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@muselessblues.bsky.social

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37, She/Her, Bi , Auckland NZ Yorkshire Kiwi, Social Introvert in my BL/ KPOP era, multi-fandom mess, Fanfic & Podcast Addict, writer. #amwriting #truecrime #STAY #blink

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 29/07/2025

Not happy about all the crappy weather we've been having and given I'm already on the edge of a cold (which I refuse to give into untill my tattoo on Saturday) I will be using it as an excuse to work from home tomorrow. I hate wet weather like so much...especially if it's windy. Like nope.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 27/07/2025

Erm bank....not that I don't love you looking after my money and all but just because I maybe spent more this weekend than I normally do is no reason to flag my purchases now as fraudulent and decline my card.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 18/07/2025

nothing like the financial work that stresses me out to hell triggering a seizure today to make me realize I can't keep going like this every month. it makes my bosses new working arrangements proposed to start next week not feel like they will make any difference at all.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 03/07/2025

Got some bad news about my elderly cat which is putting me through an emotional wringer. Given she's 17 with hyperthyroidism I knew it was only a matter of time until there was no other option than THAT. But it doesn't make the reality any easier to handle.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 14/06/2025

Wow nothing like getting bitched at by my sister when my dad can't see what's in front of him. My anxiety has been flaring up majorly the past couple of days and yet like always I don't feel like I can say anything. I still don't know what's triggering it but have a clue that work might be it.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 11/06/2025

The whole me being made to do financial stuff at work is getting worse and more indepth since I now find myself responsible for damned cost reconciliations on top of the hassle of the related interim invoices. I hate financial stuff so fucking MUCH!!!!

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 02/06/2025

Thankful af that my mum changed the channel on yet another anti fast food program. They are so triggering af which is the last thing I need especially when I'm not in the right headspace at the moment.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 31/05/2025

#thatmomentwhen you are clearing your spam message requests on ig and see a blocked message from an Aunt on my dad's side about 'I love my nieces' day. Needless to say it's say it's still sitting blocked 🤭

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 17/05/2025

Got a major headache and now after an email from my tattooist about my last appointment with them before they retire (which only made it worse due to everything looking wrong 🤦🏻‍♀️) I just want to go back into my room and drown in skz code.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 17/05/2025

My parents have brought up a camping trip and asked if I wanted to go 🙃 I don't really want to but as my sister and nieces are going too I feel like I don't have much choice but to go. If it's too much of an issue I'll stay...just hope my back will be able to handle the sleeping arrangements.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 16/05/2025

I hate that my boss thinks just because I don't have kids to pick up or look after that it means I will stay online longer to do some 'urgent work'. Especially when the jokes on her as I have no idea what to do without our financial gurus.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 05/05/2025

Not looking forward to working in the office tomorrow since it will be the one Tuesday a fortnight when my boss is there as well. 🙃 She's one of those people who cannot be quiet to save her life...which means I can't concentrate properly & can't just listen to music without being disturbed.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 03/05/2025

Got my nose and Helix piercing done and got to admit my nose hurt more than I thought it would. Gotta admit I keep getting distracted by my nose piercing out the corner of my eye though....that's gonna take a while to get used to 🫠

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 03/05/2025

That moment when your 90's kid experience with Pokémon helps you talk with your niece about them....well at least with the original ones anyway. Thank God for the pokedex website or I would be lost with the new ones tbh

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 26/04/2025

Oh sweet god and heaven the world must have ended since I was watching the Kardashians 😶 Only because my sister was watching it while doing our nails but I had managed to get away with not watching it so far!!

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 22/04/2025

I don't think my dad realises how triggering it is everytime that he makes a comment on my diet or my food. You would have thought he'd realise this everytime I snap at him about it but nope...he just keeps pushing. He reacts the same whenever we question his diet so I wonder where I got that from🤔

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 22/04/2025

Spent most of last night and early this morning indulging my inner kpop fan and watching memes/crack vids. Ngl the ones about how good of a dad bangchan is to the rest of the stray kids made me tear up so much ..twice as much when I saw them appreciating him 😍😍

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 18/04/2025

Was enjoying watching #mypersonalweatherman again while ex tropical cyclone tam was passing....right up until the storm decided to kill our power ugh. Hopefully it will be fixed in the morning as it seems go be getting less intense...as it passes.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 17/04/2025

Welp the house sale went through last week and I'm now a partial home owner...which didn't really kick into I got paid this week. But it still doesn't feel real as not much has changed since the parents and sister still seem to make the majority of decisions without talking to me....

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 24/03/2025

The feeling of being just a bank is starting to get worse and worse as I am not asked about important decisions about stuff like rates. It feels like my dad and sister get the say and I'm just expected to fall in line. And getting my head bitten off by my mum when I verbalize this doesn't help.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 23/03/2025

Starting to feel a bit like I am nothing but a bank to my parents and sister atm. Yes I may not know anything about DIY (and I intend it to stay that way if I can) but still it would be nice if I was included a bit more. Admittedly this weekend I have felt like doing nothing as much as possible...

