iiinova — where your digital self keeps evolving

Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

I don’t know how much more I can take of how I’ve been feeling and how my life has been going. I feel like I’m on the every edge of a full on mental breakdown. #mentalhealth #venting #struggling

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

I wish ao3 would let you filter out series.I'll read a summary& I'm interested but then I see it's apart of a series. (And of course they're a continuation of the same story.) I'm not always in the mood for that. (I do like reading series sometimes!) So I wish we could do that. #ao3 #fanfic

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

(Following is NOT shade to anyone! If you’re happy w/ your results I’m genuinely stoked for u!) I wanted top surgery for a while but I don’t like the nipple results. Plus the reduction in sensitivity. (And I wouldn’t wanna ditch them.) Also,mine are pierced&I 💜 my piercings.It’d be 50/50 if I-

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

Two of the best fictional character arcs I’ve ever seen: Zuko in Avatar: The Last Airbender and Steve Harrington in Stranger Things. HM (many may not agree but I liked it): Kylo Ren in The Rise of Skywalker. (Short lived I know but it ugh so good.)

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

CW/TW//: mental health,kinda heavy. . . . . . . . I think I’ve hit my lowest low&that I’m only just hanging on cuz of my Wellbutrin (already on 300mg). I’m so burned out. Definitely have been in this state for months&it’s finally truly kicking my ass.Still in financial hell.It’s affecting my job-

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 19/09/2026

I’ve had this happen a couple times now. A (usually) brand new account on here that’s strictly about aid for Palestine or something else very serious, reposting my very nsfw content from my 🌶️ page. It makes me so uncomfy. I get wanting more reach but use like anything else please.

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

(3 & 4 are nsfw related but the rest are sfw) A list of things I’m looking forward to once I can finally move out of my parents house. Can you tell which parent I have issues with? 😜 😂 #venting #nsfw #mentalhealth #moving #sendhelp

1).At night not having to close doors, cabinets, etc. really quietly and slowly cause otherwise it’ll wake up my mom.

2). Being able to watch TV at night and being able to do so without the volume having to be super low (cuz once again my mom).

3). Masturbate without having to muffle every noise and be able to use more toys (ones that would be heard easily now). (I’m actually not a SUPER loud person naturally, I can be when it’s right. I just hate having to muffle/fight it.)

4). ^, having the space to do that will also help with my wanting to get decently successful on platforms like OnlyFans,Fansly, etc. I feel like.

5). Have my future partner over at my place and not have to always go to theirs.

6). Being able to do everything on my own schedule and not get pestered to do everything ever on her (my mom’s) schedule.

7). Being able to decorate my space how I want

8). Once stable enough and in the right place, get an (indoor) cat. We used to have cats (got from neighbors-cats would’ve been homeless or taken to a shelter if not) and after the last one passed (2017), my mom said emotionally and financially she was done. I miss having a cat so much.

9). I have made some not so great financial decisions multiple times that still are kicking my ass now. I know I’m an adult who made decisions and choices (I’m not trying to use this as an excuse but more so an explanation), but mental health played a big role. Also past traumas that made it feel like I couldn’t trust the definitely less crazy route for help. I still struggle with that tbh.

10). Having space from my mom. I can tell a lot of what she says and does is stuff that she doesn’t realize how backwards and toxic it is. It is normal and just in her mind. Any attempt to try to explain or defend myself usually results in her thinking I’m just upset or whatever cause I don’t want to admit she’s right or some bullshit. (I can admit when I’m wrong, thank you very much!) It took a while to realize this and some of the gaslighting is really just how she thinks and not a deliberate thing. She barely knows what gaslighting is. It’s insane. (I know it sounds like bs she wouldn’t know but trust me it’s the truth!)

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

They numb Chrissy’s clit&take turns fucking her ass.Make her have multiple ruined orgasms.When it wears off they edge her pussy over&over.Eventually one of them is fucking her (pussy),the other her mouth.Finally let her cum when she makes them both cum. #nsfw #nsfwsteddie #nsfwsteddissy #steddissy

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

Eddie and Steve having rough sex after every corroded coffin show. It’s how Eddie expels the last of his high energy and Steve just fucking loves it. #nsfw #nsfwsteddie #steddie #drabble #fanfic #fanfiction

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

Eddie can’t help it sometimes though and has to unlock Steve. Worships and edges his hard, leaking, cock for hours. Then milks every last drop of cum out of him. He’ll even occasionally let Steve stick in the tip in so he can cum inside Eddie. #nsfw #nsfwsteddie #steddie #drabble #fanfic

