncommittal things i enjoy, if i even have the time to. i feel so lost, i feel sick all the time, and nobody knows what's causing this. i dont know what to really do with myself anymore.

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

from some sort of "injury" of some sort. my lower back and hips have been causing me near nonstop pain since may. my mental health has seriously tanked. ive lost some 20 pounds in the past 2/3 months now. im always exhausted. but they dont know whats wrong with me. they never do

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 12/12/2024

i been dealing with a lot of health problems lately and im frankly unsure how to cope at all. went thru the ringer to figure out if its autoimmune or not, only for everything to come back normal. i am just the picture of health. my xrays showed some wear n tear and non inflammatory arthritis

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 06/12/2024

its partially my fault bc i got up too early (unwillingly) and just decided to go to work. so like w/e. an extra hour to my paycheck. but also im so exhausted i dont wanna work a full time job i hate capitalism

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 29/11/2024

idk how but my husband and his family were discussing older consoles they have i just lamented on wanting a ps1 and my MOTHER IN LAW WAS JUST LIKE "oh i got a functional one at a garage sale for $20" AND THERES RESIDENT EVIL 2 IN THIS SHIT THIS RULES

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Tonya Song 🪶 @tonyasong.bsky.social · 28/11/2024

I can always use the help and it would be greatly appreciated, especially if I've helped you learn anything about history or current events related to Indigenous people. Paypal.me/yapavimusic

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 28/11/2024

(sarcasm) status quo is always so much more important, of course. everybody knows this

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 28/11/2024

reminder that there are ppl who believe native americans dont exist anymore. there are ppl who think they still live in tipis and live "savagely". they think their culture is exclusively buckskin clothes, no shirts, barefoot, etc etc with no attempt at further understanding or education.

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 28/11/2024

scratch a liberal and a facist bleeds etc etc. its kind of appalling to think that folks who advocate for "the betterment of everyone" dont give a secular flying fuck about anyone they dont "like" or anyone who doesnt "fit a certain ideal". i fuckin hate politics

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 28/11/2024

you get a day off for thanksgiving. you dont get the next day off. it isnt as important. its not known. even if its made known, most people dont give a shit about it

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 28/11/2024

yeah. while im grateful that shit isnt around anymore (if at all) there does appear to be a sort of mass relabel of thanksgiving and how its shown. thanksgiving is about being with loved ones and being thankful:) lets not acknowledge any other piece of history tied to this tho thats TOO POLITICAL

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 28/11/2024

maybe im some sort of freak but it feels like. thanksgiving isnt really acknowledged for what it started as. bc the genocide of native americans and the overall indigenous populace is, once again, swept aside. ignored. not as important. not as loud. nobody cares

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 28/11/2024

like huh. now thanksgiving's core media appearance is "giving thanks and being together as a family" and not many really acknowledge what it started as. few really know native american heritage day happens on the 29th. bc thats black friday. thats more important. hmmm

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 28/11/2024

maybe im nuts but as a child i remember seeing so much imagery during thanksgiving of indians and colonizers gathering around a table to eat some fucking turkey like, all over. and the whole "this is the time white ppl n brown ppl got along and were friends:)))" but dont see it anymore, if at all

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 24/11/2024

taking a 40° f shower is a horrible experience. i wish we had power back :(

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 22/11/2024

still no power 😭 the estimate is tomorrow at noon but given the damage i think its gonna take longer

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 20/11/2024

a huge main way road we live on is totally closed off because of so many fallen trees tho. for miles. who the hell knows if ill even have work tomorrow

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 20/11/2024

drove in it a few hours ago. 10/10 would recommend any bored midwesterners. almost like a tornader but a little less

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 19/11/2024

these came in the mail the same time as my husband's newest transformers toys. he was fiddling with them and i joined in but with my lighters. we are the same yet different

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 17/11/2024

find shampoo/conditioner bars that im not allergic to. need hair rinse in order to get my hair "accustomed" to this change apple cider vinegar is most common for this rinse am allergic mfw

low quality stock image of joan from clone high with text that says "I'm so angry i could piss glue"

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 17/11/2024

girl why am i allergic to all the stuff in shampoo/conditioner/skincare/haircare in general. like. coconut, palm, aloe vera, vinegar, jojoba oil, tea tree oil. why. why am i allergic to that. what god did i piss off to warrant this 😭

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 14/11/2024

just as an fyi i have never done anything like this before. i bought the lighter from an antique place for $14 &spent abt 35 mins trying to figure out what model/make it was& then ultimately decided "hm. i should take this whole thing apart& fix it. i HAVE to fix this lighter" i bought 3 more btw.

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 14/11/2024

maid of honor vs maid of dishonor who would win in a fight

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🍒💀seamachine ( en vtuber. )💀🍒 @seamachineart.bsky.social · 14/11/2024

this one is a WIN lighter(japan)from around the 1970s, a slim, more rare find. i cant find much info anywhere, other than 2 listings on ebay but those dont have much. it doesnt have an identifiable model number like others, &i havent seen others with this pattern, which i believe it's custom made

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