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I don't know what to do other than try to reach out for help but I just feel like a burden to everyone..because I'm taking meds , I'm seeing a new therapist but nothing is helping me ,, and reality has made me feel like I am beyond help,, I feel like I would make everyone's life's betterby beinggone

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My sleep schedule is fucked I either get so tired I pass out or I don't sleep at all. I can't draw because it gives me too much trauma , games at best are a temporary fix. I feel so fucking broken that I can't do anything right,, I'm so tired of feeling useless and like I don't matter,,

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I have tried,, I have tried so badly to be better,, but it's not working it's not,, I feel like I have received so much trauma and yet I didn't do anything wrong which has only made me blame myself more and with everything happening it just seems I am right to think this way,,

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It's too much,, it's way too much for my brain to take it's too much I can't do it ,, I can't stop crying.. I'm trying find happiness but I keep realizing there isnt any left for me.. I feel hopeless and unwanted..ignored,, I hate this so much,, I feel like I am gonna explode and no one would care,,

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Lucy @rosegard.bsky.social · 03/03/2026

I hate my life so much I hate how much pain I am in physically and mentally I hate this so much,, what did I do to deserve any of this,, I feel like there is so much unresolved stuff,, and I just can't it hurts so much .. I don't know if I can do this anymore

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Should I just give up would that make everyone happy,, I couldn't even move for the last few mins,, I don't even know what to do anymore,, my breaking point has been reached in so many ways,, happiness genuinely feels like it left me behind and I don't think I can get it back anymore.. icantdoit,,

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I keep hoping one day I will just wake up and be happy but legitimately how? How am I meant to be happy when all I can do is take into the void. Take meds that barley work and talk to a therapist which I feel so traumatized from the last one it's hard to open back up..

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No one will care about me anymore? That the people I cared about most in the world are just gone... Like what do I even do .. I can't stop breaking down and feeling utterly useless. Nothing is getting better if anything it's getting worse. And I feel like I am out of options on what to do.

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Even happen. What else does the world wanna take from me.legitmately,, why in the matter of a year did my life go from hopeful to utter shit. What did I even do wrong.. to deserve any of this. I keep waking up and wondering what was the point. So I could go to work and be miserable? So I can realize

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Nothing I do will ever leave an impact,, my drawings eh who cares others can do it better, I certainly didn't save anyone's life either,, feels like if anything I just make everyone's life's worst by just existing.. now I am fucking basically immobilize because of my foot.. geniuely what else could

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Lucy @rosegard.bsky.social · 26/02/2026

Everyday feels like more proof that I should just give up,, I just,, everything I cared about is slowly disappearing from my life and I'm just left barley holding it together as my life gets ever worse. I don't know what else the world can take from me at this point,, legitimately what is the point

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To all those who may hate me ,, I'm sorry I exist,, I really don't know why I do either,,

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I feel like I have given it everything I have and all that happens is I get more burned more hurt . Physically and mentally I'm suffering. I'm suffering so badly I want to scream. I keep asking myself who cares if I suddenly just stop messaging everyone.. probably no one,I'm sorry to burden everyone

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I don't even know if my friends take me seriously anymore,, I just want to be happy,, I wanna know that I matter in someone's life,, I don't wanna be left alone in my thoughts,, but I don't know what else to do and I'm scared.. because the question in my head constantly is doesanything matteranymore

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Everything. I can't focus on anything. I can't draw without crying, I can't play video games without having a breakdown . I can barely talk to my friends the few who actually try talking to me. I don't know how much more I can take legitimately. Meds aren't helping,, therapy I have no idea,,

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Did I do deserve what my life is now. What the actual fuck did I do wrong to deserve any of this ,, I don't get it,, hasn't my life taken enough away from me already. Does the world want me dead. I don't understand any of this,, and it hurts everything hurts so much. It's not just one thing it's

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I keep asking myself am I worth it,, I'm I worth anything to anyone and it's seeming more and more likely that the answer is no,, I need to know I matter to anyone,, because every thing hurts ,, and life keeps beating me down more and more , for God's sake my foot is broken I can't walk. Why,, what,

