iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 11/10/2026

my cousin is a poster. i asked her what it would take to post like this today. she looked at me and said "we can't, we don't know how to"

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 03/10/2026

wish 'speaker for the dead' was a real job

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 01/10/2026

Hate it when people find out I'm competent

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 29/09/2026

the lonely weightiness of a grown life, the expectations of all people, the longing to regress. I guess it is in all eras

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 29/09/2026

got hit with a flashbang grenade today, a nostalgia account ai generating videos of 2007 ... getting guitar hero for Christmas and using a razr at Hollister ... it was very unsettling. like "yea it was sorta like that, but also it wasn't that great"

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 26/09/2026

I wonder if our relationship to characters borders on the casual relationship to spirits sometimes. I mean. If an anthropologist had to describe the immense number of depictions, physical and virtual, of a Pokemon and what role they serve in our society. how would they compare it

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 22/09/2026

and then I log off and get negged into reading Proust. again

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 22/09/2026

on the internet today I took a detour and came across some Nintendo forums where a man named Eliwood wrote very long and eloquent reviews of recent releases. a long thread would follow and many people would respond politely and in quick succession. it was the best part of the day

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 21/09/2026

Is GoToSocial fun to run ? Like teeny tiny ?

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 20/09/2026

There's no way to become the Walter White of coffee without getting into remineralising distilled water

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 19/09/2026

that said I'm not exactly online enough for this to affect me that much. it's all cached beliefs now

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 17/09/2026

It is a very memorable day .. the feast day of St. Hildegard von Bingen

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 14/09/2026

Getting a new stim where I absent-mindedly floss

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 14/09/2026

I think it is really cool to care an awful lot about some mundane thing. Like paper or whatever

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 11/09/2026

there are just a few words I never want on my tongue

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 09/09/2026

tfw stale callers drift, so you quietly keep them canonical

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 08/09/2026

Getting pod people vibe every time online content drops "quietly" in there

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Classic Web @classicweb.site · 08/09/2026

The Best Page In The Universe. in 2003 web.archive.org/web/20030215044334i…

Screenshot of The Best Page In The Universe. in 2003

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 07/09/2026

It's been a good night for matilde's self-esteems

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 06/09/2026

nixos kinda like a nerd lightbulb... even i feel the pull sometimes

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 06/09/2026

Either I say "sorry I haven't been reading much lately" or I say "oh I've started Umineko actually"

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 02/09/2026

feel like i need to re-up and read some more cs lewis

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 01/09/2026

fedi transforming into 9front guy central as we speak

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 31/08/2026

i have never played any gta games and idk i dont really want to start

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 30/08/2026

I want to scream insect insect insect almost every day now

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 25/08/2026

I feel like he could've just called it "Oma" and it would've been better for the implied reference point than making it sound like a form of government. I don't even remotely think of a chef's choice

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 22/08/2026

cool how the album as an art form came into being like extremely recently and is already coexisting with the pre-existing single format, like it's something you can experience in full in this specific way, headphones on the street or whiskey in the living room, and it's specific to now

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 17/08/2026

In the exact same way my father seems stuck in the early 1980s I appear to be stuck in 2004. youtu.be/mJSWeBPrZFs

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 11/08/2026

i feel like in general i agree with Linus' takes, having read his famous autobiography "Just for Fun",

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 11/08/2026

bad takes? on the fediverse?

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 07/08/2026

I think I need to renovate my home server storage solution (add permissioned per-user shares, actual RAID, not use external usb drives) but idk where to start. I need an intervention

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 06/08/2026

got a little lost this morning tracking down physical prints of excel saga .... it's a very 'one day' kind of thing

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 06/08/2026

I only realised today I'm like three recurring things away from just consolidating everything out of gtd apps and into the bullet journal and idk why I don't just make the time and move it over

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 04/08/2026

also i discovered the cathedral downtown does the novus ordo in latin once a month and that's just weird enough that i wanna go

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 04/08/2026

i have sadly stumbled upon the mass production of artificially generated saint iconography sold for profit on print-on-demand marketplaces

