Reposted by oli @ still recoveringEL(ezen enjoyer) @ely30plus.bsky.social · 26/08/2026I love you bf killer 38420
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 27/04/2026like this is basically just the social media for ppl who "i'm a good person bc i say elon and ai is bad :) ignore how i treat the people in my actual day to day life bc that requires more than lip service :) elon bad btw!! i hate tesla!!!" 030
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 27/04/2026gonna be so fr with you i cba with bsky i'll just turn this into a personal or smth. like yea twit bad etc. etc. bsky still uses ai and claude and are still ultimately corpos trying to make money they're not some more idealistic hippie ver of social media lmao 130
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 03/04/2026stupid ass just make an anon/side like the rest of us. y'all don't even know some of the stuff i drew to pay off my tablet back in the day. 010
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 03/04/2026that giant ass meltdown or seven to say, i don't care about freak shit in fiction existing but i do care about someone being a fucking dumbass while they go about it. is this rly what u want ur main to be known for. rly. this is the hill ur dying on. i think that's where the nuance is for me. 020
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 24/03/2026i'm sorry what the fuck was that chainsaw man chapter 110
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 23/03/2026every time i get massively depressed i just remember that i got hit with a $2k bill for having the audacity to be kidnapped for 9 days and that makes me sober up a bit 020
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 01/03/2026overall, i think things have been getting better, though. not a lot to show, but what i've been doing has been really fun. it's also nice to just have some burner accounts that are totally separate from everything so i can have accounts besides content creation. 💪 060
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 01/03/2026It’s awkward because people still tell me through the grapevine that my ex friends are creeping others out in other chats, because it didn’t give any real vindication? Just sadness that they’re doing that. Therapist says it’s a good sign for me but idk. 110
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 01/03/2026Anniversary of g* eventually pushing me to a suicide attempt is coming up which is bringing a lot of feelings but therapy has been getting better and better and I can enjoy a lot of what I haven’t been able to for the past year. Usually. LMAOOOI 020
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 25/02/2026i want to draw some cute wolchans (any gender) (i'm still working on coms too) #ffxiv 020
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 23/01/2026left the house for the first time in weeks, the meds are working, please clap 3110
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 20/01/2026going to reply to the cardigan + plushie emails soon, sorry about that!! i've gotten good news from the psychiatrist so i'm slowly getting peeled off the floor again 040
Reposted by oli @ still recoveringCee 🍋 @artctrlcee.bsky.social · 18/01/2026ACC: Heavyweight Tier 111577754
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 18/01/2026no spoilers but pathologic 3 is so good lmfao 040
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 14/01/2026me rn it turns out they have Figured out the Vitamin too little too late 110
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 14/01/2026not the doc hitting me with the "yeah ngl i no longer think you have [x] i VERY strongly believe you have [y]" after six months of trying to make these meds work, only to find out they commonly contribute to the type of symptoms i've been having 🧍 130
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 12/01/2026hcing the xtremes as shards for adelphel and janlenoux or grinnaux and paulecrain bc both have the potential to be super funny in diff ways 020
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 11/01/2026the arcadion questline is soooo cute i love the tyrant but also everyone AND one of my fav VA's voiced honey b 020
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 10/01/2026@yoni0421.bsky.social 先生、ウェブサイトにはブルースカイでDMにお問い合わせくださいと書いてありますが、DMはオフになっています。他に連絡方法はありますか？ 000
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 09/01/2026playing p3r with one friend group and p5r with another friend group, both for the first time, and man both are awesome, games really are better with friends 060
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 08/01/2026got an iud put in today to hopefully help with my mental/hormonal and oh my god i'm mentally projecting all my cramps onto adelphel 160
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 06/01/2026excited for the savage drop for tomorrow... i personally don't do it but i enjoy cheering on friends 🥰 010
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 02/01/2026my friend's custom standees arrived. excited to open up more slots in the future #TOWART #ほしまちぎゃらりー #かなたーと #bijouwled #illustrayBAE #inART 3162
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 02/01/2026like... all my crashouts on social media are self-harm, because i do still miss my friends and then i self-sabotage to make sure i push them even further. i still think they're a terrible things to do and unacceptable, same with honestly a lot of my behavior this year, trauma or not. bad impulse. 010
