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Encountered another twt fight in Oshi's fandom... Anyway *blocks to protect my sanity*

🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

Someone stop me, I had a mild anger explosion that led me to an impulsive thought of spending my credit card, this is not healthy...

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 08/10/2026

Part of me wants to plan funds to move out and get out of this country, but idk to where Maybe Australia or somewhere in Europe?

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

I really wish to move out asap and run away from this house because it is one of those moments when I feel unsafe in my own house-

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 03/10/2026

I FUCKIN HATE THIS FAR RIGHT FAMILY I FUCKIN HATE THIS FAR RIGHT FAMILY I FUCKIN HATE THIS FAR RIGHT FAMILY I FUCKIN HATE THIS FAR RIGHT FAMILY I fucking hope I get a cardiac arrest :)

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

Tho Im a lil afraid of posting this publicly because people might twist my words and think Im ruining the fun in the chats (which is not my intention) 💔

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

I really do hope 🫧 gets mods as soon as possible, due to how much off topic his chat can get, even if it was stated in the rules. I'm there to enjoy his experiences, not to hear a stranger's school experiences (Probably most are minors too..)

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 30/09/2026

Not my dad sending me political shit to me. It is hard to live in such environment when politics are one of your anxiety triggers

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 29/09/2026

After two weeks, I think I found comfort in being an Everpearl. ( ´ ▽ ` ) Just a lil lurker, mainly because the chat is a lil too questionable for me (No mods yet so it is justified)

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 27/09/2026

Having another moment of huge dread of the future and dysphoria. I hate it here man I have been thinking of injuring myself

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

Where are the WhatsApp threats? Most of my trauma was from there and Im sure with others were too. They love dickriding that app.

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

Bruh first Brazil now Phillipines, apparently our govs hate us primos. As much as I hate the age verification, I can't escape it anymore cause of this fuckass country

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

I hate dysphoria so much, I hate being a woman but being enby makes me feel like a monster or an impure bitch. Sometimes I ask myself if Im really non binary or a woman in denial thinking is all a phase. Yaay for internalized enbyphobia...

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

Geometry Dash fandom hit different when you were a 13 yo kid, now it became a safe space for predators and weirdos in general

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

🫧♈ has a great duo potential holy shit-

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

A few boys being EDM fans got me so HOOKED they have based tastes

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

Nimue so cute ueueue I want to squish him AUGH

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

TRUE!! I despise that so much!! I like Solan's aesthetic choices! He might not be my fav due to timezones/not my cup of tea but he is funny! :> (Got enamoured over Saeir so far, will still vibe check Nimue and Varis)

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

I'm probably not gonna finish this so take it

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

And I was right, I got enamoured on Nimue for now, gotta see his debut 2.0 later today. I also like Saeir (Brother dont let these guys drag me back into the Vtuber fandom how do I like one media without engaging with the fandom)

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

Hate to be a downer today but I just found out one of my aunts just passed away OUTTA NOWHERE. This is spiking my health anxiety more why there are people dying suddenly ough

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

Okay I saw enough negativity on twt for today, it is fucking up with my brain. On a positive note, despite have already posted about Varis, I also have my eyes on Nimue, he is literally my choice of aesthetics (pastel tones with a soft yet suspicious vibes) 👀

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 11/09/2026

I always felt guilty for blocking people for reasons outside of the general DNI (bigoted, troll, etc). But nowadays I think I need to break that guilt because there are people triggering my perfectionism and making me feel miserable

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

Befriend an adult who might be a potential predator. (Also I DREAD becoming one of them, even with a single public interaction I panic)

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 10/09/2026

Again seeing age discourse on twt. (Been lurking cause of new gen, after a while I might poof again) And that makes me drop a curious fact. One of the main reasons I made my accounts 18+ is that I used to have friends who were outed as groomers/predators and I REFUSE to let a minor in my circle

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 09/09/2026

Dont tell me that Sontaris are all spicy humans. Come on let the siren turn into an actual siren and the spider guy summon spider legs 🙏

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

One pet peeve of mine is that I wished they were more varied on the purple color (Like they went with blue, teal), like we have tons of tones too.

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

Just because I left the Vtuber fandom doesn't mean I'm averting my eyes on a certain new generation. I kinda want to inspect their designs as well 👉👈

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 30/08/2026

Plus, my brain used to hurt every time I opened twitter and saw a random fandom discourse. I am still a casual fan but enjoying in silence is the best choice

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 30/08/2026

Reanalyzing my old posts from main made me realize, leaving the Vtuber fandom was what I needed to do to heal myself... It was a harsh choice but I am feeling so much happier in my own bubble now, plus it makes me want to create more 🙌

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 28/08/2026

Found an alternative of Xcancel called Twitterwebviewer. Today it also received a cease and desist from Muskrat's corp... Another reason of why I want everyone to move to this app LMFAO

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 28/08/2026

Did my part o7 (Psst you should have linked the Cover contact team as well, not all Holo talents use this app as well, despite a decent amount is already crossposting)

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

I'm a lil more healed than I was back then, but I got a strong health anxiety because of that-

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 27/08/2026

5 years- 5 years that i received the news and felt my heart and brain break. Hope you're still racing cars whenever you are, old bud

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 26/08/2026

Man this week is fuckin cursed wdym two well known celebrities passed away in a span of 24 HOURS

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 26/08/2026

Xcancel also received a cease and desist. How am I supposed to lurk without accessing twt now

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 21/08/2026

I can finally breathe holy shit

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 07/08/2026

I wanna go more into details when I feel like it, but Imma hold on a bit because there are chances I might change my mind after a few days lmao

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 07/08/2026

Tbh Im this close to leaving the Vtuber fandom indefinitely. I would still love to draw art with my favs and even fan merch in the future, but GOD the fandom makes me miserable.

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 06/08/2026

Maybe staying in the Bluesky side of this fandom is safer

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 06/08/2026

I might delete these later, been having another anxious breakdown

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 05/08/2026

The thing is I refuse to ask for help publicly or for the same person. I kinda want to do it anonymously

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 05/08/2026

Having another moment of not feeling welcome in any fandom spaces. Do I ask for any advice on what to do or just sit in silence ruminating in my thoughts?

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 03/08/2026

Gang I'm overthinking on going they/she only in my native language and only going they/them elsewhere... I accept my partial femininity, but I hate being a woman lmao.

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 31/07/2026

Most of the setbacks have been tame, but some of them lead to self loathing and, in rare occasions, wishes to be sent to a psych ward. Maybe I will be fine, even when it's been hard to find silver linings.

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🌸🪐 @lost-in-orbit.bsky.social · 31/07/2026

Sometimes I try my best to not let negativity dominate me, but there are some times that I'm unable to cope so I just spill things online, regretting it later. Earlier I had this immense thought of not belonging anymore, which I deserve it, because I didn't behave well because of my wellbeing

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