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lezzy🦐 @lezzyrezzy.bsky.social · 1h

sometimes you manage to forget bubblegum crisis is literally the coolest shit ever

lezzy🦐 @lezzyrezzy.bsky.social · 2h

the male frame is unbecoming of my image. all i seek in life is to be closer to what i idolize. male imagery, the pronouns of he and him, they are incompatible with what my core has registered as the defining mode of existence. i love women so much i became a woman.

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lezzy🦐 @lezzyrezzy.bsky.social · 3h

that's ok you aren't in the sibling listing it would be a problem with

lezzy🦐 @lezzyrezzy.bsky.social · 3h

i objectify miku because dwelling in my heart are the spirits of teto and rei

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Ore @ore0102.bsky.social · 3h

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lezzy🦐 @lezzyrezzy.bsky.social · 5h

the meme of trans women being the modern and growing specialists in various technical fields is a stereotype born from the sense of empowered personal *desperately extending sentence as long as possible waiting to get pegged hard*

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lezzy🦐 @lezzyrezzy.bsky.social · 5h

it took me like a month. maybe a year after? to realize the way i acted throughout all of my childhood and teen years was completely insane and i literally did have girls i liked trying to talk to me and i just did not pick up when it happened and i ended it like. that.

lezzy🦐 @lezzyrezzy.bsky.social · 5h

there were a lot of instances but the one with the longest lasting impact on my psyche that i agonize about to this day was thinking a proper valentines gift for a girl i liked but had trouble talking to but knew liked sao was the first volume of lucifer and the biscuit hammer

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lezzy🦐 @lezzyrezzy.bsky.social · 6h

it's easy for brain chemicals to make you think as much but in most cases, if that's how you feel about yourself, it's probably not true.

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lezzy🦐 @lezzyrezzy.bsky.social · 7h

fuccccck why is my brain so demolished

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lezzy🦐 @lezzyrezzy.bsky.social · 7h

www.youtube.com/watch?v=pHss... i did my best but i always lately feel like i'm not sure that i did anything right. i love this game though

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Studio System : Guardian Angel - Kuso Colonel

YouTube video by kusocolonel

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lezzy🦐 @lezzyrezzy.bsky.social · 9h

ultimately i think any of the worse horror movies i watch this month are just working with the buff of the more i think about alien 3 the more i think there's something kind of complicated about someone's idea for returning to alien's tone to involve ripley befriending a band of silly bald rapists

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lezzy🦐 @lezzyrezzy.bsky.social · 9h

that's a fair reading

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carries the same energy as one of those screen burn horror games. i'm not downright offended but i do feel somewhat confused of what i'm actually supposed to make of what's in front of me beyond its spectacle. like i can see hints of something thematic in there but i guess it's mostly about the look

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movie that's somewhere between political statement about religious fundamentalism and conservative violence and i want to make a retro revenge movie with lots of practical gore effects and wacky lighting and is mostly the latter

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it kinda has a thing going with 80s conservatism and how all-enveloping it is to mandy's life but it's basically 40 minutes of stating that to get to the hour and 20 minutes of nicholas cage walking through faux-retro gore action in slow motion

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don't think i'll ever watch either movie again but i watched alien 3 this month so they're not the first movies to mix vaguely notable thematic grasping with complicated and somewhat avoidant views of how their stories interrogate sexual abuse of women

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i watched it right after francis ford coppola dracula not expecting much out of either movie so it was mostly a one two punch of wow this is a pretty stylized movie about some guys doing things where they occasionally remember women are there (drac got the "novel was bad about this anyway" buff)

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no this is just about nicholas cage's wife getting murdered by religious fundamentalists and bikers and cage murdering them all with an axe in slow motion

lezzy🦐 @lezzyrezzy.bsky.social · 14h

it reminded me a bit of dredd

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my life won't end before they invent the technology that lets you live as a little robot head sitting on a shelf

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lezzy🦐 @lezzyrezzy.bsky.social · 15h

women should be able to disassemble me piece by piece like adachi rei

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lezzy🦐 @lezzyrezzy.bsky.social · 15h

frankenstein is funny because it's one of the two universal monster movies where its changes actually make something thematically distinct and not just dracula but john harker doesn't do anything and the story spontaneously ends halfway through

lezzy🦐 @lezzyrezzy.bsky.social · 15h

i try to look like this sometimes

probably finishing studio system video tomorrow

it also means it inspired byron to fantasize about yuri and inspired percy bysshe shelley to be like "they should let me marry TWO women and have my wife also love the other woman who i love. i have no idea what the term for this is so i'm going to write a really stupid poem to express it"

christabel's a short read so i'd recommend that first, it'll take like, less than an hour. it's one of my favorite instances of, well maybe it's better the author died here, cause as talented as coleridge was that lack of finality is what frees it from being too didactic or 18th century lol

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its also just 100% what inspired the lesbian vampire cause it was a really big deal in the early 1800s and le fanu mentioned it as one of his inspirations. since christabel herself isn't tied to the exact vampire lore and her story is unfinished she's one of the more mysterious figures of the medium

i've often thought there should be some castlevania type thing that brings her into the wider vampire mythos and examines that relationship since it's pretty wild to have the first fictional lesbian vampire just kind of entirely be defined by "a girl fucked her and then got scared of how hot she is"

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have you ever read christabel? that's also worth looking into as to the origins of the lesbian vampire, it's interesting because it doesn't actually hit the same class connotations as vampires themselves so christabel herself is a more neutral figure with no proven narrative guilt or crime

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