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Lucy @rosegard.bsky.social · 21/02/2026

I'm sorry I failed everyone,,I'm sorry I'm not good enough,, I'm sorry I'm just a mess who everyone will just forget existed in a few days,, I tried my best,, but I guess I'm not good enough to be happy or good enough for everyone,,I will be forgotten,,

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Should I be gone,, would that make everyone happy,, geniuely I feel like it would ,, no one cares,,

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Lucy @rosegard.bsky.social · 21/02/2026

Im not worth it,, clearly I will be thrown out by everyone in due time,, no one likes me

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No one's favorite person , I'm nothing,, if I was gone would it even matter genuinely,, probably not everyone has something better than me . I doubt it would make anyone sad ,, what purpose do I even serve anymore.

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I don't know if I can do it anymore,, I really don't ,, it's clear to me I'm just a burden to everyone,, I lost everything and I should pack it up ,, the panic attacks won't stop and the depression is getting worse I feel isolated and alone and like I'm slowly getting pushed into a corner . I'm-

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Can one good thing happen in my life please,, in actually begging or is it just gonna be pain forever now,,

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Lucy @rosegard.bsky.social · 18/02/2026

I hate my life so much,, geniuely I hate how much pain I m feeling

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I need to face facts ,, no one cares about me any more

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Lucy @rosegard.bsky.social · 18/02/2026

I really was happy once,, but now what do I even have left to give,, I'm just a depressed loser who can barley go a day without crying,, what did I do to deserve any of this,, who did I piss off to make myself feel this isolated and alone. I really don't know how much more I can take ,,

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Lucy @rosegard.bsky.social · 18/02/2026

I,, am really struggling to find reasons to get up in the morning,, are keep going in general,, I feel like no one cares about me,, and it hurts,, it I keep thinking it eventually will stop hurting but it's not,, it's geniuely not,, I feel like I'm gonna explode if I keep going,, I hate my life,,

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And it's not just one thing but everything went wrong and it hurts.. and I feel like I'm trying,, I have gone to therapy,, I have taken meds, I have tried self love , but the reality is . My world has crashed down and burned and I feel isolated, alone and tired. I'm sorry,,

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I need help ,, I acknowledge I need help,, and I'm sorry I haven't been a good friend because I'm such a mess.. I wish I wasn't hurting as bad as I am but,, like how does one be happy with what happened to me,, how does someone be happy when their life has been destroyed in only a few months-

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It's like every time something bad happens and I try to recover, three more things happen that makes me feel trapped. I feel so much pain over a lot and few the most alone I have ever felt. I feel like a failure to people, sadness is geniuely burning at me. I have not gone a day without a breakdown-

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Lucy @rosegard.bsky.social · 15/02/2026

Gonna be honest,, I am in pain mentally and physically. I haven't slept all week and my appetite is non existent. The feeling like I don't matter is strong. I haven't felt happy at all for months. Geniuely everything feels painful. Stuff keeps stacking and it makes it impossible to recover my head-

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I kknow I may not be able to help much but if ya need to talk , I can lend a ear

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Lucy @rosegard.bsky.social · 12/02/2026

Iishouldbegonefeellikeeveryonehatesme but doesn't wanna say it allowed iicanticant

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Just don't.. sorry to be a burden to everyone,,

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I can't even look at certain things without reminding myself of things and people I lost,, I keep asking myself constantly if I was gone would anyone care or even notice,, and the fact is,,it's hurting me so much.. unless a miracle happens,, I don't know how much fight I have left in me,, I really

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I feel like a loser who got lucky once,, as at one point despite some stuff I was happy,, but now,, happiness feels impossible. It feels like a dream that is slowly drifting away from me. I can't go a day with our breaking down crying or having a panic attack. Everything is causing me so much trauma

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Be true,,and im scared,,I am geniuely so scared,, that my thoughts of not mattering are real and this is my reality now ,, slowly getting more and more depressed until I have to just give up ,,it hurts so much,,I feel like I don't even have the strength to get up in the morning anymore,,

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