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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 07/11/2025

im so mean and so pathetic my friend is going through something and im fuckinh jealous because my boyfriend is helping them but he never helped me like that and im so tired and hurt and sad but nobody CARES

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 01/11/2025

time to lose weight until my boyfriend gets concerned again!!

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 01/11/2025

i love lying oh yeah im sober yeah im clean yeah i stopped smoking nah caffeine is just cuz ive been having some late nights yeah ive been getting healthy actually

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 01/11/2025

im probably going to start tracking calories in here or a notes app bc i cant stick to apps for some reason

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 02/10/2025

locking in; an accountability thread

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 28/01/2025

nobody who fully knows my trauma will ever see me as human

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 28/01/2025

i hate myself so fucking bad i died in that bed in that cafe on that couch in that bathroom in that house in his hands theres nothing in me that remains he shouldve fucking killed me

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 09/02/2025

forcing myself to ignore my survival instincts until i slowly erase them because thats a normal thing to want and need

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lix!! | SHedsky @haribobear.bsky.social · 27/12/2024

Back up account for @llawfully.bsky.social in case I get nuked <3

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 31/07/2025

// bodycheck still so fucking fat, jesus CHRIST

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 31/07/2025

ive had lile 0 appetite all day this fast wasnt even tough like deadass 0 appetite i drank tea i rhink it helped that i was walking around all day w my friend who also ddinr get food so i wasnr tempted

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 30/07/2025

couldnt fast yesterfay so im fasting today <33

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 28/07/2025

i cant get myself to actually write stories so ive been writing letters about how i feel and i feel SICK i hate being in touch w my emotions i just like being numb this was a stupid idea

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 28/07/2025

writing long fucking letters about making someone love a lie and then continuing to make someone love a lie i am truly a horrible person

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 28/07/2025

i feel like i am predestined to love the men who leave me

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 28/07/2025

istg i keep losing and gaining the same 5kg i get down to 48kg, i gain up to 53kg, i get down to 48kg, i gain up to 53kg, rinse and repeat i am so sick of this i got down to 44kg one time and i need to get back there, this is sickening

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 27/07/2025

had minimelts today and i was in HEAVENNNNNNNN i havent had those in YEARS 100000/10

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 24/07/2025

need need neeeed to lose my period again the dysphoria is fucking killing me motivation to restrict harder i guess

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 24/07/2025

im lowkey excited to go back, I want my fucking routineeee like consistent wake up time? consistent activities daily? knowing what will happen next? PLEASE like, i love my free time, and getting enough sleep but god this unpredictability is KILLING ME

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 23/07/2025

ACCOUNTANTABILTY THREAD TIME!!!! not low res like i hoped but oh well, need to start somewhere

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 23/07/2025

i need to break it again but noooo my bf is coming over in two days so no cuts ;((( time to bash my knees against the flooorrrrr yipee

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 23/07/2025

I AM BACK I NEED TO GET SICK ENOUGH TO WORRY PPL HI YALL, IM BACCKKKKKKKKK

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acey wacey @ac3y-wac3y.bsky.social · 06/07/2025

im never eating again *eats* im never eating again *eats* im never eating again *eats* im never eating again *eats* im never eating again *eats* im never eating again *eats* im never eating again *eats* im never eating again *eats* im never eating again *eats* im never eating again *eats* im never e

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 06/07/2025

just broke a 3 month unintentional clean streak bc my boyfriend is gonna be away for almost a month and therefore the scars will have enough time to heal bh then yipeeee

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 31/05/2025

i need to cut i need to cut i need to cut i need to cut i need to cut i need to cut i need

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 16/05/2025

im like 53kg rn which at my height is a fucking disgrace im almost bmi 19 i hate myself sm

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 16/05/2025

im back bc i finally gained the self awareness to realize just how fucking fat i ammmmmmm

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 15/04/2025

i just watched a child die a kid 7, from what ive heard a little kid he fell out of a window on the 7th floor couldnt save him im going to throw up i honestly dont know what to do

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 31/03/2025

back at that point of my ed where i sob in grocery shops bc my brain is convinced we dont have any money and therefore buying anything is bad

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 29/03/2025

sending my bf (nonsexual) pics always has the same vibe as taking a bodycheck ngl like heres my body in this clothing please dont notice the fat

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 27/03/2025

havent been restricting mych these past days bc ive just been insanely stressed time to restrict a bit more again

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 27/03/2025

just felt embarrassed bc my bfs parents saw me have an insane reaction to seeing him w a bass in his hands, but then i remembered that hus mom saw him physically stop to stare at my tits, so i think hes having a much more awkward evening rn

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 16/03/2025

nah being groomed by a sh fetishizer didnt affect me and my mental illness that much (i cut my tongue when i want to feel attractive)

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 15/03/2025

he made me forget about calories entirely which is insane like he was so good to me he made me forget about it all i drank lemonade and didnt think about the calories, i tried his milkshake and wasnt afriad jeez, hes dangerous

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 14/03/2025

going on a date tmrw so im not eating any more today despite having a 500 limit bc i dont want to look fat tmrw

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 12/03/2025

idea for tmrw is to not eat anything until lunch, then eat like a bag of jerky maybe and a ricecake which should be around 93 out of my limit of 115 and then we'll see

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 12/03/2025

only 13k today, but most of it was uphill through a forest, so im still happy now back to 5k everyday bc my knees and ankles r not handling it lmaoo

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 11/03/2025

chronic pain and and ed mixing is so fun, wdym i cant walk more than 5k without my ankles becoming a mess and being in severe pain for the next week

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 11/03/2025

15k steps today, im so happy 15k more to come tmrw hopefully my ankles r dead

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 11/03/2025

two awkward people dating is fun until you both "i dont want to make him uncomfortable" your way into being too shy to HOLD HANDS

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 10/03/2025

this was answered for me he asked me out im dating him now he was, in fact, flirting w me

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Bixie ♡ SHedsky @llawfully.bsky.social · 10/03/2025

yall how do I know if hes flirting or being a friendly guy...

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