keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 13/09/2026even had a guy at the bus stop today i was gonna let get on ahead of me bc he was old and had groceries and i said “go ahead!” and he went “ladies first. get up there” like. what’s your fucking problem? 110
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 13/09/2026everything i’ve worked for is gone. hes not even responding to my texts or emails. i have no fucking money to replace anything, i have two shirts and one pair of shorts lol. i dont want to be alive man 000
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 13/09/2026old landlord changed the locks on me while we were in the middle of moving out. cops wouldn’t do anything, told me it’s a civil matter and to file a report but wouldn’t let me in. my birds and rabbit were all still inside and thank fuck i have animal control connections bc that’s the only reason// 100
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 08/09/2026at my first pcp appointment in 3 years and the nurse checked my blood pressure and immediately went “oh that’s bad. is it usually high?” and now i’m worried lol 101
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 02/09/2026i love the house. i really do. i’m so excited to get out of here but i just wish i didnt have to do so much in such a short time span in addition to packing and moving!!! 000
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 02/09/2026it kinda semi feels like this guy is taking advantage of my situation bc like. fuck. he knows my credits shit, he knows i’m trying to get out of a shitty place and i’ve been so nice and understanding and respectful and i genuinely didn’t care that the floors are installed wrong and there’s gaps// 100
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 02/09/2026i’ve spent the last two days at the new place trying to clean and painting the bedroom so it’s aired out before i move the birds in and i feel like i’ve made zero progress. i’m so tired. floppy comes down wednesday and i have to have this place move in ready by then but i work so much and im tired 000
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 02/09/2026not to sound ungrateful bc i’m really not but like. i was told the house would be move in ready on the 1st. i did tell him not to sweat it, like if he didn’t have all of his stuff moved out it wasn’t a big deal bc he has kids and this was his personal house before but im also like :( 100
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 31/08/2026i can’t really move until my partner comes down next week and i’m itchin. i have a lot of shit packed and ready but i can’t do much more ugh 100
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 31/08/2026just groomed this rlly sweet kitty. haven’t groomed a cat before and it’s super spooky lol don’t have any after photos cus i’m not happy with how she came out but apparently it’s the best she’s ever looked??? so i hope they meant it 010
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 28/08/2026my blending work has gotten so fuckin good…. completely handscissored the legs. imagine what i could do once i replace my $40 amazon scissors with actual high quality dog grooming scissors hfjfnfn 100
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 28/08/2026i just got home from one of the hardest shifts of my life and atlas decided to projectile diarrhea in his crate, lay in it, escape his crate and shit All over the house. everyone wants a shepherd until they do shepherd things 100
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 27/08/2026i’ve been packing like crazy and sleeping hard when i’m not, but i think i got a majority of everything good to go now. i can rest a bit and try to bang out some comms bc holy fuck moving trucks are expensive 010
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 27/08/2026it’s also insane bc i had no idea this place had a dishwasher until he told me about it today. like the fact it comes with so many things that make my life so much easier is so funny bc i didn’t want it for that purpose but like. holy fuck. it has a washer/dryer, dishwasher, huge fridge???? 110
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 27/08/2026i picked up my keys today!!! but can’t start moving in for another few days bc he’s still moving out. heres half of the backyard, i’m so excited to have space for atlas to run around and to try to garden next year 120
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 26/08/2026i ran out of my adhd meds and just havent had time to go pick some up, but i had some of the old ones i was prescribed (short term vs long term) so i took 2 of them and it turns out that was TOO MANY. i am so jittery and anxious as fuck. i am a fool 000
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 24/08/2026sometimes i think i'm getting my art groove back and im happy while doing commissions and then it takes 1 picky person to completely ruin it lol like im so tired of doing more than one revision on stuff that you dont even ask for when you first commission me 110
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 22/08/2026when i worked at the university i was showing a friend 'take your shirt off' by the millionaires which was a scene classic and one of our old coworkers walked in while it was playing and he quit the next day 110
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 21/08/2026anyway i did a puppy who was being a little SHIT and i’m still proud of how he came out lol 020
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 21/08/2026this was her in october. baby will’s first full groom. yet we’re not allowed to report neglect cases like this bc it’s viewed as them bringing the dog in to get it fixed even if it literally happens once a fuckin year 000
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 21/08/2026i had to send my first dog away yesterday bc i couldn’t get through her legs with a 10 blade. spent an hour shaving her body down but her legs were CASTED and i had to tell the owner she needs a sedated shave from a vet. i did what i could but i wish i did more 100
