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Dealing with pushed on me.sudden creator grief by humor again OKAY BUT FINALLY I DONT HAVE TO FUXKING THINK BOUT ANOTHERS TASTE CREATING THAT I DONT VIBE WITH AS MUCH AS OG DAYSSS WHORE OUT TIME jkjk unless

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I realize I always relapse into stress n ptsd ocd habits because of you

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All I want is to be the strongest with someone and not alone. And i will have that soon one day, but ONLY with the best I know I deserve now. I will NEVER let anyone hurt me like this, disrespect me like this again.

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So ill devour the concept and past with you, taking back the power and light i blessed you with. Taking it back as mine and using it for ME. Youll be nothing left in the dark but a empty plate. You broke my heart for the last time.

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Ill never forget this. Im never creating with you again. No wonder hecate came to me to warn me to embrace being a vengeful force of nature being when the time comes. The divine does not smile in your favor.

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You were such a fucking liar before when we rekindled You havent changed. But I have, thank you fer reminding me that. Im so sorry to Barry/Berry, you deserved better than her too.

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Need a man who can keep up with me, need a man who protects my intense light and adds to it, need a man who acts like a fucking adult, need a man whos strong inside n out, need a man who matches my freak, need a man who makes me feel safe, need a man who I can tell everything to n not anyone else-

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I like my ex wife as a artist friend n even friend most times But omg sometimes shes so tiring and im glad my rose tinted goggles are gone And I know what i dont need to apologize for like- alot she does to herself dawg idk fuck u want from me rn

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My heart aches so painfully, i dont wanna be alone anymore romantically

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🪼Starry🪼 @lovesickstar.bsky.social · 03/11/2025

Universe, im so grateful for all you bless me with and I love my dreams But oh my god, I am dwindling in my yearning grief for my soulmate Its growing even when I try to blind myself with my fires light, I dont wanna do this far without him im sorry

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Why do I keep being around ppl who hurt my heart Ive been battling with if ive lost my kind pure heart core I used to be too full off post my death rebirth Inside me is terrified that im too disconnected to others feelings now But the few times I open again im disrespected n hurt without intent.

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🪼Starry🪼 @lovesickstar.bsky.social · 03/11/2025

Hoping my new weed pills come in soon cus baby could really use a long overdue sedation night Just a micro dose of drugs like weed n benadryl could do me wonders Like my guilty little resets, better than me derailing back into psychosis so yanno Tldr: im melancholic again lately wanna drug night

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🪼Starry🪼 @lovesickstar.bsky.social · 03/11/2025

My ma seriously irritates me sometimes tryin to talk to her, shes fr a airhead n im a patient person with processing issues but omg I repeat myself like 5 fucking times for one reply that cant be simplified anymore but shes screwed by her selfish driven thoughts usually even when its something nice

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🪼Starry🪼 @lovesickstar.bsky.social · 02/11/2025

Im so fucking sick n tired of everyone being so selfish, everyone loves to interrupt me to talk bout themselves or others No wonder rebirth me was born with more protective selfishness, ill fight fer that kid me more than anyone else has. Im tired of being disrespected

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🪼Starry🪼 @lovesickstar.bsky.social · 02/11/2025

I realized that I still put too much quiet faith in others changing that ive needed for so long - but thats not working in favor of my duty to my inner self at all So! I realize I truly do need new better people to me and I wanna move forward and have more independence till I find better to rely on

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🪼Starry🪼 @lovesickstar.bsky.social · 01/11/2025

Just cus i moved on mostly, dont mean it dont hurt to hear ya talk about another man

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🪼Starry🪼 @lovesickstar.bsky.social · 22/10/2025

Clenched my fists so angered I felt like i was gunna draw blood from my new longer nails Havent punched stuff in a while I can only take on others selfishness so much that they dont even acknowledge small or big Yer so fucking selfish So ill get more selfish For her, me.

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🪼Starry🪼 @lovesickstar.bsky.social · 22/10/2025

Im beyond angry rn But more fuel to build my own independence away from all these people who cant even respect me in the ways I trult want Im tired of excusing selfish behavior just cus it "had no ill intent" Ill create my way out and never let anyone have power over me again unless granted.

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🪼Starry🪼 @lovesickstar.bsky.social · 13/10/2025

Oh curse this poor fools human heart that still roots in some of that corpse. Curse this heart for catching flutters again for a once dead end. It'll only lead to hurt and yet love is the greatest curse. Despite the growing pains, im so happy lately Oh romantic grief, you fickle curse

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🪼Starry🪼 @lovesickstar.bsky.social · 10/10/2025

Its crazy with a dream of becoming as big as I wanna be that like esp as a psychic I can feel shit like a web And random things hit me like omg I have people out in the world who will someday be a huge huge fan of me or my stuff just not yet ehe Even future stalkers ,, inevitable with any fame

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🪼Starry🪼 @lovesickstar.bsky.social · 04/10/2025

I have vent accounts obv but omfg I hate following vent accounts cus like I dont wanna see yer doom spam Just like I dont want anyone following mine. I get it, gotta let out yer steam but I dont wanna see constant others dread spam, bsky needs to add private accounts cus I wanna priv mine as well

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🪼Starry🪼 @lovesickstar.bsky.social · 30/09/2025

I always get ahead of myself with my silly heart even in my rebirth, I'm a silly star I must still keep my distance even with you still, I don't wanna give more than I receive ever again even if its my nature so thats why I space away

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Every romantic thing, i see instantly makes me mournfully cry

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When you end up sitting on the toilet before shower not even needing it, wasting 4 hours because your depression is making you slow at stuff again and your processing disorders gets worse

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My brain is slowly being infested with suicidal thoughts again im too tired to manage off like usual but luckily I wanna live overall now in life,,

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My romance grief is slowly eating me alive and for someone so surrounded by friends and family more than ever before now - i feel so fucking lonely anyways Makes me feel so selfish But seriously its the main thing still drowning me in bad mental state despite being chill happy w other shit

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🪼Starry🪼 @lovesickstar.bsky.social · 21/09/2025

My period is making my depression worse chat

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I need to be fucked by a husband I don't have so fucking bad, it's annoying I'm tired of waiting Where's my husband

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🪼Starry🪼 @lovesickstar.bsky.social · 15/09/2025

I just want the noise in my head to shut up .for a little is all. And weed benny combo. Is nice to sedate my brajn

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Bro your anger and how crazy you can get are not the flex you think it is, you're unhealthy and you don't cope healthily but you're just being avoidant and making yourself feel better about having unhealed unsolved issues.

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I think im just so tired lately literally, my energy is like when im anemic but im not anemic idk

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I just want to be allowed space to fill and not keep dimming myself or lessening my room so others fit first

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At the same time im so socially lonely wtf is wrong with meeeee dawg im annoying myself with this crap

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Idk why i waste my breath anymore, am I even being truly heard anymore Part of it feels like I am with everyone but then again theres a feeling of disconnect I havent not felt with anyone Im craving a connection I havent been able to find since birth

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Don't talk to me, it just makes me feel sad these days in the end, idk why but im just happier to myself Why am I so socially aversed now, has all the disappointment all my life caught up to me I dont wanna fall into a life of a heroic light but so alone in hidden truth

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What a strange place to be in, I want to live but im so exhausted. Im happier than ever yet so melancholic drowned. I have wonderful support but I feel more alone than ever in a sense. I just want my divine other half, im selfish

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