iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

as long as i can make it through the next week the following days will be so much nicer.

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it is stark to think about how much stronger and confident i would be now if i hadn’t had to be my own trans mom or had any community for the first several years of transition.

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oof. today has already been… a day. woke up at five. started stressing about NYCC next weekend. coworker suddenly needed a bunch of information when i got up which made me running behind to get to work. didn’t have time to eat. 13 boxes of shirts arriving tomorrow. need to pick up rental van.

“kublai khan is five finger death punch in a different font” accurate. and more people should be thinking of KK that way.

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ok. Film Scores for Films That Don’t Exist came out of left field for me and might make it on my top ten releases this year. very unexpected. (and who doesn’t love a song that ends with someone chopping up a piano with an ax and yelling?)

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sarah @sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

oh for some social time. if that was a real thing. and people actually hung out and did stuff.

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kinktober, but you have no idea what your kinks are… [insert john travolta pulp fiction gif here]

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sarah @sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

i… think i should leave again. this space just reinforces a lot of negatives for me in a very rapid way. i don’t want to, but this place is so overwhelmingly negative for me and i know ive sad girl posted enough to drive many people away. either unfollowed or muted. i dont care to find out for sure

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sarah @sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

i don’t understand TCGs or 40K any more than i understand sports. which is to say… i don’t. i don’t understand what people find so captivating or interesting in them.

sarah @sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

lot of … shit going on in my head that i wish i could quiet. it’d be great to have a therapist i could work this through with. but between the astronomical cost of one/lack of insurance/lack of availability… even that i’ve kind of given up on.

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sarah @sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social · 02/10/2026

i suppose it’s bandcamp friday. it’s never done anything for me before, but why not try again… i have two bands with full merch stores on bandcamp. and the third band i joined has a BC too. analecta.bandcamp.com chinuphardcore.bandcamp.com wearespaceships.bandcamp.com

analecta.bandcamp.com

We Will Not Wither And Die, by analecta

track by analecta

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a democratic PA senate candidate (a man) has been accused of writing D&D lesbian erotica. now my only question is: fetishisation? or egg?

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well. i guess it’s time to get up and.. go to work again.

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on the whole, i have yet to be convinced that trans community is anything but a myth. the online variety is typically parasocial. and the more local type tends to be insular and cliquish, and if you don’t have an in, too bad for you. have fun being an island.

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Sarah the Third @imsarahnow.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

movie hot take: i’ve never been able to watch Bound (i’ve tried) because for some reason, i find Jennifer Tilly’s voice like nails on a chalkboard and i just can’t do it.

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new haircut, who dis?

selfie of Sarah in new haircut, sort of like s side shave but shaggy on the sides

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sarah @sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

there is something about this platform, that’s evolved over time to a point where… it’s not great for my brain. i don’t know what it is. but this space, more often than not, makes me feel… bad. it didn’t used to be like that.

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sarah @sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

did the thing again. first time on stage in almost a year. i need more of this. (also amusing that with four guitarists, nobody was playing anything bigger than a 1x12 combo amp. and i rolled in with a 612 bass cab)

picture of a band on stage. in the foreground is a woman in a midi black skirt and cropped hooded sleeveless white top with one partial sleeve playing bass. she has pink hair in a braid and glasses. in the background is a man with a beard and shaved head in black playing drums.

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sarah @sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

i think sex is fake and just a ploy by big… prophylactics … wait no. this joke doesn’t work.

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sarah @sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

when my ex wife visited my parents house for the first time in 2006, my parents sort of turned my old room into an office, but left a lot on the walls. ex was baffled by the presence of 90’s basketball posters & said “that’s not you, why did you have those?” they were right. it was … camouflage

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sarah @sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

sure would be nice to have in-person community. or people who ever wanted to hang out. or made any effort at all to do so.

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sarah @sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

some days i just feel… old. and like somehow i fell into a pattern of life and drifted away from everyone and everything. and i don’t know how to break out of that, since i never feel like i belong or am wanted around in… most places in public gatherings or whatever.

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Ana Voltz 🏳️‍⚧️ @anavoltzart.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

Road trip 2: The Westering

A picture of Ana and Sarah in a car, Sarah driving

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Sarah the Third @imsarahnow.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

He decided that “backseat driving” wasn’t really his style

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sarah @sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

what a terrible day. back in my hotel room again. going to eat and probably pass out. what else am i going to do, anyways?

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sarah @sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

who used hotel room alarm clocks? and why did mine have to go off at 6am? fuck. i needed as much sleep as i could get but apparently, no… years. it’s been probably 8+ years staying in a LOT of hotels and haven’t had to check for an alarm.

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Ana Voltz 🏳️‍⚧️ @anavoltzart.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

Somehow, art continues to happen. New piece today! As suggested by @imsarahnow.bsky.social and @sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social ... a Gundam! (GQuuuuuuX is among my favorite gundices because, you know, Gundam but girl)

A digital painting of the Gundam GQuuuuuuX standing in a cityscape (but the cityscape is actually on a giant space station). One of the buildings in the foreground is on fire, adding an orange source of light.

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sarah @sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social · 31/08/2026

i think people avoid me in public for a variety of reasons. my height. being visibly alt wearing a kn95 all the time. sure does feel like i exist in some sort of impenetrable bubble most of the time, though floating through existence like an avant-garde art exhibit no one wants to interact with

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introduce yourself with 10 acts you’ve seen live: (variety edition) Sigur Ros Minus The Bear The Locust Suffocation Visceral Disgorge Battles Sunny Day Real Estate And So I Watch You From Afar Hum Hayley Kiyoko that seems varied enough.

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ok. who wants to cook for or with.. me. cause i love cooking. but i hate doing it alone. (ok. tbf, i also hate my tiny kitchen with no counter space)

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ok. who fell down on the job and neglected to tell me that: The Number 12 Looks Like You dropped a new single/video about a week and a half ago, with a full feature from Foxy Shazam? i don’t even know what year it is anymore.

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sarah @sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

damn. unicorn gundam is only in Odaiba for two more days. they had a going away celebration tonight i guess. i saw it three times i got lucky. now i went to know what they’re going to do in its place. since gundam base is right behind it in the mall.

first trip to the Unicorn Gundam in front of Divers City in Odaiba, Tokyo in 2018. the image is the unicorn gundam from the knees up with a mall behind it.

second trip to the Unicorn Gundam in front of Divers City in Odaiba, Tokyo in january 2026. the image is the unicorn gundam with a mall behind it. in the foreground are two smiling women. one with pink hair and glasses. the other with mint hair and sunglasses.

last trip to the Unicorn Gundam in front of Divers City in Odaiba, Tokyo in august of 2026. the image is the unicorn gundam with a mall behind it. the gundam has had added decals on the ankles/feet since january.

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i thought about going out for a walk. got to my front door and thought “and go where? why? by myself? it’s 11:15 at night. this serves no purpose.”

sarah @sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

i used to look forward to weekends. shows to play. people to hang out with. stuff to do. where’d that all go?

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sarah @sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

back in the day one of my bands used to be friends with a posy rock band called Deadhorse. half the band left & formed a heavy grind band called Black Mask. they released a record. toured a ton. then went dormant. had a second record in the works for a decade. preorders finally went up today

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Sarah the Third @imsarahnow.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

Posting again for the morning crew :)

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sarah @sarahxelizvbeth.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

ok. after getting all sweaty today, i am now done for the day. in leggings and a sports bra. and thinking about what to eat. it would be nice to have something to DO. but… oh well. i suppose i could go do more work after i figure out what i’m eating