iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

I hate that notion because all additional trauma did to me was make me more closed off even to expressing myself thru art and now I have to work considerably harder to make what I really want to. It sucks and I wish I had just never gone through those things at all, it just made things worse for me

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Boghog @boghogstg.bsky.social · 11/08/2026

If a game connected with you & changed your tastes in some meaningful way pls do urself favor and dig up the devs, their past work, their scene/peers & their influences. Don't be like those ppl who find the latest game in a long tradition & treat it like an exception

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 31/08/2026

My favorite song in the entire album is Suburban Museum. There's a magic in that last movement that leaves me in tears every time. One of the most beautiful songs I ever listened to and it's not even really special in context. Also shout outs to After the Dream

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 31/08/2026

Trying to draw some rough drafts for settings for a story I had laid out. The idea is to show friends for feedback because I've decided I really need some outside help on certain things. It's been easier to pick up the pen at least. Especially now that it isn't fucking 85 degrees at night anymore

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 30/08/2026

Yeah you're right lol. Some days are just harder than others. I hope you can be happy though. You deserve to be

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

I wonder if it's just me because my friends keep telling me I'm a good guy but I'm sure they just pity me at this point lol

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

I've been trying to answer that question for maybe 9 or so years LMAO. I'm not even attracted to "normal" people like that. and those who I do meet that I do like never think of me that way. I rarely even get a first message. And they never seem to have issues finding someone either. just sucks

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

Yeah I figured that's extremely hard to find. Which is why I haven't taken a step in that direction. but if that's what you want, options are bleak from my experience. it feels like those types of people are largely unavailable

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

what are you lookin for? fellow artists?

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

Or when I don't downplay how I feel, people used to get mad at me for just speaking up. I guess what I'm saying is I still associate that sort id honesty with getting punished or ignored

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

For the longest time I felt like nobody took my feelings seriously even though I took theirs seriously. So I filtered myself a lot. But now that's not entirely the case anymore but part of me still thinks if I'm more honest, people won't be as interested in me as a person, at best

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

I'd end up talking about some things that would come off pretty cringe if I went through with that sort of self expression. And I wouldn't be able to pass it off entirely as humor. making myself vulnerable is hard, for sure

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

kinda brings me back to the idea I had of making a comic with my sona as a therapy/vent project. the only thing I worry about is the fact that I wouldn't be able to show that to many people because it would be so deeply personal

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 25/08/2026

it's therapeutic. but most people won't hear it because it sounds too weird at face value. even if it is weird, not everything that's weird is harmful. Honestly half of the characters I make are like this to varying degrees. a sona would be nice for more personal art though

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Stu Cupid @stucupid.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

I am finally proud to announce that Shabadoo - feat. Valentina Jazz releases 5th September! A brand new single and music video featuring all sorts of angelic chaos and fun!

A colourful collage of Angels and Objects surrounding a dark yellow earth. A pink 60s fashionista with a bow and a blue haired ringmaster angel stand proudly in front of the earth.

Music video by Cody Fordham, Shabadoo - Stu Cupid feat. Valentina Jazz

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

It's a pain but there are ways to make it less of a pain

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 03/08/2026

Thank you for that. I'm trying my best ❤️

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 03/08/2026

If old people compliment me on my looks then would that mean I have any chance of people *my* age liking how I look? I get so confused. It doesn't count right?

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 22/07/2026

But also the thought resurfaced in me that I could probably make some pretty entertaining shit if I just based story ideas off experiences I had when I was younger because I used to always be up to some bullshit

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 22/07/2026

It was pouring today after I left work and the cab had another passenger. He got dropped off at a place I used to live at and just being inside the bounds of those gates made me nostalgic. I still miss living there.

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

I love it, it's absolutely one of my favorite manga series out there

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

I used to always be stressed about self inserts until I realized this. I just don't care anymore. I used to be worried about sameu characters too but I don't even know if anyone actually thinks that in any capacity. People call these things especially cringe if the story has romance, I noticed.

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

Man I miss the days where meme trends were this fun and lasted as long as this one

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 13/07/2026

Really nice stuff. I like her

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 08/07/2026

It's a really weird and discouraging viewpoint in my experience. I don't like the idea that someone I like will think I'm disgusting for wanting something so I keep my mouth shut even when I probably shouldn't. If I ever find a chance again, I'll work on that

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 08/07/2026

I think the worst part of it all is that apps are pushed as the only acceptable way to seek connection. Especially by weirdos on social media pushing the idea that approaching others out in the world is always inappropriate, creepy or just downright evil even if you're with likeminded people

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 07/07/2026

Bro oh my god how can you do this to me 4 times in a row?

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 04/07/2026

My birthday is coming soon 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 02/07/2026

I paid the price more than once for having just a little too much faith in peoples' ability to change for the better so I feel this

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 30/06/2026

allergies have been flaring up so bad lately that I actually just feel like I'm sick and it's the worst thing ever. oh yeah and huge heat wave coming soon. anyone who can sit here and tell me they enjoy summer in this area is a damn liar

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 21/06/2026

That and they do this stuff without truly understanding what works about the inspiration game or why it resonates with people. So the result feels hollow to me a lot of the time. It's not everyone but it happens often

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 21/06/2026

I see it a lot because my friends are in the indie scene and I watch them play these games sometimes and it ended up being an issue I noticed. It's part of why I really want to make a game myself at some point, honestly. People make games inspired by stuff but don't put enough of themselves in it

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 21/06/2026

I've been saying for ages that I keep seeing indie games make that mistake which is why I don't play the majority of them. At least when they're good, they're very good. Makes me wish I could program though lmao

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 21/06/2026

Are they bringing too derivative about it? That's what I'm always scared of lol

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 17/06/2026

Tumblr really was where it was at for artists before late 2018. I miss it too. It was so damn fun

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 16/06/2026

wanna use this time to point out that giving you such limited gun ammo in vanilla really was kind of a crazy decision lmao

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 16/06/2026

I saw this video. The title is pure clickbait I assure you lol it's just a video about version differences. very interesting tbh

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 15/06/2026

I hope you find it in yourself to do more. I love you designs

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 14/06/2026

So what you get is a situation where people are encouraged to never look inward and settle for easy answers. Cause most people don't want fairness or humanity from everyone, they just want to be the ones at the top that can treat anyone any old way they'd like with no pushback.

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ピル @piiru.bsky.social · 14/06/2026

It's unfortunate but the truth is most people don't care about double standards if they feel it benefits them. It's why you rarely see people pointing out any of this. It doesn't helpt that there's a huge stigma going against people who do because they can be associated with bad actors

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