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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 2h

Critically low mood today, this whole week has been fucked up. I don’t know when I’m going to feel better, sorry.

RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 8h

Woke up with serious stomach cramps, the same ones that put me in the hospital months ago. No choice but to roll around in bed moaning in pain until it finally stopped. Longest 45 minutes of my life.

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 21h

I don’t get how people can have the energy to be negative and hate on things all the time It’s all fun and games until you start hating on something someone likes, and suddenly you’re not going to get the laughs you’re expecting. It’s such a tiring personality type to be around, genuinely.

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 23h

God I want to play a stupidly detailed minecraft tech pack that takes hours of wiki reading to do anything beyond the vanilla stuff.

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 02/10/2026

Package was delayed for my prescription lenses by two days, so still no VR for me ahah ffffufnbfnffuckkkkkk

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 01/10/2026

Now, what do I spend my free time on today…

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 01/10/2026

Mreh, extremely boring day Aside from some family stuff, didn’t do very much. Kind of in a low mood tonight, might just give up, take something to make me more tired, and sleep or something.

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 30/09/2026

Got asked to help with someone’s mod and review it, see if there are any changes I’d recommend It’s all vibe coded All of it Entirely 100% Brother, I recommend you change the whole fucking repository 😭

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 30/09/2026

Boredom againnnnn >~< It should be illegal for me to have energy but nobody to dump it on.

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Joan? @chimeracauldron.bsky.social · 12/04/2026

📸🍄 commission for soundjake

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 28/09/2026

An hour after I take my meds and I suddenly have energy and the ability to have a conversation

Meme of an Expie from Casualties: Unknown looking with large, glassy eyes. Text at the bottom says “I think it’s kicking in”.

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 27/09/2026

Anyway back to blankie mode, hugs and affection appreciated but not required

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 27/09/2026

One thing that still sucks is being unable to look through my favorite tags on a lot of art websites. It’s very easy for me to get flashbanged by something that ends up upsetting me. Alas, maybe someday.

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 27/09/2026

Not sure how likely I am to use it, but if you want, feel free to add me on FluxFur. RaiRaiTheRaichu#5161

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 27/09/2026

Have been really trying to be more conscious of my headspace and how I handle feelings of missing out, being neglected, or other noisy and dark thoughts that tend to creep in. I’ve found some great advice a few days ago, and I’ve been doing my best to stick with it.

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 27/09/2026

is there anything more annoying than watching something with someone and not only do they not pay attention, but also say things to pretend they’re paying attention but obviously don’t make sense

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 27/09/2026

blaaaah, don’t feel like sleeping >~<

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Citrine 🐈 🔜 AC, WPAFW @hypnocatto.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

Forcing the foxes in the server to watch The Cat Returns as a form of propaganda

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Ghoul @valtrixx.bsky.social · 30/06/2026

Let's laugh until we're out of breath

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Jaiy Buck @gooeydeer.com · 21/09/2026

Last thing you see 😘 Whatchu doing???

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 26/09/2026

Fuckai yeah that sums it up pretty well.

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 26/09/2026

saw resident evil movie was good, recommend

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 25/09/2026

feeling chatty when nobody is around AAAAAAAA

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 24/09/2026

Called another psychiatrist and left a message to see if I can get an appointment. Finally. I’ve been told multiple times by other doctors to get a second opinion on the medication I’m on and to have someone better manage it, and as terrifying as it is to me, I guess I’m going to try.

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 24/09/2026

My main concern with Discord is that there’s inaccuracy with how they categorize people as adults. Like, some servers would literally check people’s IDs by staff. If this is supposed to be some kind of improvement to safety, I’d like to know the odds of children falsely marked as adults.

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 23/09/2026

If I could, honestly I think I’d use this as an opportunity to buy a Quest 3 off of someone looking to upgrade to the steam frame My oculus rift is definitely showing a bit of age in some ways.

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 23/09/2026

There are plans I really want to get out of tomorrow too that I got dragged into against my will. I’m not depressed or anxious tonight, I’m actually frustrated, annoyed, and aggravated. At how I’m being treated by others, at how my situation currently is, and how little my feelings matter about it.

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 23/09/2026

Hate hate hate biases and preconceptions about activities or hobbies or interests or even games Nothing is kind of more annoying to me than always offering to do things and getting hit with a “no” based on the above. Like, can you not put that aside for 30-60 mins and be with your friend

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 22/09/2026

Woke up at 8am Still felt drowsy, so stayed in bed trying to doze back off Failed It is now 3:30pm and I have given up, crawling out of bed finally, still tired

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 21/09/2026

I need to get a pair of paw gloves that I can play bass guitar in…. Either with firm(er), some kind of polymer pawpads (TPU?), or open-fingers on the palm side…

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 20/09/2026

crawling under my covers,, blankie mode,,,,

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 20/09/2026

i knew i wouldn’t be able to sleep tonight >~< i probably wouldn’t care if i wasn’t on my own the whole night and morning, blaah

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 19/09/2026

sad again over art-related things that popped up and forced their way to the front of my head that means it’s time to ignore my thoughts and go to sleep

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 19/09/2026

anyway feel awful tonight, trying to sleep, blah

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 19/09/2026

The thing about being a “serial hater” in your friend group is that it’s all fun and games bashing on random stuff being edgy until you inevitably bash on something your friends like, and then nobody wants to be around you anymore

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 19/09/2026

What sucks is that I had roughly $1,500 at my disposal to order a slim-fit fursuit/petsuit for $2-300, maybe even upgrade my VR situation and sell my old one to recoup some costs, but all that disappeared due to Family Things completely out of my control (and awareness :)))) )

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 18/09/2026

I love this album so much, and this is a great way to experience it while listening to it. If you do so, let me know what you think and feel free to tell me all about it :3 Niche interest and topic of mine of my favorite band. progbreakdown.home.blog/2020/01/31/b...

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Between the Buried and Me – Coma Ecliptic

I’d recommend reading this along with listening to the album, following it song by song. Bear in mind this is simply my interpretation. Recently I’ve written story walkthroughs of Betwe…

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 17/09/2026

When I see a screenshot of a friend mentioning to their other friend(s) about me, it does something in my brain that feels very weird (in a good way)

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 17/09/2026

Something underrated are friends who will try to bring you into existing friend groups, introduce you to their friends, try to bring you into their fold. That talk about you to others (positively, of course). It’s something I appreciate a lot, as rare as it is

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 14/09/2026

napping a few hours then hoping to spend the morning n rest of the day with someone/other critters have spent the last week being a bit too lonely

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 14/09/2026

Sleep schedule has thrown off my medication schedule, throwing off my entire mood and causing some spiraling bleh

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 14/09/2026

I genuinely do not think I am compatible with the human world in the slightest

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 12/09/2026

It pre-emptively can stop me from joining a group I already see playing stuff. I’ll even see friends in a vc on discord doing something I’d enjoy and think “they really wouldn’t want me there.” so I just let it pass me by. The disconnect that makes me feel like I don’t belong is sometimes very loud.

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 12/09/2026

Even if it is absolutely, demonstrably untrue (usually is), it’s such a bad thing that happens to me at times. It can happen one on one, in groups, anything. I just feel this vague disconnect and start to panic really hard. I swear, my mind is legitimately a prison.

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RaiRaiTheRaichu ΘΔ @rairaitheraichu.zyntaks.ca · 12/09/2026

A very common anxiety response I have is when I’m talking to someone or hanging out with someone and suddenly get this intrusive thought: “Oh god, we have, like, nothing in common. What games do we both like? What should I talk about? Oh god I’m so boring. I’m forcing this friendship so hard.”

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