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 02/08/2026

idk why we have to make up people to talk to ... human experience is in abundance

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 31/07/2026

kinda comical how much of my diet is espresso, croissant, red wine

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 30/07/2026

i ran like four hometown updates back to back and we are still alive. we continue to yolo

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 29/07/2026

i keep associating debussy with being bullied to the brink of inescapable despair www.youtube.com/watch?v=-wooKIBTvac

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 27/07/2026

girls have a million ways to romance, and a million ways to break up

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 24/07/2026

keybase was cute. I know they're locked up in the basement at Zoom and all but I hope they're doing okay

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 19/07/2026

really enjoyed 'philosophy of the tourist' recently

In the twenty-first-century order, rhizomic mobilisation without misdelivery can only resemble the biopower of Empire. All resistance must begin with the reperformance of misdelivery. I will call this the principle of the tourist. The new solidarity of the twenty-first century begins there.

But since philosophy and religion are inherently activities that strive towards universality, there is actually a contradiction here: a religion that is simply private—something that one might believe in as a mere hobby—is no longer a religion or anything resembling one. But this is all that is allowed in contemporary society, and Rorty believes that this is a good thing.

There happens to be a suffering human before us. We cannot help but approach them. We empathise. For Rorty, this is the basis of solidarity, the basis of ‘us’, and the basis of society. Isn’t this precisely the operation of misdelivery where rewirings create a small-world graph?

> Historically, the Japanese ie has been imagined to be something quite different from the nuclear family. It is said that the ie is centred on economic community rather than blood relations, and is an organisation that can expand relatively flexibly through adoption. It is precisely for this reason that Japanese society was able to smoothly adapt to modernisation by reinterpreting private enterprises as ie.
> — p. 175

> Since the family is a contingent existence in the first place, it can be expanded through chance.
> — p. 176

> To flip this around, it also means that any group that lives together and ‘eats out of the same pot’ can be understood as a family, regardless of sex or reproduction—such a dynamism has existed around the world and continues to exist today.
> — p. 176

> In Japan the word ‘family’ has actually been used with far more flexibility than has been suggested thus far. I say this because lately it has become common for pets such as dogs and cats to be considered as ‘family’. Of course, they are not legally family. But it is an incontrovertible fact that in our society an increasing number of people call their pets ‘family’. There is even health insurance for pets. The expandability of the concept of the family appears here in an extreme form. Because membership in a family can be supported solely with private feelings of love, at times it can even overcome species boundaries—a misdelivery brought on by compassion.

Deleuze once wrote that, while the masochist only has the ego, in contrast the sadist only has the superego. Having only the superego means having only a system that is beyond the ego. When I refer to the libertarian as a sadist, it is based on this understanding of sadism. The libertarian/sadist/Stavrogin has no self. There is only an existence beyond the self. There is only the necessity of the world, thus there is no desire. All things are obtainable, yet nothing is desired. The disease of indifference signifies the lack of self.

The illusion (ghost) of the child is the return of the lost self. In the terms of the previous chapter, it is the ‘uncanny’. The return of the uncanny eats away the superego of the superhuman from within.

A child is born from chance and dies by chance. And then a new child is born from chance and before you know it changes into a necessary being. Ilyusha’s death is overcome through such a movement. We generally call this movement family. Thus, the impotent subject surrounded by children may be impotent, but is certainly not powerless. Children will change the world for us. By tearing their bodies from the gravity of ‘this’-ness that entraps them in solitude and entrusting their fate to children, humans can finally escape the nihilism of Ivan/Stavrogin.

Philosophers, regardless of their era, hate children. However, we were all once children. We were all uncanny. We were all children of chance.

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 19/07/2026

It can be hard not to see the world as a jungle of distortions faraway from some other time or place

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maru @kon.kokoro.garden.ap.brid.gy · 19/07/2026

over the past 8 years I've slowly made myself like bowie's 'never let me down' by just continually replaying the 2018 rerecording

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