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a decade ago, it used to be oh ho ho, my natural wiles have fetched me another worldly delight- come hither, thrall what is your tithe? and now now it sucks. im tired. im hurt. im in pain. im angry. i cant taste, smell, barely feel. i dont believe in love leave me alone

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 18h

if all those people hadnt been so bewilderingly nice to me right after my divorce, with my phone and everything else, id think i was cursed to only be treated nicely by people intimately interested in me i am in fact still nine kinds of fucked up from my abusive marriage this sucks, actually

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 12/10/2026

for those whom it concerns, im still here friends came and got me putting all my temptations away spending time with good people, not being alone i tuned my bass for the first time in forever hi im here, im still here

auyán poses in comfy clothes with the face of a mirthless trucker. theres a fretless bass in their lap, they are making a peace sign

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 12/10/2026

hey this is it, does anyone still want

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 10/10/2026

horny lesbian looks aside, i just had to fill in the dug out graves of four of my children, knowing that some of the piles of neglected dog shit all around the yard used to be their corpses which uh this is fucked up very, very good reasons why they're my ex they wont ever bring it up

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 09/10/2026

hi its me yer problematic crush im here to do that yard wor- what do you mean what am i wearing

auyán poses in a kitchen wearing a studded cap, an explicitly lesbian shirt, thick black hoodie and clear nitrile gloves

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 05/10/2026

all moved out of the old temp room and into a new temp room 🥲 this ones a sublet tho so its partially still filled with someone else's stuff and it doesnt really feel as homey i miss the dilapidation tbh

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 04/10/2026

shopping on my own!!! feels bad 😢

someone stands mostly in silhouette in a dark glass window reflection. theyre outside, theres a parking lot behind them

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 01/10/2026

i always have to ask them to give me the radioactive ones like i dont see them glowing full of ability points on the shelf

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

pics of the chaps that only secondarily showcase the chaps

a selfie of a venezuelan dyke with the camera held high overhead, theyre wearing a cap, clear glasses, a small black croptop and thock black chaps over faded grey black jeans. theres a cluttered bedroom behind and under them. they wear a casually intrigued expression

a venezuelan dyke crouches coaching style with their forearms on their thighs, looking with neutral interest at the camera, theres a messy room in the background

a picture of mostly a wall with some sparse decoration, primarily an ornately black framed mirror where a venezuelan dyke wearing leather chaps embodies the vibe of wearing leather chaps

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 25/09/2026

started wearing leather chaps casually because fighting the urge to hide my fashion whims in the face of feeling really cringe has become a source of power i feel like a witch feeding off a cursed object also i found them at goodwill for like $5 😺

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

this is not an instructional im insane about DIY HRT experimentation

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

that guy was right, calling a razor brand venus is vile im gonna start a machete brand named venus because thats what it should take to navigate a beautiful woman's body hair me in the bush if im totally honest 🪓😤🔪

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 24/09/2026

my silly ritual of smearing the little left over t gel on my hands on my happy trail area has worked. i have dark hairs there now moving onto my pits now.. 😏👏🏽

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 23/09/2026

upgraded the bedframe cuz the middle supports kept falling over

a slap shod bedframe made of visibly neglected wood with an unorthodox support structure. its in a thickly decorated room with a window at the head. someone is giving a thumbs up in the upper right corner

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 22/09/2026

shirt idea: uninterested unavailable unapproachable in a recycling icon and in the middle theres two stick figures holding hands with a 🚫 over them

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

i think its time to just cry for awhile

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 21/09/2026

made a bedframe from sidewalk wood slightly less of a scumbag

a small cluttered room with a bed on a bedframe taking up most of the space

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 18/09/2026

tried bleaching the mysterious tawny stains on my lesbian sex shirt and instead i made the black accents turn gayer but the stains are still there 😩

a mini baseball tee with black sleeves and collar bleached unevenly reddish brown and orange-pick. theres a gestural sketch of two sapphic lovers loving on it in black lineart. its on a bar camping mattress

a close up of the bleached accents on the shirt

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 17/09/2026

no fleas this morning, instead natural is healing

an intense close up of a very small spider on a greyish beige shirt

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

me tanking the hits to protect my inner child/tadpole

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 16/09/2026

had my first nighterror here raggedy shadow hag pulling my sheets from the corner of the bed but it only lasted like 1 min or something? wasnt really that bad. i think my fear instinct is broken even during night terrors lol

