tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 59mit’s hard to talk about because it’s like. not something i can go into detail, or talk about publicly at all. but turns out being neglected for 10+ years does really fucking bad things to your brain. i am trying my hardest to “cope correctly” and “be good” but sometimes i wish i could just scream. 1140
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 2hsat in bed motionless and in silence for an hour. no motivation to do anything. struggling to process trauma and feeling upset that i can’t escape reminders of it 1150
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 6hi hung up some prints above my bed yesterday. i still need to figure out how to hang a nonstandard size nicely (i really like that art on the museum guide...) but otherwise i'm happy with it i used this guide and it made the hanging process so easy www.apartmenttherapy.com/how-to-creat... 0130
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 6hrecently i've been sleeping in too late and it's making me eat less again... uuuu. yesterday i only had one meal u_u; not good for tulip at all 080
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tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 23hit still works and is better than nothing. and if i am just emulating crap from 20 years ago or more it’s fine. but god. fucking sucks man 0121
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 23hused GPU prices are so fucking stupid man. why are GPUs from 10 years ago still $79-99. like i am trying to REPLACE my GPU from 2016, not pay $99 for a sidegrade 1170
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 03/10/2026the only one here is like a 30 min drive away and no one had the time to take me lol… until today…! they really ought to be more commonplace honestly. a magical land 110
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 03/10/2026went to micro center for the first timestatic.klipy.comHomer Simpson's Sweet Adventure in Candy LandAlt: Homer Simpson's Sweet Adventure in Candy Land 4290
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 03/10/2026getting comfortable with speaking a new language is so fucking hard. like in general it’s very hard but. it’s Nightmare Difficulty for me because i had delayed speech development as a kid. i talk much slower than everyone else i know in my own native tongue and the idea of something else is! AAAAAAA 2100
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 03/10/2026i was going to study more tonight but today sucked ass and my brain is made of goop today. uuuuu 000
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 02/10/2026if you give dee 40 apples you can unlock this scene and print it out on your game boy printer. 140
Reposted by tulip 🌷🐱tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 30/09/2026grabbed my floppy disk drive out of storage, so now i can upload my mavica fd75 photos 0295
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 01/10/2026whenever someone visits my home for the first time, i'm always excited to pull out the weird items i own and nearly every time i've called it "show and tell" 150
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tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 01/10/2026thank you! here's a secret tip: saturation is an underrated color trait! contrast a light, muted greyish tone with a deeper, more saturated color. or vice versa! sites like coolors.co can be helpful for getting inspiration and building color schemes too 060
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 01/10/2026you must reply to this post with "allez cuisine!" or else chairman kaga will break into your house and bite into your bell peppers. 9/10 people won't reply to this post, will you be the 1/10 who do 121
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 01/10/2026i really enjoy games as a form of creative play... i set up the sims 2 on my current linux install and i've been having fun exploring custom content and making my silly little dollhouses. that and i got petz 4 running in lutris and i kinda want to remake my catsona for that lmao 0160
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 01/10/2026hedgehogs! biiiig soft spot for em. funny little spiky guys. 1100
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 01/10/2026i am a big fan of most sweet n salty candies. give me something with a good crunch. i got a bag of these oreo reeses cups and they have little chocolate cookie bits in em and they're gooood 140
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 01/10/2026flower power imac g3.......... i don't know if i'll ever own one but i pine for her so bad 180
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 01/10/2026i know this is a really sappy answer but i mean it genuinely: my boyfriend, for supporting me, loving me, and helping me leave a very bad situation. made me realize that a better, happier future is possible. it's been a real fuckin rough year but that's the easily best thing that's happened all year 2130
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 01/10/2026;_;!!!! this means so much to me to hear... it's been a little bit since i've done a whole makeup look, but lately i've been wearing red lipstick again and that's been making me happy. it's a deep, dark, cranberry-ish red. love it so much 180
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 01/10/2026coffee! i love coffee and i've gotten really into brewing it myself with nice coffee beans this year. but i do enjoy a good cup of tea every once in a while. i should drink it more often... 160
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 01/10/2026platinumtulip.straw.page i made one of these funny little pages.platinumtulip.straw.pageplatinumtulip's strawpage 180
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 01/10/2026i need my dark color schemes with pink accents or i will cry. objectively i am in the wrong for this desire 0130
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 01/10/2026i understand the purpose of color coding icons and interfaces, and even advocate for them. however i am a bitch for monochromatic interfaces. i need my shit to match. this is my curse 1140
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 30/09/2026some of the prints i wanna hang up. i might have to get creative with the milwaukee art museum guide though. i just thought the colors worked really well with everything else 090
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 30/09/2026gonna try to work on hanging some prints soon. i want a cute gallery wall... 1160
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 30/09/2026grabbed my floppy disk drive out of storage, so now i can upload my mavica fd75 photos 0295
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 30/09/2026yeah. i think i agree, though i have been confronting a lot of difficult stuff privately that *has* genuinely made me second-guess relationship dynamics. i can't really get into it publicly but after talking about it in therapy over the past few months: got me thinking about a lot. 010
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tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 30/09/2026always feeling like i'm far too much of a fucking freak for "normal" people but not enough of a freak to belong anywhere else 0120
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 30/09/2026i don't really want to keep up with watching streams anymore. video games are extremely a "sometimes" thing for me and always have been. unfortunately these two traits isolate me from nearly every social group i've been in. so i'm just sighing and going "well." and doing my own thing. 190
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 30/09/2026always tried to tell myself that it shouldn't matter what other people think, just be myself. but being true to myself tends to make others feel awkward and uncomfortable. so if i have to choose between forcing myself to belong, and pursuing what i enjoy even if it isolates me: i'd choose the latter 0140
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 30/09/2026i am used to finding ways to preoccupy myself. working on projects and finding skills to strengthen brings me satisfaction and joy. but i feel a massive disconnect between what i value and what i'm passionate about, and what most other people actually care about. 1140
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 30/09/2026been feeling very isolated lately. i don't feel like i am part of a "community" or "group" these days. i drift around between groups of people, but i don't feel like i really belong anywhere. this isn't a new feeling for me; honestly, it's a fairly familiar one. 1280
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 29/09/2026i don't know how to read standardized pronunciation guides, but i DO know how to read and write katakana quickly, so. uh. i keep writing furigana for french words LOL 0110
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 29/09/2026i'll be fine. if i was able to pick up japanese as a teenager and learn an entirely different writing system, i will get the hang of this new-to-me grammatical quirk. and also it's only been two days since i started studying french. it's just tripping me up a bit lmfao 150
tulip 🌷🐱 @platinumtulip.net · 29/09/2026studying a language with masculine/feminine distinctions for the first time is fucking me up man. i am sure i will get the hang of it eventually, but this is a new concept for me to consider 3120