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

Steve in a flat cock cage getting fucked within an inch of his life by Eddie’s huge dick. He wants to cum so bad but he can’t with the cage. His cock can’t even get properly hard. But he’s his husband’s fuck toy, and he wouldn’t have it any other way. #nsfw #nsfwsteddie #steddie #drabble #fanfic

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

I have lots of Steddie smutty filth in my brain. But my brain and its ability to translate it into a fic has been uncooperative for ages. Brain, I beg 😩. Hahaha #fanfic #ao3 #steddie #nsfwsteddie #nsfw

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 29/08/2026

Cruel but sweet mean dom Eddie and super sweet and subby Steve Harrington 🙂‍↕️ #nsfw #nsfwsteddie #steddie

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 24/08/2026

When I finally have the money, I will be getting commissioned artwork from some very talented artists. (Definitely at least one Steddie piece.) #art #fanart #steddie

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 17/08/2026

#nsfw #steddie #nsfwsteddie Insatiable Steve,wand vibe on his big clit,making himself cum over&over. Eddie getting home&finding Steve, immediately is hard.He eats out Steve’s pussy,fingers him.Draws out orgasm after orgasm (even after all the prev. ones). Before he finally stuffs him full.

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 08/08/2026

I love watching the videos of Harry Styles talking to his fans at his shows. He’s just getting all the tea. His reactions and advice are freakin’ priceless 😂. (And some of it is actually sound advice haha.) Getting a concert and a gossip session sounds like a great deal.

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 08/08/2026

To whoever made my bowl at chipotle today: may your pillow always be cool (or however you like it), may your favorite place never screw up your order,and may you never lose a sock to the laundry abyss.

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 08/08/2026

Zuko from Avatar: The Last Airbender and Steve Harrington from Stranger Things will always be my two of my favorite redemption/self growth arcs ever. Both done so well and beautifully. #ATLA #Zuko #SteveHarrington #StrangerThings

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 04/08/2026

Steve and Eddie being as disgustingly in love (affectionate) when they’re in their 50s as they were when they were when they were in their early 20s. #steddie #steveharrington #eddiemunson #fluff #nsfw addition . . . . . And they still fuck nasty too 🙂‍↕️. Cuz ya 50s is older but it’s not ancient!

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 03/08/2026

CW//: Spider-Man: Brand New Day spoilers (nothing major though!) . . . . . . . . . . This scene was so funny and while I’d have loved to have heard a lot more of this song, it was still a great choice 💜.

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 03/08/2026

Drunk me is kinda rare these days lol. But I’m an extra sappy drunk 😂. I’ve drunk texted my sisters ex (who I actually have a good relationship with still) and my bff. I still feel like my phone should be monitored or taken away when I’m like this hahahaha.

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 31/07/2026

#nsfw #nsfwsteddie #steddie #drabble #fic Eddie keeping Steve’s soaked, throbbing pussy right on the edge. Steve’s eyes are rolled back,no thoughts.Eddie praises him&calls him a good boy.Steve’s addicted to the feeling.Eddie will go until his body gives out,then it’s nonstop cuming.

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 23/07/2026

Bucky Barnes’s personal growth by the end of The Falcon and The Winter Soldier series will always be so beautiful to me. His response to Yori when he tells him the truth is both so 💔 and a true testament to his growth. He deserves happiness damn it 😭.

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 15/07/2026

I hate seeing slander for Robert Pattinson as Batman! That man is perfect for that role.He’s also a fairly slept on actor IMO.People see Twilight &think that’s all he’s capable of which is so unfair.That series is/was flawed.(As much as I enjoyed it&has a special place in teen Kian’s ♥️.)So 🖕🏻 haters.

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 07/07/2026

youtu.be/ptlsli-QXXc?... This song is rly good! Beautiful Things was not it (IMO) so I was like w/e.But then I started seeing vids of his covers at shows&holy shit! (I have listened to a few other songs of his.) Besides the vocals,💜 the melody changes&stuff.Just so satisfying to my ears.

youtu.be

Benson Boone - The Time Of My Life (Official Music Video)

YouTube video by Benson Boone

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 03/07/2026

Sexual slang words that give me the ick. (Just my opinion!) In no particular order: -nut -prick -member -cummies (🤢, jail!) -kitty cat/kitten (in ref. to vagina) (Can sometimes be funny as a joke.) -goon/gooning/etc. (VERY annoying there’s not a better word…)

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 27/06/2026

Can I just start replying to hateful, bigoted comments I see with you’re a cunt? Is that a thing I can start? Cause fuck these people. Being the “bigger person” feels really whack sometimes.

