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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 04/08/2025

I'm going to leave this account up but I will not be posting to it. Find me on X @/kessakcal

Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 30/07/2025

Can't bring my boyfriend to my dad's because my dad is racist Nazi fuck and I just can't do that to someone. Just cause I'm stuck with this creature for a parent doesn't mean I have to involve anyone else in it.

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 30/07/2025

Idk what to do. I'm just a disappointment again and honestly close to cutting ties to my dad again because I just can't perform. Sucks that my family is conditional

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 29/07/2025

Annnnnnd I'm a pussy who's flaked on every plan I've made in the last year. I'm not going

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 28/07/2025

Really close to going full feral over a new favorite character. I watched T W O (2) episodes on Friday and now I'm current in all 144 chapters of the manga. Show/Manga is Gachikuta and it's sick af. Character is Rudo

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a cartoon character with white hair and a white robe

ALT: a cartoon character with white hair and a white robe

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 28/07/2025

Surprise beach trip this weekend, I am going to lose it :( I'm going to go completely off the rails this time and just outright refuse to wear a bathing suit. For the record, I don't even know how to swim so I'm not missing out

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 26/07/2025

Rediscovering my love for manga 🫶

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 23/07/2025

I haven't eaten in a few days and I'm not hungry at all. .... Okay yes, now that you mention it I may be disassociating since I feel nothing at all, period. Not hungry/full, hot/cold, tired/pain. At least I'm still sleeping

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 22/07/2025

I don't know what I'm doing wrong. I'm depressed as hell. So I keep doing things to improve my confidence and I workout in non destructive ways now. It keeps getting worse.

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 17/07/2025

I wish I could go back and talk myself out of gaining weight. Cause clearly I didn't recover at all, just gained weight

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 16/07/2025

Being current in 0ne P!ece sucks. This is how I end up returning to fanfiction I bet

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 15/07/2025

Shout out to oomf from the old app who suggested keeping your bread frozen. Makes it harder to binge + always fresh

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 13/07/2025

I get closer to relapse slowly. Just need to bide my time

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 12/07/2025

Been on a BG//3 kick. That's been good

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 09/07/2025

Fucked up at work after already feeling pretty bad. I'm kinda just in my room waiting for the day to end. I'm so tired

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 08/07/2025

missing my old x moots :,/// the ones who stayed behind

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 08/07/2025

I'm going to call my dad today, gotta do it. I've been talking about it for weeks

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 08/07/2025

too scared to weigh myself or count cals but I've been roughly maintaining. however that won't last if I keep drinking

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 08/07/2025

desperate enough to consider therapy

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 08/07/2025

we got post notifs....but not private accts 😩 bite my ass bro, where's my priv accts???

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 07/07/2025

Idk what to do. I hate my life so bad. I can't find a way to get stability

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 05/07/2025

If working out doesn't give me endorphins does that mean I'm not doing it right

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 05/07/2025

Gonna do a workout then idk maybe nap? Cry? I keep procrastinating calling my dad. I need to get this figured out, I have just six months to move

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 04/07/2025

I just need to replace my bookshelf and it will be the first time I've had furniture I *want* in my room and not what I *settle* for

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 04/07/2025

Trying to talk to bf went exactly how I feared it would.

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 03/07/2025

I'm doing:) really bad:) I cried all night, had nightmares, bf refused to see me this morning. I have nowhere to go. Literally not a single safe space. At this point do I just turn myself in somewhere? What's up?

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 02/07/2025

Idk wtf I'm doing for food today, I haven't eat so far. May just .. not :) we will have to see. Basically I have to restructure my life and beliefs now. Despite best efforts became important again at work. Will probably be moving soon

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 02/07/2025

I really went "I'm not emotionally abandoned *that* often-" gurrrrl the acceptable number of times to be emotionally abandoned is ZERO. That is the only acceptable amount. Standards. Learn them. Let's go.

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 02/07/2025

This day is a little bit actually cursed. I get in a fight with bf, my twin needs emergency surgery. I'm going to burst into a million pieces and cry

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 02/07/2025

I was trying to delete my drunk ramblings from last night and accidentally deleted my vent from this morning I fucking hate this app

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 01/07/2025

My nightmare coworker who's been ruining my life for years is finally leaving. I got to be happy for like twenty minutes, now I'm about to cry into a bottle because my job is going to demand everything from me for nothing now.

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 01/07/2025

I try to express myself or even just process any thoughts/feelings and it's straight to s****** like... How do I make progress under these conditions

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dolly 🍰🍓 @daintydolly.bsky.social · 30/06/2025

how i feel now that my thigh gap is back n i can feel my hipbones properly

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 29/06/2025

I wanna go home and k/m//s. I'm done. I'm so tired of this

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 28/06/2025

Do I complete my social media purge from the beginning of the year and get rid of everything?

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 27/06/2025

This weekend is fucked in terms of intake but I'm on that shit soon as I get home Sunday

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 27/06/2025

Decided I'm going back to the good ol days in July

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 27/06/2025

Saturday should be great! I'm really looking forward to it. Some games and drink, celebrating my sibbie's bday. I can wear my fancy jacket cause it's casino themed

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 27/06/2025

I regret deleting my twitter because this algo is so garbage dude. I kinda hate this app fr

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 25/06/2025

I don't know how to make sense of what I'm experiencing. I probably should be learning from what I go through but it ends repressed regardless so a lot of life after 2018 is TV static

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 23/06/2025

I hate that I keep trying to cure my loneliness with food like I didn't spend the past year desperately removing food as a coping skill.

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 23/06/2025

I don't know how to get better. I obviously can't do it on my own. Do I even bother? Can I skip to the end?

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 22/06/2025

Urge to binge to just stop feeling so alone. I hate this.

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 21/06/2025

In that hell where I can't eat anymore today but distracting myself isn't working so I'm just staring at different meal options that I will never have

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 21/06/2025

Happy #edpicnic ft quiche Lorraine and my stuffed animals:))

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 21/06/2025

Stayed up until 2am playing Pla/net Z/00, slept, then got up for the dispo at 7am. Ran errands. Now I'm home and very late to #edpicnic but my food is in the oven rn

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Kessa || MCR 5 Days @kessaskcals.bsky.social · 20/06/2025

Wanna get drunk but I drank Wednesday and my weight is up so I should not do that and just stfu and lock in. However being aware of the state I'm in is not good either.

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