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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️

@marisa.sayachan.org
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[34, she/her, non-binary, 🇪🇸] Pathetic sad deer with trust issues. SA survivor, broken but slowly healing. The Omelas child of the Doom community. Conflict-averse, but still very opinionated. No minors. 🔞 Website: marisa.sayachan.org

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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 11h
deer can't get enough of this youtube thumbnail
Hex Maniac doing wheelies on a bike with the caption "CAN SHE DO IT?"

source video: https://youtu.be/lsM0_90oMPY
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 14/10/2026
any potential future contributions by her just aren't worth it, as said by the new admin. (this is about GZDoom, but she was promptly also blocked from the UZDoom repo when that came to happen)
I presume it's that Marisa was blocked from contributing to the GZDoom Github repo, recently. Which I was aware of and agreed with with as community administrator, though the push and actual action to do so came from other people (ones that actually work on GZDoom). They're free to speak up if they wish. That said, I'll be locking this thread in a few hours though, as SanyaWaffles as right: This isn't very productive and I don't want to deal with rehashing it yet again.

The simple truth of the matter is that Marisa's potential future contributions aren't worth it. By her own admission she did things that we don't want GZDoom associated with. The admin team (regrettably) stuck their necks out for her far longer than they should have. She was not able to refute or mitigate the claims against her in any satisfactory way. From what I saw, she burned bridges with the people trying to help her internally, even before things went completely sideways in the court of public opinion.

Whether you're on Team "Marisa was [falsely accused / entrapped / emotionally compromised / not accountable for her actions]" or Team "Marisa is a terrible person" doesn't really matter at this point. The damage is done and she isn't coming back, and her privilege of contributing to GZDoom is (for better or worse) part of that. We're all moving on with our separate lives, and I suggest she and hers do the same.

😎
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 14/10/2026
oh if you want deer we can check
This deer can feed almost 6 babies per tiddy, every day
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 14/10/2026
Everyone and their super huge titty makes deer feel humbled with her more reasonable characters.
Ibuki's estimated to be able to feed 9.3 babies per day, per titty.

Fairly reasonable compared to other characters out there with breasts so massive they could feed thousands of babies.
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 14/10/2026
Tim Allen
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 12/10/2026
"we're not fash, we're Spanish", it says... [X] Doubt
Political signage in Spanish that is totally not right-wing nonsense.

From left to right: "cheers, honest judges: for state rights", "we want democracy. electoral law reform. no to Sánchez's dictatorship", "we aren't fash, we are Spanish".
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 12/10/2026
heh heheheh heheheheheheheheheh
UZDoom github repo with 621 issues
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 11/10/2026
fucking son of a bitch...
Art continues to be erased
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 11/10/2026
there he goes again, erasing Demo-chan. and for good measure, also a lesbian flag someone else was drawing.
More drawings, being oerwritten.
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 11/10/2026
"don't draw on the map" are you daft? that's the WHOLE POINT of this site
The Tinkaton is being overwritten. Text above it says "don't draw on the map" in Spanish.
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 11/10/2026
deer finished redrawing Demo-chan so now she's just going to add something new.
A Tinkaton being drawn in Wplace
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 10/10/2026
cheeky edit again
"Dependency" by xkcd with the captions edited as follows:

big structure: "all modern *ZDoom modding & game dev"

tiny peg: "a bunch of contributions by a trans woman from Spain who has been banned since 2023"
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 10/10/2026
oh, a new doom mod on itch? ... ... ... bruh.
The creator of this product has specified that it contains AI-generated text and code.
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 09/10/2026
time to sleep
Pokemon Violet. Selfie with a sleeping Tinkaton.
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 09/10/2026
whee~
Pokemon Violet end card
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 08/10/2026
"nice nice, by the way, MONEY"
Vortex (Building PlanetZDoom.com): "Nice! Speaking of horror maps we're also holding a mapping contest that starts today with $600 in prizes if you're interested :D  "
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 08/10/2026
bombardeen reddit
wertercatt: abort_m.pk3
Mickromash: Those who know
wertercatt: Just get it off archive.org
ItsMeepo2nd: Damn, this brings back some horrible memories
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 08/10/2026
oh, algo tenía que pasar con el tipo este...
Fourier said Jews were "the leprosy and the ruin of the body politic".[29]
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 08/10/2026
interesante 🤔
12axes result: Kropotkinian Anarchism

