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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

I wish I could pin a repost because this is how it makes me feel so often.

Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 20/07/2026

I think my treatment team should let me in on my calorie prescription so I can eat it correctly and not feel like I’m overeating when I’m not at program. I think this will work well and not be bad at alllll. Yes definitely do this please do this. Trust it will work 🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

I miss my ED spaces 💔💔💔☹️☹️☹️ come back to me guys I need to relapse again so I can come back onto here fully 💔💔

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 14/07/2026

I’m so anxious and a mess and I want to relapse ughhh

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 09/07/2026

They wrapped me in the fucking fruit wrapper goddamn

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 09/07/2026

“Can I still get into heaven if I kill myself?!”

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 04/07/2026

I’m gonna relapse once I’m out of treatment, I’m so sick of this shit.

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 04/07/2026

I so tired of not being listened to by my providers. I’m actually gonna fucking k!ll mys3lf fucking hell

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 29/06/2026

I ate dinner and kept it down!!! Recovery win or whatever 😛

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 27/06/2026

Every now and again I check if my ex blocked me. Every time he hasn’t. Idk if I want him to or not. Idk which is the better answer. Do I want him to hate me? Do I want to hate him? Do I want to throw up? Yes to that one!

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 27/06/2026

I was purging last night and all I could think of is how it felt the same as when I was raped. Literally disgusting it gives me a migraine to think about (I was raped orally for context so this makes sense but still)

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 27/06/2026

Good morning chat my ed is ALIVE AND AWAKE today!!!!!! 🥲🥲🫩🫩🫩🫩🫩

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 23/06/2026

There’s at least 3 new people joining my PHP program today or tomorrow it’s so over. I mean yay for them getting help but also I hate change

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 22/06/2026

Guys my nutritionist is upping my intake it’s so over I’m actually going to throw up 💔💔💔💔

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 21/06/2026

Father’s Day + summer solstice = I’m actually gonna explode AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 20/06/2026

My stomach hurts SO BAD 💔💔💔💔☹️☹️☹️☹️

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 20/06/2026

Guys they made group chats on here……

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 18/06/2026

The migraine of terror and hell and fear and anxiety and depression and stress and vomiting everywhere

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 17/06/2026

Not-approved-by-my-treatment-team pre PHP monster ultra fo’ todayyyy

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Noxx @noxtheghostdude.bsky.social · 16/06/2026

hi this is my backup follow this pls okay thanks

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 16/06/2026

Drunkorexic era how I miss you….. (I don’t miss my situation at that time AT ALL but alcohol as my only source of calories sounds really great rn)

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 16/06/2026

Relapse is calling to me like a gr!ndr bootycall bro I NEED IT SO BAD

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 14/06/2026

Hooked up with a guy last night. I feel like the only way I can be loveable is when I’m like that. Men only want my body and it’s all I have to give

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 14/06/2026

Ate breakfast today, feel gross. I feel like I’m the fattest ugliest person at treatment and that makes me want to kaay emm ess

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 13/06/2026

The abdominal pain of fear and uncertainty

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

Guys please recover when you can because if you don’t you’ll be like me, getting an endoscopy at the age of 20 at 8 in the morning with nurses pitying you telling you you’re too young for this operation and being in the hospital for the past 3 days. I’m so tired.

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 08/06/2026

My first lunch here being a restaurant day is genuinely evil what the fuck

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 08/06/2026

Everyone here is sicker and skinnier than me I don’t belong here.

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 08/06/2026

Why is there always the bitch in pfp going through a divorce. It’s always someone. Wtf

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 08/06/2026

First day at PHP today, pray I don’t crash out during a meal/snack. Pray I don’t crash out in general LMAO

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 04/06/2026

I hate eating so much I can’t do this guys

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 04/06/2026

Starting PHP on Monday and texting my partner about it. I’m so sick and tired. I just want to be skinny. That’s all I want. It’s all I’ve wanted for years. I’m so fucking sick of all of this.

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 03/06/2026

Eating disorders are so stupid because tell me why I’m having a panic attack over a snack bag of Cheetos

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 01/06/2026

It looked like straight doodoo it was so gross

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 22/05/2026

OH SHIT I FORGOT TO TELL YALL I GOT DISCHARGED FROM RES LIKE TWO WEEKS AGO OOPS MY BAD CHAT

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 22/05/2026

The hunger is comforting and I hate that.

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 22/05/2026

Guys I’m covered in bruises wtfffff

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 22/05/2026

Dude my PHP is actually taking forever to admit me I’m going to explode 🫩🫩🫩🫩🫩

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 09/05/2026

I’m actually going to have a meltdown this snack and I don’t know why I just can’t get myself to eat. What the fuck is wrong with me

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 08/05/2026

I wish I could work a stable job. I hate being disabled so much. I legitimately do not see a future for myself.

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Nox || 🐛🏙️ @noxtheghostguy.bsky.social · 07/05/2026

Noxx hunger strike era (I’m not eating as long as possible fuck this shit I’m tired of it)

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