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@muselessblues.bsky.social

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37, She/Her, Bi , Auckland NZ Yorkshire Kiwi, Social Introvert in my BL/ KPOP era, multi-fandom mess, Fanfic & Podcast Addict, writer. #amwriting #truecrime #STAY #blink

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 29/07/2025

Not happy about all the crappy weather we've been having and given I'm already on the edge of a cold (which I refuse to give into untill my tattoo on Saturday) I will be using it as an excuse to work from home tomorrow. I hate wet weather like so much...especially if it's windy. Like nope.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 27/07/2025

At least I managed to grab the pre-orders I wanted as my stay week present to myself despite the excitement and annoyance. Still I do have to get up early for work (even if I don't want to 🙃)

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 27/07/2025

Ugh I am so fricking annoyed especially after speaking to two customer service reps in the space of 30 minutes. I'll try again later today or even tomorrow and hopefully then the block will be lifted.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 27/07/2025

....or even if it's because I'm making these purchases in the middle of the night. It's still not on my dude....like I moved money from my savings, was adding the MFA codes and everything so I was prepared to buy them.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 27/07/2025

Erm bank....not that I don't love you looking after my money and all but just because I maybe spent more this weekend than I normally do is no reason to flag my purchases now as fraudulent and decline my card.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 18/07/2025

I honestly wish I had never taken this work on....and that I wasn't the only person who knew how to do it. it would make things so much easier having someone to share this with.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 18/07/2025

excuse me while I now try and sleep off this post seizure headache and try not to stress about the work that will now have to wait till Monday

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 18/07/2025

nothing like the financial work that stresses me out to hell triggering a seizure today to make me realize I can't keep going like this every month. it makes my bosses new working arrangements proposed to start next week not feel like they will make any difference at all.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 03/07/2025

I just need to take it day by day...remind her how much I love her and get as many cuddles as I can while I can. Thinking like that hurts but what other choice do I have?

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 03/07/2025

We have a bit of a reprive for me to get my head around it but she seems so fragile after coming back from the vet that I don't think we'll get the full 3 weeks somehow. And even if we do will it really make it any easier for me to let her go?

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 03/07/2025

Got some bad news about my elderly cat which is putting me through an emotional wringer. Given she's 17 with hyperthyroidism I knew it was only a matter of time until there was no other option than THAT. But it doesn't make the reality any easier to handle.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 14/06/2025

*assed. I'm just so over it at the moment. Over work, over people and life at this point. If I was eating in my room at this moment I doubt I'd even be missed tbh.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 14/06/2025

I'm so tired of trying to check with my mum only to get nothing back. Why should I i keep trying is she can't be asked?

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 14/06/2025

Yes that's no excuse for how I acted to my dad but neither my sister or mum not having checked in with me recently enough to understand. I known it's a 2 way street but there just feels like no opportunity to do so. And I'm only acknowledged when I'm useful if that.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 14/06/2025

Wow nothing like getting bitched at by my sister when my dad can't see what's in front of him. My anxiety has been flaring up majorly the past couple of days and yet like always I don't feel like I can say anything. I still don't know what's triggering it but have a clue that work might be it.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 11/06/2025

Honestly adulting is so exhausting. If I didn't have Stray kids (& 3racha's) songs playing during my work days I don't think I would be able to bear it half as much.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 11/06/2025

On the positive side I am looking forward to my packages of Stray kids merch coming (even if some may take longer than others). I just have to restrain the urge to buy more for the good of my bank account till next pay day. 😭😭

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 11/06/2025

The whole me being made to do financial stuff at work is getting worse and more indepth since I now find myself responsible for damned cost reconciliations on top of the hassle of the related interim invoices. I hate financial stuff so fucking MUCH!!!!

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 02/06/2025

My mental health has been so bad the last few days...not sure everything if it's because something else has triggered me recently but it's left me crying for no reason and sleeping way more than normal which are warning signs. Hopefully when I go back to work I'll even out again.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 02/06/2025

Thankful af that my mum changed the channel on yet another anti fast food program. They are so triggering af which is the last thing I need especially when I'm not in the right headspace at the moment.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 31/05/2025

So that's a hard pass on not restricting you me thinks....now back to my regular stray kids scrolling.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 31/05/2025

Lmfao yeah because you really love me when you rarely interact with me otherwise. I don't fucking think so.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 31/05/2025

#thatmomentwhen you are clearing your spam message requests on ig and see a blocked message from an Aunt on my dad's side about 'I love my nieces' day. Needless to say it's say it's still sitting blocked 🤭

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 17/05/2025

Got a major headache and now after an email from my tattooist about my last appointment with them before they retire (which only made it worse due to everything looking wrong 🤦🏻‍♀️) I just want to go back into my room and drown in skz code.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 17/05/2025

Might have managed to talk my way out of it by agreeing to look after my elderly sick cat...depending on what my sister says. I do feel guilty for missing out on spending time with my nieces but unless they come up with an alternative it is what it is.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 17/05/2025

My parents have brought up a camping trip and asked if I wanted to go 🙃 I don't really want to but as my sister and nieces are going too I feel like I don't have much choice but to go. If it's too much of an issue I'll stay...just hope my back will be able to handle the sleeping arrangements.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 16/05/2025

Now bring on my overdue much needed nap and the weekend yush!!!

