iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 10h

my partner and i may have developed an emotional attachment to a ball of sugar. it has survived three sugar refills unmolested, and i just greeted it out loud while making my chai.

an open clear plastic pot of sugar on a windowsill. atop the greater mass of dark brown sugar rests an irregularly formed ball, compacted ball of the same.

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 05/10/2026

a truly thoughtful card, given at the right time, can mean so much more than its author might realise

a handwritten card, largely obscured by the envelope in which it was given (labelled ‘Happy Birthday’).
the last two lines of the card read:
for ever
you are Her

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 02/10/2026

oh, you're into older women? you think problematic age gaps are hot? rest assured, i have matters well in hand.

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 02/10/2026

we can only offer our sincerest apologies, and ask for your patience and understanding in this difficult time

a sad and soggy millennia in the shower, with multuole trails of dye run-off staining their shoulders and chest, undeniable marks of shame and guilt

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 02/10/2026

it is with genuine regret i must finally admit that my hair is not naturally teal. (also i was a little bored waiting to wash out the dye)

a shoulders-up selfie of millennia, bare-shouldered and facing the camera with a slightly raised chin and a gentle smirk. her head is at a gentle tilt, the tell-tale signs of fresh dye loaded into her slicked-back hair and staining her scalp, ears and shoulders. she is standing in front of a white wall with a sizeable window, itself covered by a thin, pale green curtain with vertical green stripes. above her head, raw-edged wooden beams and bare wooden ceiling jut into the shot.

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 30/09/2026

pleasing photos of oneself are a precious commodity, well-worth hoarding; dipping into the archives for a little self-appreciation can spill sunshine on the darkest of moods.

a picture of millennia, chin raised, half-dressed in black undergarments including an underbust slip. the image is cropped at her eyeline and waist. she is sitting on the edge of a bed with rumpled mid-grey sheets.

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 26/09/2026

what i can see vs my phone mocking my weak human eyes. this is what i get for going to bed too damn early.

a darkly indistinct and desaturated photo of a country hillside through a kitchen window.

a vibrantly colourful photo of a country hillside through a kitchen window.

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 25/09/2026

congratulations, i played myself. games that changed my brain chemistry, rather than games that my specific maladaptions latched onto.

my 9 games (the 9 games that shaped who i am) —3x3 grid. Dark Castle, Spectre, Wipeout 3, Nevereinter Nights, STALKER: Shadow of Chernobyl, Fallout New Vegas, Divinity: Original Sin Ii, American Truck Simulator, Project Zomboid.

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 16/09/2026

the joys of rural delivery. though we have to head to the next town over to pick up from the PO directly, we're in a postal dead zone.

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 13/09/2026

pademelons! they're tiny wallabies that look like they swallowed a football. they graze and feed their joeys in my garden through spring and summer, and it's a joy to see more and more of them around as the weather gets warmer and the days longer

photo of a pademelon grazing with a joey in its pouch

photo of a pademelon regarding the photographer

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 12/09/2026

tonight we f̶e̶a̶s̶t̶ bleat today sure was a mixed bag try again tomorrow

a wooly-headed millie gazing into the top left corner

a wooly-headed millie, blank eyes, tongue protruding, staring into an unseen horror

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 11/09/2026

although the snake pattern isn’t particularly readable from this angle today — i swear they change position between wears — i like to think of this particular combo as my Gadsden tights, specifically for treading on people (consensually).

a first-person photograph of millie’s legs, clad in snake-design fishnets over yellow tights, outstretched on a blue sofa. a shallow depth of field renders everything past her knees blurry, drawing attention to the curve of her thighs.

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 10/09/2026

the best context is whichever benefits me most in the moment, splish splash, and i think face goo is beoadly great but also SPF50+ is best goo per dollar 👉😎👉 goodnight!

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 10/09/2026

the pills, the pills, yes, rather, it could stand to be moreso, that depends entirely on the context, of course i did i’m a bottomless pool of vanity ,oh gods still gotta finish my pre-bed routine

and thus she brushes her teeth while applying a retinol treatment

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 10/09/2026

funny story, turns out i already took ’em. ugh, i really oughta sleep it off and try again tomorrow.

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 10/09/2026

i thought i dropped my pills, sorry for shining the light in your eyes like that

millie holding a lamp in front of her face

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 10/09/2026

oh hey sure so long as you’re comfy back there! is the dust bothering you?

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 05/09/2026

it is ridiculous to me that i can feel like rough-hewn shit and look like this, versus me ten years ago (also feeling like rough-hewn shit albeit for entirely different, now-resolved reasons). that beard was doing a lot of heavy lifting.

a selfie of millie, sitting at her desk with a blank expression. she’s tired, messy, hair in her face.

a grainy, starkly-lit b+w selfie of millie ~5 years pre-transition. not a bad beard, for a girl.

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 02/09/2026

decades later than i’d like, but this is the closest i’ve ever vibe-matched my childhood dreams of being a tomboy

millennia, getting ready for the day, taking a bathroom mirror selfie whilst clad in a towelling robe, open at the chest and held closed at the abdomen to show cleavage and some belly.

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 29/08/2026

you ever just get the urge to take an oddly-framed selfie and process the shit out of it? no? me neither —

a low-angle, close-up shot of a millennia. her face is angled away from the camera, with her near eye obscured by a strand of hair. intimate and dreamlike, the photo has been manipulated to create an artificially hypersaturated image, leaning into strong pink and orange tones for the background, skin rendered in magenta, hair a vibrant near-purple blue.

a low-angle, close-up shot of a millennia. her face is angled away from the camera, with her near eye obscured by a strand of hair. intimate and gritty, the photo has been manipulated to create stark black and white image, emphasising the silhouette of her curly hair and light on the planes of her face.

a low-angle, close-up shot of a millennia. her face is angled away from the camera, with her near eye obscured by a strand of hair. distressed and grainy, the photo has been manipulated to create an artificially hypersaturated image with high contrast, her skin redered in bands of white, pink and purple shadow, the background acid yellow with red dithering on the detail, and her teal hair mixing deep blue shadows with coarse turquoise highlights.

a low-angle, close-up shot of a millennia. her face is angled away from the camera, with her near eye obscured by a strand of hair. washed-out and dreamlike, the photo has been manipulated by flipping its darkest shades to white, then inverting the red channel to create a stark duotone image of red mid-shadow details on a cyan base.

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 23/08/2026

thoroughly cleaned and reconditioned, minor surface repairs pending. still, looking alright for two years of daily wear.

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 22/08/2026

can’t believe i’m reduced to polishing my own boots. today’s lows plumbing new depths.

a pair of filthy combat boots sitting on a yellow cloth.

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𝔪𝔦𝔩𝔩𝔢𝔫𝔫𝔦𝔞 𝔠𝔞𝔱𝔞𝔩𝔶𝔰𝔦𝔫𝔤 @millie.fingered.me · 22/08/2026

mental fuckery is so godsdamned weird. brain says i look terrible today, camera disagrees. or maybe i’ve somehow done a camera-friendly makeup look that’s actually weird irl. oh well public time regardless

the author looking just fine actually and worrying about nothing.

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