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@lowontrash.bsky.social

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🔞 • 29♂ • I post fetish stuff and whine about art >"""Programmer""" of useless things (and a muscle game) >wannabe-smut artist >implier of implications >enjoyer of beef (♂♀), booba (♀ only) lower.neocities.org 🦌🐁🐄🐅🐈🐕🦔🦦

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

🫂

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

maybe one of them would have been willing to mentor me if I had been less difficult to handle

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 13/10/2026

wish I didn't scare people off so readily ._."

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

yay?

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

so many good, even great artists out there... why couldn't I have been one? ;n;

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

wish I'd been able to convince elly to give me art lessons ...or hut, or guz, or aya, or df43, or quadra, or deri, or prince, or sauna, or mere, or adleto, or von, or stagor, or phurreh, or zylo, or mako, or

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

There's a friend who shares 75% smut and 25% cat pics. The smut makes me feel awful (because they always commission superior artists), but I love the cat stuff. If I tell them I don't want to see the smut anymore, I think I run the risk of losing that friendship altogether, and it's important to me.

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

God, sleep feels good

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

or heize, or aaat, or venjii, or oryz, or insanatomy, or newberry, or df43, or hutska, or

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

why do I have to keep waking up?

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

hate my damn life

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

can't do fucking anything right

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

wish I could draw like heartssoul ._.

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

guess who's been doing reverse engineering again

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

Now the *new* one is gonna disappear unexpectedly in a year 😆

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

update: it reappeared briefly and I have been able to move everything using it elsewhere

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

every time I try to learn something in the math or science realms, it's like "fuck you, gotta know calculus first bitch"

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

I wish I was smart enough to learn serious math

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

I disagree, but thanks for the sentiment

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

based

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

why am I not worthy? what did I do wrong?

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

why am I not allowed to be as good as aaat, df43, agon, newberry, hutska, adleto, arata, greentark, alisteir, mako, neko, neekko, quadratouring...

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

I think I'm forgetting what little I knew of how to draw

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 04/09/2026

why do I always have to be a failure ;n;

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

mmm, beer...

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

☝️️ this is true

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

bodybuildeer

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

And then I erased all the good it was worth with the continued stream of bullshit I've put you through.

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

I'm not strong. I'm weak. Whiny. An embarrassment. A burden on my friends and the random people unfortunate enough to stumble near me.

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

I wish I could do something right

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

I wish I could be strong

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

I can't even win in my own lane

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

I'm sorry

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

then you should know it's junk

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

talking will only drag others down with me

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

as if I can even still draw like you remember or imagine

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

I should have learned that I can't, almost 30 years ago

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

why did I ever think I could do something right

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

I hate the taste of rum

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

you're sure as hell winning compared to me

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

I haven't even been posting the new stuff here because it's trash

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

always competing, never winning

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

someone who I watched start out with blender ~2y ago posted something yesterday that I couldn't do in a million years

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

I feel this 110%, man

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

what a waste of carbon I've turned out to be

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

not to be relegated to just commissioning art over and over

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

I wanted to have some worth other than the money in my bank account the ability to *make* things myself

low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

one of the almost extinct days where I had something good going, and I had to get lapped and left behind

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low (on trash) @lowontrash.bsky.social · 22/08/2026

fuck, why do I bother

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