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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 19/05/2026

— as my final act of love. i'll let you go even against my heart.

𑄽𑄺﹕lu﹝🔒 @saedolls.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

and of course because my sister is a goody little two shoes and is best friends with my mom, she goes and tells her what a bitch i was to her and how im refusing to cooperate

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𑄽𑄺﹕lu﹝🔒 @saedolls.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

i was literally just going to try and lay down and cool off because of how pissed i was and my sister barges in and tells me to get up and stop being so lazy. i tell her to leave me alone and she does, but at what cost? i get up and she sarcastically says "wow, looks whos up?"

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𑄽𑄺﹕lu﹝🔒 @saedolls.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

wow, and i cant even be depressed in this damned house.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

i wonder if i have ever actually been happy.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

oh， baby， i am a wreck when i'm without you. i need you here to stay.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

nothing hurts more than seeing myself again in the same situation after getting better for a while.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

Oh, always part of me missing, but no one sees a differеnce

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

i am troubled and harsh and hopeless. though i have love inside me. but i don't know how to use love. sometimes it scratches like barbs.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

If you love someone, they could make you sad. They could even make you feel lonely sometimes. But, that someone can also make you happier than you'll ever be.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

A little bit of everything all of the time

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

my baby, my baby, you're my baby, say it to me

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

so i sit and wait like an abandoned dog waiting for its owner. impatient， restless， and forever waiting.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

go ahead and live with your head held high. no matter how devastated you may be by your own weakness or uselessness, set your heart ablaze.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

take me to a place where nothing's wrong

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

there's something about being fifteen and feeling so confused and hateful at all times and just wanting to give yourself over to another person and find yourself in them instead of in yourself

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

how do we forgive ourselves for all the things we did not become

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

everyone thinks they can help me, but they can't. they're better off without me. i made my choices and i'll deal with the consequences because they belong to me.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

i just need to remain gentle.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

'well, we accept the love we think we deserve.' 'can we make them know that they deserve more?' 'we can try.'

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

i want you to need me. as much as i need you. love me as much as i love you.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

don't lecture me when i need a hug.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

all this anger was once love.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

Sometimes I wonder if my suicide attempt actually worked and this is just hell i'm living in now. Like I’m just another part of the statistic.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

you are going to break your promise. i understand. and i hold my hands over the ears of my heart， so that i will not hate you.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

i love myself because i am all i have left of the people ive loved

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

you gotta start loving yourself so much to the point where the lack of love from others doesn't even bother you.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

oh my， i love you， and oh my， i am homesick for you.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

you hurt. it's okay. i hurt too. hold my hand.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

my life don't mean that much to me so i'm living for you.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

i'm sorry. i'm sorry. this may be me at my best.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

I know I shouldn't need you

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

please tell me I'm not as forgettable as your silence is making me feel.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

Because they saved me from myself, they rescued me from my loneliness. They were the first to accept me for who I am. They’re my friends.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

even when i am happy, it sometimes happens that the slightest things can tip me into nonspecific sadness when i am alone.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

why does he do me that way?

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

And why do I get so nervous when I look into your eyes?

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

It's time for you to try the loneliness I feel

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

everybody hates me cause they love me, and they ask things of me. and i always let them down, i tell myself it’s cause i’m drowning.

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. . . simply bpd ➶ @simplybpd.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

it occurs to me as i fight so hard with myself that these cruel and persistent voices are the echoes of trauma from the times when people treated me like i am now treating myself

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𑄽𑄺﹕lu﹝🔒 @saedolls.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

and the thing is? so funny. i would probably be able to get better if i was all on my own. but no, because im surrounded by people i hate with my entire gut and people that stress me out, by people that probably hate me and blame me for everything, by people that dont trust me and hold grudges for +

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𑄽𑄺﹕lu﹝🔒 @saedolls.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

do you know how it feels to have literally nobody support you, believe in you, or trust you? do you know how it feels to try and get better when you have absolutely nobody who believes you can actually do it.

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𑄽𑄺﹕lu﹝🔒 @saedolls.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

and when i tried to defend myself my other brother calls me a liar straight to my face after i say that i wont eat it. and then i go to my mom to try defending myself to her too and shes on my brothers side. because she always is.

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𑄽𑄺﹕lu﹝🔒 @saedolls.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

my own fucking brother. i wouldve expected it of my mom but my own. fucking. brother. the one i thought i was so close to hid food from me because he thought i would eat it all. im so fucking sorry that food is my comfort but since you think im such a pig ill just stop eating entirely, its all yours

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𑄽𑄺﹕lu﹝🔒 @saedolls.bsky.social · 15/05/2026

i want tobe better about things but how can i when i dont have a single person whos supportive of me? not a single person who trusts me or ever believes me because im the bad one. its always me whos doing something.

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𑄽𑄺﹕lu﹝🔒 @saedolls.bsky.social · 29/03/2026

and, not to mention that its been pissing me off that i dont know who i am. ive been acting so differently. with the people i care about im all "mr nice guy," yet with those i care less about ive been acting rash, childish, rude, and all this other bullshit. who the fuck am i?? why am i so two faced

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𑄽𑄺﹕lu﹝🔒 @saedolls.bsky.social · 29/03/2026

i cant even be upset. for the past two days ive been putting on a smile for everyone that i care about and prioritizing their problems over mine, helping them sort their shit out and letting them express their emotions, as if i haven't been lying to them behind their backs

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