98% most compatible with socialist philosopher Charles Fourier
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 03/10/2026
🍞
Rula the cat loafing.
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 03/10/2026
oh, that makes sense. had to pick the one term with the most negative connotations to frame her behavior as vile instead of... servile.
fawner (noun, plural fawners):

1. One who fawns; a sycophant.
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 03/10/2026
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 02/10/2026
meow
Lula the fluffy black cat.
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 01/10/2026
with october coming, deer is remembering that one zdoom community map pack she led (her first and last ever), and the absolute mess it all was, and how some of the people who were involved in it have either been horrible to her or silently cut ties with her. and then there was the 4chan weirdo.
Giraffe Man:

HOLY SHIT
I PLAYED THE BOSS FIGHT
I didn't beat it but I played a bit.
and I came instantly while screaming like an autistic monkey
thank you Marisa for making this possibleGiraffe Man:

I literally just busted a fat n u t as soon as I heard the second one
that's a pretty epic quote there
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 30/09/2026
bweh...
pathetic deer selfie
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 30/09/2026
a sprite of a white cat with red eyes against a desaturated green background with white text above saying "wat"
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 28/09/2026
wait wtf happened yesterday
118 views on the Hell Hound itch.io page on September 27th 2026
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 28/09/2026
bruh
u/JeremyJoseph78: Doom mod but In Epstein Island

"Has anyone created a doom mod where doom guy is shooting powerful celebs, politicians and just about any leader in the real world who are on the list as pdf? I would play the shit out of that game."
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 24/09/2026
world's most indecisive LOD
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 22/09/2026
hat
pokemon violet selfie with hatterene
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 22/09/2026
mom obtained
Salazzle in Pokemon Violet (just evolved)
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 18/09/2026
"that cloud looks like SICP"
two miis looking at a cloud shaped like Structure and Interpretation of Computer Programs
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 16/09/2026
Anyway, how do the people on the "good side" react whenever deer speaks out? Well...
kevansevans @kevansevans.bsky.social

I want to preface that I'm of the boat that I want to keep my bluesky drama free, but this has been brought to my attention and I'm quite livid over it, so this is an exception, and I am not interested in returning any engagement.

Shut the fuck up Marisa.

Quoted post: Marisa the Magician @marisa.pw

PS: Props to the one trans indie dev who said (paraphrasing) "I almost thought this was a genuine harassment campaign" after fully falling for it and cutting all ties with me.

Sanya Waffles, shame on you.
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 16/09/2026
... or DMs like this
ARAINA | The Church of
@arainagodtheice.bsky.social

"[a shitload of emojis that will not be transcribed] I want you bad"
"For real"
"Sex"

Marisa's reply: "awawawa wha"

"I really like you"

Marisa's reply: "this is really sudden :s"

"Oh, well you're a map too. Someone spread bad rumors about you. Is it true?"
"...I think I'm confused. Rumors are rumors..."
"I'm 💜"

Marisa's reply: "wha"
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 16/09/2026
also pretty funny when deer arrived on bluesky and got mentions like these
Venezolano Hambreado @venecohambreado.bsky.social

