iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

The show will hopefully go on. The world is about to lose a great man.

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I’m torn up right now. Two months ago he was running around like nothing was wrong and the Pluvicto was doing great.

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Cremation plans are in the works and a designated notifier of kin has been established. DNR in place.

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 10/08/2026

So my boss has been finally admitted to hospice and has been given a timeframe of “weeks to days”

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I have somehow managed to make it to 34.

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 28/06/2026

Okay so my therapist wants to work through me hating myself and I might be coming out at work next month lmao we are so fucking wheels up

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 21/06/2026

Holy fucking balls dude this is considerably worse lmao. I’m going to give it two weeks before I tap out because I’m dizzy as shit right now

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 17/06/2026

I’m starting lexapro tomorrow. I’ve lost count of how many psych meds I’ve been on in my time. It’ll either make me feel better, or much worse. Honestly, I’ll take either one at this point.

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

In a related story June is going to be one of those months where my life turns all the way upside down and shit

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

I’m absolutely chopped as fuck and I’m not okay

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 10/04/2026

I missed hearing their voice so much

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 10/04/2026

Texted my ex and it turned out to be the best decision I’ve made in the ill minute

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 06/04/2026

Dysphoria has been hitting me hardcore this past week. Doing dude mode at work is a fucking pain I can’t describe. It was never like this when I was younger.

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

Counterpoint: me smoking for the better part of 16 years is why my face looks like a catcher’s mitt

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 04/04/2026

Started smoking again and I need to fucking quit again but I’m pretty when I smoke god damn it

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 26/03/2026

The free clinic called me to confirm my appointment and used my new name holy shit I wasn’t expecting that. I thought that was just for charts and shit

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 24/03/2026

I’m literally going through it so fucking awful I’m thinking about calling my dad (who I haven’t spoken to in 10 years)

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 23/03/2026

I can see how people get fucked up over ChatGPT. This is the most substantial social interaction I’ve had in over a decade.

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Another drunken rampage in the books. Somehow didn’t catch a public intox charge my dudes

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Still breathing and I don’t know how

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I hate myself more than anybody I know. It’s so fucking over

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 18/03/2026

I’m drunk and on a dysphoria wave and I fucking hate myself

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Also it’s worth noting that after I came out: my therapist noted that my hands and legs didn’t shake for the rest of the session, which they usually do

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 17/03/2026

SHAVED ALL MY FACIAL HAIR OFF FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 13 YEARS LFG

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 17/03/2026

It went great. The clinic updated my name and gender and everything and hopefully when I see my primary in a month or so, I can at least get some finasteride as a cautionary measure

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 17/03/2026

I’m fucking scared shitless right now.

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 16/03/2026

15 hours remain until I start stammering and almost puking and shit and I’m just doing this because I need to just fucking tell somebody lmao

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 11/03/2026

lol god damn it where did my confidence go. When I was like 18-20 I was the most cavalier person I’ve ever met and now I’m so god damn fragile

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 11/03/2026

6 more days until I come out to my therapist I’m fucking wigging out right now

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 10/03/2026

Tow truck driver got me all hot and bothered fucking around with the starter with a screwdriver

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 09/03/2026

Happy asshole Monday my starter decided to shit the bed at Walmart 3 hours ago and the truck is running behind

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 08/03/2026

Had the dream again where I was pinned down to a hospital bed and was given an entire push dose of iv dopamine and my heart almost exploded

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Sheena @pnlc9921.bsky.social · 07/03/2026

On a more positive note, McDonald’s got my coffee order correct today (3 cream, no sugar) vs. yesterday when they completely ruined my shit by adding 10 sugars to the bitch (absolutely disgusting)

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Usually I’m just mad and cursing all the time like it’s my suit of armor and I’m trying to just be like I am normally when I’m alone and it’s night and day to other people

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And I get sick because I just want to shout it out but I’m really just scared. To this day I don’t know where my edge went

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I’ve been letting off the throttle on my classic overcompensation and people are asking if I’m okay and shit

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My stomach is in knots and I’m not as confident as I was in like 2012 and it sucks

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Coming out to my shrink on the 17th. Actual transition will be slower and more thought out than last time (16 years ago)

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I’m revisiting transitioning again (and I’m fuckin serious this time) because I’ve been shook to my core and realized I could have died being scared of my own shadow

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Ended up in the ICU for a couple of days and it’s taken about 6 months to mentally (and physically) recover and realized I’m not getting any younger sooo

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