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 02/01/2026found out through Extremely casual reading that it's relatively common to have bad impulse controls with undiagnosed adhd, especially as it pertains to SI compulsion but also i've def gotten worse in gen this year, so i'm hoping the docs agree when i meet up with them 120
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 01/01/2026waaaa happy early new year!!!!! after some last minute developments i'm excited for the new year 150
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 01/01/2026doing my annual read of octopus pie and oof ow marigold oof ow eve oof ow hanna 120
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 31/12/2025manifest better meds for me when i have my appointment with the psychiatrist in jan bc this anxiety ruining my life, if the whole account deletion meltdown didn't make it obvious enough 340
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 30/12/2025anyway watching the friends playing arcadion and i love the new blowjob brothers wtf 020
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 29/12/2025i'm professionally diagnosed with major depressive disorder against my will and take a bunch of medications with shitty side effects because i'm faking it and willingly love being an unproductive sack of shit that hurts the people i love. ok. 000
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 29/12/2025and yes, i run my mouth on social media and people find that annoying but, perhaps shockingly, i've attempted beyond what i've shared to ANYONE and made sure not to let ANYONE know explicitly bc of fears of "if someone talks about attempting they don't mean to go through with it" lmfao 000
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 29/12/2025did i really spit out the pills and set down the knife this week only because i didn't want to trouble others, just to be told that because i didn't go through with it i'm faking it and using it as a tool to guilt trip to trouble them anyway. 000
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 29/12/2025i don't like talking to my friends about this anymore because everyone keeps telling me they can't keep repeating themselves and that it's my fault for not internalizing it better and not trying hard enough and you know that is. i am trying my absolute best and no one believes me. it's scary. 010
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 29/12/2025i had always feared it, but to have proof that people think i'm just bullshitting because i haven't killed myself yet and i'm trying to be some insane master manipulator narc buzzword salad is... i'm not sure what people intend the end result to be. am i not supposed to agree with them. 100
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 29/12/2025am i supposed to just be nice and quiet and pleasant so that if something ever happened people can't feel guilty because "oh well she seemed to be doing better :/ she never brought it up after a certain point so it was out of our hands" 000
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 29/12/2025if you tell someone "it doesn't matter what you do, the door is shut, fuck off" then why are people shocked there's no longer an incentive to do do what they want? why bother apologizing? why feel remorse if they'll just tell you "that's what you deserve" and then not care anyway? 000
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 29/12/2025maybe i'm just too hopeless to understand. and then people can call this a pity party and how i'm a sad sack who deserves everything i got and then... what? live? die? does it matter anymore if people tell me they explicitly don't care anymore? why can't i do what i want, then? 000
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 29/12/2025people are guilt tripping me for wanting to die & how it'd trouble them, and then people are saying i'm being manipulative by being alive and saying that others mistreated me to the point that i wanted to die. i'm wrong for wanting to die. i'm wrong for not coping in a specific way while i'm alive. 000
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 29/12/2025i truly, sincerely am sorry i'm hurting others after being hurt. i think i'm trying, but if my results aren't good, i get criticized for not trying hard enough. i can't give the results people want anymore, and it's my fault for not being good enough. if my best isn't enough, then. i don't know. 000
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 29/12/2025i... i need to clarify it took me til october to even realize that it was a situation i was supposed to leave. i couldn't be allowed to process things correctly in march because i was told if i kept believing then it'd work out. and it took until oct to have that not be the case. 020
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 29/12/2025"hey we know you're mentally unstable and having a rough time, we're going to pull your support and then say you were faking your suicidalness to try and make us feel bad. good luck." 010
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 29/12/2025i can't even try to escape my own pain without people saying i'm doing it to manipulate them or guilt trip them, like it's all about them. i. what. 010
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 29/12/2025sincere question. is it suicidebaiting just because i didn't successfully kill myself. i don't understand. 110
Reposted by oli @ still recoveringoli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 28/12/2025also the cutest charm by @yoni0421.bsky.social 0102
oli @ still recovering @olivinearc.bsky.social · 28/12/2025i signed up for an art course in feb so that's something to look forward to 2130