Groomer detected

"Marisa porkeme tocasmi chilito"zaidrune.bsky.social @zaidrune.bsky.social

"ya basta Marisa the Magician solo tengo 5 años"
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 16/09/2026
oh yeah, forgot to include this one too. it's been privated now.
video titled "project antifa - marsia the magician updated (w.i.p.)", featuring a caricature of Marisa being shot to death.
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 16/09/2026
people are very normal
a video titled "Marisa the Magician Easter Egg (original)" by polytross, showing a grotesque caricature of Marisa next to MAP and transgender flags.A video titled "Dumb Doom WADs - Angry_Anna_XMAS_QUEST2.pk3 (Angry Anna : XMAS Quest 2) by Aquarius199, featuring a sidequest in the mod where you assassinate a grotesque caricature of Marisa, also featuring MAP, trans AND progress pride flags.
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 16/09/2026
sometimes you have to witness shit like this
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 16/09/2026
It's funny. Because ever since deer got thrown under the bus, the community has become more and more toxic. bigotry only got stronger and louder. kiwifarms members put out TWO community projects of their own, that shit with the "doom awards" happened, and much, much more.
Carlos Sanchez (Cardboard Marty): I seriously only had to scroll down a couple of your tweets to find you seething at what's happened (and a good instance of "fuck Marty" in there too). You think the Doom community isn't safe for queer people because you were rightfully banned for being a sex pest? What a joke. Please actually seek the help that you claimed you were going to in your letter and move on with your life.
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 16/09/2026
you dig up shit about a cis man's past that's shitty and condemnable: "why are you bringing that up? it happened ages ago and he's a different person now." you do the same about a trans woman:
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 14/09/2026
quick mockup of the HUD for Demon Tamer. wanted to make something less "blocky" this time around, just a few gradient lines to delimit elements. full bust mugshot will be present on the left side like in Hell Hound, when deer gets to draw that.
A colorful fullscreen HUD design overlaid onto a Doom 2 screenshot.

On the left, health and armor (icons will change depending on berserk or armor class, respectively).

On the right, current weapon name and its ammo, plus obligatory counters for the four ammo types.
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 13/09/2026
Yo lo que he encontrado es mi escritorio en 2010. Qué tiempos aquellos...
A Windows 7 desktop. It's the XP Bliss wallpaper but Konata.
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 13/09/2026
oh that is a name deer did not need to be reminded of...
"@luulubuu follows you"
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 13/09/2026
Oh, just a normal encounter in tall grass, yup, yup.
Wild Level 40 Raikou because yes. Pokemon Crystal on RG35XXSP.
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 13/09/2026
yeah, those errors are also present
[  151.035649] amdgpu 0000:0a:00.0: [drm] *ERROR* Unsupported screen format RA24 little-endian (0x34324152)
[  151.084652] amdgpu 0000:0a:00.0: [drm] *ERROR* Unsupported screen format RA24 little-endian (0x34324152)
[  151.091306] amdgpu 0000:0a:00.0: [drm] *ERROR* Unsupported screen format RA24 little-endian (0x34324152)
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 13/09/2026
waow...
Giant Doll Death Machine
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 13/09/2026
something in deer's computer might be failing again... had trouble booting this morning, out of nowhere. whole thing froze then rebooted mid-login, before showing the desktop. it went through eventually after a couple tries, thankfully. scary.
[    2.668971] x86/amd: Previous system reset reason [0x08000800]: an uncorrected error caused a data fabric sync flood event
[    2.668984] [Hardware Error]: System Fatal error.
[    2.668988] fbcon: Taking over console
[    2.668989] [Hardware Error]: CPU:10 (19:21:2) MC5_STATUS[-|UE|MiscV|AddrV|PCC|TCC|SyndV|-|-|-]: 0xbea0000001000108
[    2.668999] [Hardware Error]: Error Addr: 0x01ffffffc0807fa0
[    2.669002] [Hardware Error]: IPID: 0x000500b000000000, Syndrome: 0x000000004d000000

[    2.669007] [Hardware Error]: Execution Unit Ext. Error Code: 0
[    2.669008] [Hardware Error]: cache level: RESV, tx: GEN, mem-tx: GEN
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 11/09/2026
abuse doesn't let you grow
Mental Age: 17

"I laugh at a rolling leaf"
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 10/09/2026
deer doesn't know if she does or does not regret teaching certain things to her miis
"They're scheming a plan to make the whole island love Pedro Sánchez""They're commenting they'd like to have a house identical to Pedro Sánchez's"
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Mari the Deer 🦌🖥️ @marisa.sayachan.org · 08/09/2026
Deer has been making more custom stuff for her Tomodachi island.
Blåhaj next to SICP and the ANSI C bookThe Communist Manifesto
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