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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

The Cost of Sorcery 2026 #nullingwayart

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

Listening to Jesper Kyd's music rn The recent Darktide EP has me schmooving, not just the skitarius tracks but also The Sand Vortex has been having me a lot lately.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

Dunno, kinda ran out of spite years ago. It's what everyone's advice boils down to and I don't got it in me anymore.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

I would guess... 90%, is my score. I can't handle the thoughts anymore. I really can't. It's not IF, it's WHEN. And I feel that when is soon.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

I lost everything. So many times. I have no family, no friends near me, no employer wants me... And everything is getting worse, in my life, in the world... Hell I quit therapy because all it did was pull up everything and make it worse. I have no way out.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

~40% That's how many of us trans people worldwide have attempted suicide. Many successful. ~20% That's how many of us autistic people attempt suicide. It's not exactly fun having an effectively additive 60% risk of that. But then...

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

I don't mean for this account to be me constantly complaining but I have things to get out.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

Yeah... hi Lynn, welcome in here too. My feelings about the whole problem have only worsened since and I'm going mad. Just feel... unimportant. Just an extra. Just background noise.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 30/08/2026

My khajiit in ESO #nullingwayart

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 08/09/2026

It's rude to talk about someone who's listening. One of my favourite game quotes.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

Yeah, perfect represenation. Just as hypocritical and arrogant.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

I found this sculpt of middies on the you-know-where I guess I can make my lagori in FFXIV now? Maybe obellians but those are meant to be more harelike and scary, its why i used one of the older hroth sculpts for them.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

oh they're not But I felt pretty in this getup uwu

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

Monster Viking Berry is delicious but I wish they didn't have those inaccurate helmets on the can art

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 30/08/2026

Mmhm, they were stuck in Apocrypha for quite a while. They received their eye there, and it's been fun to use in RP

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 30/08/2026

they canonically have a nub tail case y'all are wondering. I love lynxes

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 10/08/2026

www.youtube.com/watch?v=uCvq... #nullingwaymusic Yes I know the audio is scuffed because it feels like I can't get a 1:1 with any of these programs.

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Spegelskogen, Nullingway

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 30/08/2026

Fucking jealous everytime someone gets invited to shit, or to collabs, or to model for mods Like I might turn it down but I'd still like to be asked for SOMETHING you know? Definetely doesen't help with the loneliness.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 26/08/2026

I'm allergic to hypocrites and that one right here has been one of the most annoying. I'm already pissed off so I'm leaving to retain some joy.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

I wish i was an idiot like most people so i could just slot into their machine and not have to think about the literal evil humans commit. ...like... really? Human neural tissue data centers? I've had enough.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

Manmade horrors unfortunately well within my comprehension. Will you STOP If you're going to be dystopic just pick ONE dystopia, fucking hell.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

It's august 20th now. A whole month has passed since I was supposed to finally let go of this hell. I hate being such a coward. All I can get myself to do is bleed, but never fatally.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

I wrote mum and dad a letter. Of course they can not read it. I put it in their grave. It told them some of what I've been through. How much I also hate them for what they did to me.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

All these labels forcefully thrust upon me and when I choose my own i get harassed and threatened to death by the same feral beasts that want to make my transitioning, my whole existence infact, illegal.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

This is not goodbye. Not yet. But I am not staying around much longer. I am sick of you. This world. Even if there's nothing beyond, nothingness is better than all this. And if there is... well I might laugh, watching you burn your world to ash. You're the only daemons that exist.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

Truly if I had the reigns, if I could just reset this whole universe... you humans would never have existed. I'd love to just delete you from every iteration, every single repetition of your form across the universe. But the only thing I can somewhat delete Is myself.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

So don't contact me, if you can not handle me. Just block me from all your contacts, remove me without telling me. It doesen't matter at this point anyway. Nothing does. I would have loved to build a better world. But you don't deserve that.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

Because I'm too much of a coward to do so myself. I am so much better than this. if only I had the chance to be so. But you humans took everything away from me, even before I was born. I hate you all. I truly, deeply, hate you all.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

I hate you. I'm not one of you. And even those among you I do love, even those I promised my hand... Well it's a bit ambivalent, truly. I also hate you. I don't understand why you just won't let go of me. Find someone better.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

And then they just abandoned me. Despite it all, they just cooooouldn't hold on. And what followed, was a hellish existence and why I can't do the bare minimum anymore.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

This body isn't even my first one. They aborted me. Because of some fucking blisters. I could have survived, but noooo, they didn't want to chance it. And my soul just wouldn't let go! Now every connection is plugged wrong.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

I find it absolutely disgusting. Not only that I have to alter the sex of this body, to be more correct, which the beasts among you are trying to prohibit me from doing, still no matter what, I can't fix this horrid form. I can't even do the bare minimum and replace my limbs with metal.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

Yeah, no fucking shit. She doesen't understand what it's like to see monsters everytime you look at another person. Everytime you look in the mirror. Few of you do. And those that do are often clinically insane. Am I? Maybe.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

Alas, no, I am biologically one of you. Same organs, same blood. A fact that's always been hard to swallow. Because you rarely let me into your warmth. I saw the worst of the worst of you growing up. And my fucking therapist want me to feel like I'm one of you all the same.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

Even when I was a small child I sometimes stared at myself in the mirror, not recognizing the primate that I supposedly was. Looking for stitch marks, lines revealing a mask, anything, that could let me tear of this mask.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

Instead I have to watch you destroy yourselves because a vast majority of you are barely a tossed pebble away from the intelligence of your chimpanzee cousins. Even i can't even feel like I'm one of you anymore. Never could really.

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Nullingway @nullingway.bsky.social · 20/08/2026

Why? Because I couldn't fit into your fucked up society. Where people like me are forever damned to fall between the cracks. I am so much better than this. I could have been a genius. But you humans never gave me a chance.

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