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

#nsfw #nsfwsteddie #steddie CW//: exhibitionism,public sex CC has a very special show at the end of their tours.18+ only. No 🎥 or 📸 allowed. One part is them performing a mash up of two very sexual songs while Eddie fucks Steve. People who secure tickets get to vote if Steve cums or not.

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

Let me write kinky af smut brain! Please 😩. #nsfw #fanfic #fanfiction #ao3 #writer

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 10/06/2026

Not usually an angst person but… #mikewheeler #eleven #mileven CW/TW//:Suicide . . . . Series Finale AU- after El releases him he breaks free from the military ppl by sheer will.Runs as fast as he can&leaps into the upside down.El is shocked.Finishes exploding right after.He couldn’t live w/o her.

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 09/06/2026

I swear I have a tendency to like movies,etc. majority of people hated 😂. (Except the ATLA movie from 2010, that movie is 🗑️&a disgrace.) Like I enjoyed Thor: Love&Thunder 😭.And while not massively hated, it wasn’t super loved on either,Captain America: Brave New World. Guess I’m a weirdo! 🤪

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

Maybe if my brain will let me, I’ll actually write this. #nsfw #nsfwsteddie #steddie

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 31/05/2026

#nsfw #steddie Eddie is a Dom who specializes in helping clients explore new things for the 1st time (safely). He gets a new one named Steve who wants to explore his submissiveness. Eddie tries so hard to keep it professional,but he falls in love.He breaks down 1 day&confesses.Steve is overjoyed.

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 27/05/2026

I know hateful, bigoted, etc. trolls say stuff cuz they want the attention and clearly have issues, but it’s so hard sometimes to not just be like quit being a fucking asshole and go get some therapy! They’re exhausting and the material is always the same 😒. #venting

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 22/05/2026

The actor who played Wayne Munson has a small role in The Mandalorian and Grogu. I was very surprised haha. I really enjoyed the movie 😊.

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 16/05/2026

I’ve been noticing a trend in TikTok comments where someone comments the name of a random book and author and are like “this book changed my life!” And then there’s replies to the comment hyping it up more or whatever. It’s so fucking annoying! Like what’s the point?!

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 14/05/2026

#nsfw #nsfwbsky #venting #tmi . . . . . . Why can’t I just be a successful enough online sex worker instead of what I actually do for work…. 😩 (I am aware of the potential cons & stuff, but I know in general I’d enjoy it. I have a high drive & everything 😂.)

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 12/05/2026

#nsfw I abhor the words clitty and cummies. Make them go away please for the love of everything 😩. (I’m sorry if those are ones anyone likes.This is just my opinion.)

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 10/05/2026

(1/2) I hate when I get into a fic and then like half way or so into it, the plot derails. It & the logic behind it makes no sense, gets rly unrealistic, etc. (And it can be magical logic or logic based on science/reality.) Feels like I wasted however many hours of my life. I know writers are-

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 08/05/2026

Drew Afualo being an AO3 girlie brings me joy.

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 08/05/2026

Adam Lambert once again dropping a certified banger. Can’t wait for the full album in July!

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 07/05/2026

Not a Steddie fic, but I just saw a 1 in another fandom I like&the author admits they use AI to make it longer& fix grammar issues (😂). Don’t fucking use AI to write your stories.Write it yourself, w/ help from another person,or not at all.Absolutely disgusting. AO3 shouldn’t allow this.

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 05/05/2026

What is a kink/smut idea you think needs more representation in fanfic? Maybe I’ll take a stab! Haha I, however, do not feel comfortable writing the following: -rape -rape play -knife play -age play -pet play -scat -blood #steddie #steddissy #ronance #buckingham #fanfic #ao3 #nsfw

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 04/05/2026

#nsfw #nsfwsteddie #steddie #drabble #fic Nonbinary/trans masc Steve who ended up w/ small breasts. So after working out over a while they look like pecs. Eddie loves spanking Steve’s pecs & pussy hard til he’s about to cum,then buries his face between Steve’s legs & gets every last drop.

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Kian @kians95.bsky.social · 01/05/2026

#nsfw #nsfwbsky CW//: nsfw/personal nsfw,TMI (?) . . . . . . Having the house to myself & being able to use toys I don’t normally get to use cuz they’re too loud is glorious.

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