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 19/03/2025

Bracing myself for an early night and ridiculously early morning alarm so I can get up for my earlier commute tomorrow. Which give my bedtime on a Thursday is usually later is saying something...especially when I know my anxiety will keep waking me up so I don't sleep through my alarm.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 19/03/2025

Don't really appreciate how my boss has taken away my autonomy the past few days. First she decided to ask a colleague for a ride for me going to another office tomorrow which is just awkward. I will be a bit uncertain about using a new bus route sure but I enjoy having time to myself on my comute.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 16/03/2025

I'm slowly starting to warm up to my sister's friend who is now her flatmate. Our personalities kind of match more than I was expecting for one of her friends which is kind of unusual. But I am always mindful of giving them space to do stuff alone since I think that's what my sister needs atm.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 11/03/2025

The whole process of changing owner ship of the house is getting to be a real headache. I thought it would be as simple as getting a sign off on the mortgage and signing on the dotted line. But nope, I now have to worry about making a will, getting a lawyer and doing anti laundering crap.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 10/03/2025

Wow nothing I love than the prospect of working in the office every day all week for the next two weeks. All because the electric company will be messing things around meaning I can't work from home like I normally would.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 07/03/2025

Work today was emotionally, mentally and physically exhausting. Like having to come up with a process for financials for applications related to new legislation that no-one else is supposedly going to look after is bullshit. Good thing my senior is looking to advocate for me on this on Monday.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 06/03/2025

Since I woke up this morning, my right wrist has been in absolute agony. I don't know if I slept in a weird position or if this is something to do with the 12 applications I manually lodged consecutively one day at work but geez.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 03/03/2025

Just had an informalish mortgage meeting with our broker and I didn't understand anything. Made the mistake of telling my dad that and he tried to dumb it down...and still

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 28/02/2025

Me: *goes to the effort of making sure the house is relatively clean for when the parents come back* Mum: Did you actually do the cat's litter box? Me: yes I did Mum: well it looks a mess now....can you clean it? Me: *to myself* why the fuck did I bother if she only picks up on that?

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 27/02/2025

Me: *takes day off to help sister with childcare when parents away* My nieces: I want this Me: *goes to give it to her* My niece: no I want it from Mum (x100) Me: wow definitely an I want mum kind of day....

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 26/02/2025

Anyone else find that when around a toddler their programs or music just ends up becoming asmr after a while.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 23/02/2025

Since I previously spoke of the negativity in my life.... One of my uncle's on my dad's side was talking to him about stuff...you know bro talking to bro. But it kind of irks me how he didn't ask after me...or my mum. Only my sister and my dad

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 23/02/2025

Wow nothing I love more than my sister's mother in law making an unexpected appearance and bringing down the good vibes with her negativity. And she wonders why we don't ask her over or to help out much....

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 23/02/2025

Me *goes into Lush* Shop assistant: can I help you with or...omg I love your #captainamerica tattoo!! Shop assistant: and I love your #shadowhunters tattoo!! I've read the books and watched the show. Your tattoos are so cool! Me: *awkward af* thanks. *welp looks like I gotta buy something now...*

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 19/02/2025

My anxiety has been bad the past few days...and seemed to spike today when I had an email about more stuff needed for my mortgage on top of a work process for a new legislation I'm having to put together & learn as I go. Did I do something wrong in a previous life or something????

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 19/02/2025

#thatmomentwhen you realise the source of one of your worst habits is something you saw one of your parents doing. Worse thing is that they are still doing it even now.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 17/02/2025

First work day of the week and I'm already knackered af. If I had my way and the parents weren't here I would probably still be sleeping not gonna lie.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 16/02/2025

Wow nothing I love more than being lectured by my parents about putting too much in the washing machine.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 16/02/2025

It's felt weird without the nieces around the last few days...I did see the younger on Friday while working from home but it's still been strange. Even if I don't see them I hear them playing in the garden or get lots of pics or videos via my mum. I hope this isn't a sign of things to come.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 12/02/2025

Things seem to be at a stand still with the ex brother in law (or exbil as I'll call him now) as he talks to a mortgage broker & lawyer while we wait to here from our mortgage broker. He's also supposedly wanting to start having the nieces overnight...

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 06/02/2025

Me: *comes out of my refreshing af shower* My mum: *cursing and spitting about the ex brother in law and his mother to my dad* Me to myself: oh fuck what's he done or said now?

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 05/02/2025

Watching the greatest race leg in Thailand and am jealous af not gonna lie.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 01/02/2025

Anyone else get really REALLY bad headaches when the weather is humid af?

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 01/02/2025

Made it through my first tattoo appointment of the month...despite being over stimulated af even while listening to podcasts. Glad I managed to get my buzz back though.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 31/01/2025

Bit of a set back with my therapist which has left me back at square one in my search. Possibly my mistake for mentioning how my epilepsy is triggered by anxiety and stress as she wanted to see me in person.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 30/01/2025

My sterek fic I posted on ao3 years ago: *sitting around minding it's own business* *8 years later* Random commenter out of the blue: Hey you should write Derek's pov Me:

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 26/01/2025

Made it through the trip back and am knackered beyond belief. I do feel closer to my sister which is good after a while of uncertainty on my part & I love my nieces don't get me wrong but holy shit do I need tomorrow to destress. Hopefully doing this will mean I have accrued enough Homebody time.

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 25/01/2025

I didn't know how to tell my sister that I don't like hot dogs (after the whole Atkins diet fiasco via our parents where we ate nothing but them for God knows how long) but these veggies ones aren't so bad....even if my stomach is kind of not keen...

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𝕱𝖆𝖞𝖊 🇳🇿🇬🇧➰ @muselessblues.bsky.social · 24/01/2025

Never thought I would be sharing a room with my 4 year old niece tonight honestly....idk how I will be able to get any sleep since now is her bedtime not mine and I am anything but tired.

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