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 21/08/2026i’ve spent pretty much my entire adult life using mismatched dishes and cookware from gifts and thrift store buys but once i’m stable in the new house i really think i need to put a bit of money towards getting matching kitchen stuff…. and a kitchen aid one day. like i love all of these wtf 020
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 21/08/2026amazon loves showing me things i find cute and i scroll down to see the price and its $250 for a stock pot. 250. for a crab stock pot 010
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 20/08/2026i saw these in a facebook group and it made me very emotional. strawbebby 010
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 19/08/2026im like jk rowling but if the mold growing in my house turned me even more transgender instead of transphobic 020
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 19/08/2026i'm actually so fucking excited to move holy shit. i'm so stoked. i can't wait i'm AAAAAAA 110
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 18/08/2026like this has to mean i got the place right? just how the fuck do i come up with money when i can’t get a single commission and i don’t even get paid for another week 000
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 18/08/2026it sounds like i got the house but i still need to send in an application, but he wants the security deposit AND the fee for the application at the same time. i need $1290. which i dont have. i thought id just pay the application fee but if i have to pay the deposit thats….. that means i got it? ig? 100
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 17/08/2026bruce is like a yr and a half old and i’ve been doing him since he was 8 weeks old and he still sounds and believes he’s a 30lb puppy. he wants to eat the towel btw 000
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 17/08/2026ayway. i toured a housw today and the 25 min walk to the bus stop was literally just this the whole way and i nearly got hit 3 times. id be doing this walk every day for work which is gonna suck but. i’m not gonna be picky 100
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 17/08/2026it’s so silly being someone who’s attempted and who wants to die but also being petrified of dying. cant have ur cake and eat it too or whatever 110
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 17/08/2026death is such a scary concept to me and dying is even worse. is it inviting? is it warm? cold? are you petrified? how do you fucking cope with it. i never had a person close to me die before. animals, yeah. but people? man. 010
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 17/08/2026it’s wild bc i’ve known her dogs since both were puppies. i used to work the floor at this store and she’s been bringing them in for weekly nail trims so when i became her dogs groomer we always chatted for the 15 mins i had both of her pups on the table and she became kind of a grandma figure? 110
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 17/08/2026i’m usually a little mentally prepared for my clients dogs passing away but one of my clients herself called me to tell me she was dying and her dogs won’t be in anymore but to thank me for everything…. how do i prepare for my clients themselves dying what the fuck 110
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 17/08/2026i’m so fucking sad today lol. going to check out that house in an hour but what’s even the point man 000
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 16/08/2026i’m gonna fucking cry. i just took down a few pieces of art i had printed and the walls squishy and moldy behind them and my ceiling looks ready to cave in. im actually so tired 100
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 15/08/2026local shepherd realized the vet took his eyeball and yells to the sky about it 120
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 14/08/2026had a dog nearly die in the tub on me because the person who checked it in didn't tell me that he has a severe heart murmur at 14 yrs old. i was already skeptical of him because he was kind of wobbly and kept sitting, so i was like. alright, you're just gonna need a break bc you're old! that's fine/ 100
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 09/08/2026i don't know why i'm rambling. at least i havent killed myself yet 100
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 09/08/2026i want to make the jump to start working at a private salon but i'm so fucking scared because at least here, i make hourly if i don't hit my commission. at least i get pto and an employee discount and i have a steady clientele. i don't know what it'll be like somewhere else. 110
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 09/08/2026my psych appointment is monday and i'm genuinely going to have to ask for my antidepressants to be upped because i'm barely fucking hanging in there. i'm so sick of everyone and everything and all of these expectations being higher than i can achieve. i knew dog grooming was a toxic place, but fuck. 010
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 09/08/2026OH OH OH AND!!! when atlas had surgery, i got it approved from HER AND OUR GM that i could leave early leading up to his stitch removal because i didnt trust him at home by himself (it literally was only for like 3 days towards the end of his recovery), and she told our other stylist that// 110
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 09/08/2026at least i know i'm not just assuming shes always complaining to me about me having 3 off days because it effects her pay. she literally admitted it to me in front of both of our other employees. she told me that she gets one step forward and then two steps back regarding her pay and im just like..? 110
keegles @pawnorder.bsky.social · 09/08/2026i am unfortunately in the worst mental space ive been in for a very long time lol 110
