carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 3hevery time i type restorative justice into q apost online i get swathes of losers basically telling me what a bad and selfish survivor i am for not wanting to make amends so i'm glad for the reduced interactability feature. it's just likes now 030
Reposted by carvercarver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 03/10/2026WERE DOWN TO $295 REMAINING!! we r so close!!! please share if you see!!! the rent deadline is the 6th!! 0411
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 21hwhen i was little there were so many doctors and social workers who would tell me, "your father loves you, he's sick, he doesn't want to hurt you, you should forgive him." it's just crazy to me that is so common. like throwing the child into the alligator's mouth. i learned to hate very early. 040
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 21hpassionate restorative justice truthers are so annoying yes i do want my father castrated via rope from tree no i don't want to make niceys with him yes i do want to harm him and take lithium because of how much it occupies my mind. he has every intent of re-offending and is on at least #4 right now 140
Reposted by carverIris/アイリス 🏳️⚧️ @irisdescentbird.bsky.social · 03/10/2026just made this awesome gif 92188830
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 03/10/2026day 5 reduced olanzapine cleaned kitchen before bed with ease (i used to do this every night before i was medicated) i also saw some things today though let's not act like it was 100% 020
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 03/10/2026theres this particular anime voice that enrages me and i don't want to pull up an example for many reasons but it's the one where the anime girl goes "wah :D ugahh :D" ohhh my god i could strangle someone 140
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 03/10/2026WERE DOWN TO $295 REMAINING!! we r so close!!! please share if you see!!! the rent deadline is the 6th!! 0411
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 02/10/2026it's stupid how things frighten me, things id long gotten used to, that are now suddenly signs of a threat to my brain. i lay awake stiff at night. being on 15mg olanzapine really did give me a peace i hadnt had in years. but it also blunted everything without discretion. so my experiment goes on 030
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 02/10/2026i do have more energy. a lot of that energy goes towards a great big sense of fear and paranoia. but i feel a bit more whimsical as well 030
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 02/10/2026ok.. day 3 less antipsychotics... still much more fear, specks on surfaces shift and quiver constantly like insects again. i don't feel at peace, like something that wants to hurt me is just around the corner. but tonight i caught myself singing alone, and i danced while eating a sandwich before bed 130
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 02/10/2026ive seen the reference in that persons abyssinian drawing so many times due to my experiences on warrior cats forums 011
Reposted by carverCagle Cats @caglecats.bsky.social · 02/10/2026They are simply two lil shroom children 8779123
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 02/10/2026i couilud ask my mom for it for christmas but i have other thigns i want more like a stainless steel pot (all my pots are broken except my scratched nonstick) or a steamer for cleaning which arfe both about the same price...... orz 030
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 02/10/2026this is so cute i wish i coudl own it but it's $71!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 140
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 02/10/2026i think i will be ok trying the lower dose for this month but i really took for granted the amount of peace i finally had when on a full dose of antispychotics. like i cant just sit there anymore, its like wasps buzzing around my ears at all times. but we will see if i can get benefit from it too... 010
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 02/10/2026im so scared rn and nothign is happening hashtag psychotic 110
Reposted by carverMicheeel @micheeel.bsky.social · 01/10/2026The genocide continues, and our situation is extremely bad. We lost our source of income and everything we own. 3 years without income in Gaza is unbearable. Even $5 makes a difference for food, clothing, treatment, and education. Please help my family 🫂🧡 Vetted by Molly Shah ✅ tinyurl.com/2etna36k 187145
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 01/10/2026we need $395 more!! down another $140!! thank you so much everyone for your support!! 007
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carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 30/09/2026these were all form that time and i really like all these pieces i feel like they express my world at the time but at the same time its a lot of pain in these ones 030
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 30/09/2026looked at my art from right before i bumped up from 12.5mg olanzapine to 15mg and feeling nervous... i remember now i was clearly hallucinating much more, and feeling more violent thoughts. and now im going down to just 10mg. i have an appointment in a month though so hopefully we can catch it early 140
Reposted by carvercarver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 26/09/2026we need $535 more! thank you all for the support! please keep sharing! 029
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 30/09/2026i was cleanign the cat fountian and i found the pump had leaked green oil into the basin... it was only at the bottom but i threw it away. now we have got just the basin with water and no pump. i'm going to try and get my mom to buy a new one with her cat sympathy 031
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 30/09/2026i do get a lot of ingrown hairs too like since starting T like actually kind of a disgusting violent amount where it's normal for me to just bleed on my clothes every day. so hopefuilly that's it 010
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 30/09/2026it like hurts to flex my chest which is why its freaky but we'll see maybe it's jhust because there's not a lot of flesh there 010
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 30/09/2026thers a spot on my chest that hurts so bad it's not even like breast ffvlesh it's on my sternum it's freaking me out but i know if i went to urgent or something theyd be like idk lollllllll just watch it lol i'm hoping it's like an ingrown hair there's a black spot in hte middle. 110
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 28/09/2026psychosis is definitely going to increase no matter what but im hoping ill be able to handle it better with my level of social support and im hoping as well that i can feel more passion that allows me to cope with hobbies again 030
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 28/09/2026im on a reduced dose of olanzapine 👍 we will see if it helps with the anhedonia or if i just go insane with psychosis again 130
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 28/09/2026i want to paint so bad i keep thinkign of things to paint but nothing is hitgtin the perfect spot of "feasible" and "exciting" 020
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 28/09/2026thinking of when i fumbled a friendship wihth a trans person in my apartment parking lot </3 can life be good for someone 040
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 28/09/2026listening to music over the top of a clay cracking compilation video on youtube feeling very autistic 030
Reposted by carvercarver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 20/09/2026hi, my girlfriend and i have been looking for work for months but it's increasingly difficult as two out trans people. we still have no way of earning the $889 needed for rent by the 6th. if you see this id really appreciate if you could share. thank you all for the support. v / ppl are @ muzzlelad 119
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 27/09/2026i need to get top surgery for real so i stop being offended when i see giant breasts characters because i subconsciously relate them to me with giant breasts and think i hate that kind of attention so therefore this anime furry with huge boobs must feel objectified too 020
Reposted by carverburm @jrshitbitchbear.bsky.social · 27/09/2026>be grug >get pull over by stonecop >he find dreamroot >fired >my face when 063
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 26/09/2026we need $535 more! thank you all for the support! please keep sharing! 029
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 26/09/2026my ears are both plugged like im sick it's really pissing me off i have pressure in my skull too like just get sick already 010
carver @muzzlelad.bsky.social · 25/09/2026my earrs are both plugged its llike my head is a balloon 010
Reposted by carverjess m. ☕🍂 @jametc.bsky.social · 24/09/2026Like what the fuck are we doing that this isn't being brought up at every meeting. Chat gpt is responsible for one of the worst shootings in Canadian history. I want this banned immediately 2793308
Reposted by carvervomitt boy -> HOWLOWEEN! @meatvomitt.bsky.social · 25/09/2026i made a silly like guy :3 13826167