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 15/09/2026

toasting milky spruce resin

a jar held up to the light over a bed. its full of partially melted milky spruce resin toasting with twigs and leaves inside. the jar is closed

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

sending this to my white friends, "you as a baby 🫵🏽"

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

weedwhacked for like thre hours through overgrown woody land in this outfit swaggiest teen on the landscaping team / most toxic lesbian in their mid 30's at the bar also my teeth are upsetting painful rn and i have to clean them a lot right now

a venezuelan lesbian poses in a bathroom to show off their embarassingly swaggy outfit. theres a black scribble off their hip with red text over it "definitely not a toilet here" also they are actively using mouthwash

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

this is a disability acceptance/persistence tattoo, also im always in pain, im always grumpy because of it but i can own that, and turn it into something that goes hard most people wont intuitively understand that and thats ok with me

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

what do depressed ex trophy wives do but post pictures of themselves and their rooms on the internet

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

oh its called "The Things" because, you know, ofc

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 14/09/2026

"i bring a sort of unknowably flesh-based continual identity vibes to polar research stations that idealogically divided teams of western scientists dont really like (but i do regret the dog)" worked 15 mins on that after remembering the version of The Thing written from The Thing's perspective

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

it was just a picture of my space here, while i still have it

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 13/09/2026

man my film is fucked up, this is fresh out the guy

someone holds a damaged, freshly taken polaroid yet to develop its picture but showing lots of shapes and contract. theres a messy bedroom floor in the background

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 12/09/2026

i went camping with one of my besties otw to swimming and yea i did swim with fishnet tights

a trans venezuelan dressed kind of flamboyantly over their swimming clothes squints up at the camera against the sun. theyre outside, standing on some asphalt and it is bright outside. theres some grass at the top of the image

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 07/09/2026

blessed, wondrous, subtly disturbing??

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

sometimes its yer birthday and you get prompted to think "huh.. when DID i lose that organ?"

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

wait i have an esophagus in this photo, this might be younger??

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 06/09/2026

wahoo im 35 lookit this baby, she's 26 and then theres this fuckin guy

a 26 year old woman smiles with a wild dissociation burning in her eyes. shes in a car, wearing a torn black tank top and a key around her neck. theres some feathery bullshit in her hair

this fuck guy poses in a campy way to celebrate the wickidity of diy piercings

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

i am very intensely not having an ok time right now i dont want to feel respected or compassionately considered or humanized i just want to be safe alone? i hope that isnt the only way.. i dont know how to think about or process any of this in a way that doesnt make me feel like a selfish liar

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 05/09/2026

feeling fucked up about how people have treated me in living memory and trying my best to embody how everyone else is treating me i am scared but i dont have to be i blame myself but i dont have to i think i deserve this then, now and forever but i dont i dont know what that means, yet

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 03/09/2026

oooh fuck, gotta make one now 📝 siicckk 🔥

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 02/09/2026

thats a gooey squishy mirror if i ever saw one

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 01/09/2026

we all get the craving every once in a while, aint no shame in it

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 28/08/2026

nervous about bending and heating/etc'ing it but ill deal

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 28/08/2026

found the biggest ratchet strap ive seen in person on the street while biking but its a lil tore up. but the person who took me in loves ratchets and i wanna give it to her for her birthday as an ornament i think some tastefully applied and cleaned up brazing would look real pretty

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 23/08/2026

shirt idea: Divorced Worse Than Before

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 21/08/2026

my temp divorce sanctuary might be full of flaking lead paint but at least it looks cool

a dilapidated room littered with misc posessions. theres no ceiling and the walls are covered in flaking lead paint

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 19/08/2026

safely somewhere to stay now hoping for some quiet..

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Auyán @kerepakupai.bsky.social · 18/08/2026

oh and its just gonna be me being me lol so no unhinged horny captions or intense horniness at all tbh

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