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 16/05/2025

Feeling proud of myself for actually telling the boss it will have to wait till first thing Monday when I can speak to the financial gurus. Before I would have stressed myself out about working it out and stayed online way longer than I should.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 16/05/2025

With both financial gurus picking up their kids and our senior having no idea I think I'm gonna have to call it and tell her I need help that I can't get untill Monday. Hopefully she'll reallocate but if not tough I've done my 8 hrs so I'm not staying online more than I have to.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 16/05/2025

She seems to keep doing this now....giving me financial stuff no matter how many times I tell her it's my weakness. Having to deal with spreadsheets for a government authority is getting on my last nerve for this exact reason because it's all knitty gritty financial stuff.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 16/05/2025

I hate that my boss thinks just because I don't have kids to pick up or look after that it means I will stay online longer to do some 'urgent work'. Especially when the jokes on her as I have no idea what to do without our financial gurus.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 05/05/2025

Not looking forward to working in the office tomorrow since it will be the one Tuesday a fortnight when my boss is there as well. 🙃 She's one of those people who cannot be quiet to save her life...which means I can't concentrate properly & can't just listen to music without being disturbed.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 03/05/2025

Got my nose and Helix piercing done and got to admit my nose hurt more than I thought it would. Gotta admit I keep getting distracted by my nose piercing out the corner of my eye though....that's gonna take a while to get used to 🫠

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 03/05/2025

That moment when your 90's kid experience with Pokémon helps you talk with your niece about them....well at least with the original ones anyway. Thank God for the pokedex website or I would be lost with the new ones tbh

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 26/04/2025

I can't see myself watching it alone tbh but can see why people get addicted to it...kinda???

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 26/04/2025

Oh sweet god and heaven the world must have ended since I was watching the Kardashians 😶 Only because my sister was watching it while doing our nails but I had managed to get away with not watching it so far!!

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 22/04/2025

I don't think my dad realises how triggering it is everytime that he makes a comment on my diet or my food. You would have thought he'd realise this everytime I snap at him about it but nope...he just keeps pushing. He reacts the same whenever we question his diet so I wonder where I got that from🤔

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 22/04/2025

Felix will always be my main bias but Bang chan is right up there in no.2. I don't get how people can hate him so much....if you do gtfo. 😡

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 22/04/2025

Spent most of last night and early this morning indulging my inner kpop fan and watching memes/crack vids. Ngl the ones about how good of a dad bangchan is to the rest of the stray kids made me tear up so much ..twice as much when I saw them appreciating him 😍😍

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 18/04/2025

Yay my power's back!!!! Thanks Vector you are a legend!!!

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 18/04/2025

Was enjoying watching #mypersonalweatherman again while ex tropical cyclone tam was passing....right up until the storm decided to kill our power ugh. Hopefully it will be fixed in the morning as it seems go be getting less intense...as it passes.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 17/04/2025

Not gonna lie I am already regretting this arrangement but know there's no point saying anything because the paperwork is done. I just wish my dad would just be more mindful with his actions and words ffs.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 17/04/2025

Some of his rules for the freezer were pedantic af about what we can & can't put in it. He also said we shouldn't put 'unhealthy things' in it which pissed me off so much, it's like excuse you wtaf? But what got me the most was he sent an email about this on the day we legally got the house!!!

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 17/04/2025

Also....when you own a house you're not supposed to still follow your parents rules right? You're supposed to be able to do what you want since you...OWN THE HOUSE. But my dad keeps creating new rules about the power and a new freezer for us. It makes me feel like he doesn't see us as actual adults

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 17/04/2025

I don't know why but I honestly thought I would get more of a say as part owner since I'm contributing more. But if anything it really does feel like I'm a silent partner on the financial side and nothing more.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 17/04/2025

Welp the house sale went through last week and I'm now a partial home owner...which didn't really kick into I got paid this week. But it still doesn't feel real as not much has changed since the parents and sister still seem to make the majority of decisions without talking to me....

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 24/03/2025

And honestly she did ask me if I was ok....wtf did she expect me to say? 'Oh yeah I'm fine,you guys are just planning on taking most of my paycheck but hey sure don't worry about it.' What fucking world is she living in ffs?!?!

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 24/03/2025

I'm not even gonna bother trying to discuss it anymore tbh because it makes no difference and I just end up being an emotional punching bag. Fuck this so much.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 24/03/2025

The feeling of being just a bank is starting to get worse and worse as I am not asked about important decisions about stuff like rates. It feels like my dad and sister get the say and I'm just expected to fall in line. And getting my head bitten off by my mum when I verbalize this doesn't help.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 23/03/2025

It's not like my contributing will change anything...I can't paint my room black or anything that I want with the parents still having the main say it's almost like I'm a silent partner that has no real say. 🙃

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